When we walk in the door, something wraps its arms around my neck

            “Thank goodness you guys are okay.” I heard Ryeowook say. I looked closer at what was holding on to me and I realized that it was him. He let go of me and hugged the others.

            “We tried calling your phones like twenty times each.” Leeteuk added. Everyone else quickly followed after him, including her. She made eye contact with me, she actually looked worried. That’s a lie. I quietly slipped away from them and went to my room. I took off my shirt and shorts and threw them into my dirty clothesbasket. I walked over to my dresser in my boxers and white socks. I heard someone clear their voice; I turned around and saw her. I quickly threw on shorts and a shirt.

            “Yes?” I asked, keeping myself a safe distance away from her. She crossed the room and sat on my bed,

            “Good memories in this room.” She smiled and looked at me. I just nodded my head.

            “Sit.” She said as she patted the spot beside her. I carefully sat on the opposite side of my bed. She rolled her eyes and scooted closer to me.

            “I’ve missed you.” She whispered. Her breath was sweet. She moved closer to me, I started to breathe shallow breaths. She smiled

            “Siwon, your with Siwon.” I whispered. She kissed me, first gently and sweetly. Then harder and with more passion, she moved her way on top of me and deepened the kiss.  She ran her fingers through my hair as I moved my hands over her familiar body. She laid me down and kissed my neck. I moaned with pleasure. Siwon, I can’t do this to him. I gently tried to push her off me but she didn’t budge. I pushed her harder

            “What don’t you understand? Get off me.” With that she landed on the floor. A surprised look covered her face.

            “Get out.” I whispered. She continued to sit there.

            “Now!” She got up and opened my door. She turned around and looked at me before leaving and closing the door behind her. I fell to my knees; I felt her touch tingling all over my body. I felt gross. I got up and went to the bathroom and started my bathwater. While I was waiting, I scrubbed my teeth, trying to get her taste out of my mouth. I looked in the mirror and noticed that my bathwater was filled enough so I stopped and got in. I sat there, getting use to the water. I grabbed my shampoo and tried to get rid of her touch from my hair. I then took my body wash and scrubbed my body. When I finished, I could still feel her. I let my head smack again the wall. I scanned the tub trying to find something that would make her touch go away. Then I noticed it. A piece of the metal track that keeps the glass shower doors in place was sticking up. I moved quickly, getting a closer look at it. It looked sharp so I gently touched it, it was. I picked at it, making it a little longer. Once it was at a decent size, I started bending it back and forth until it finally broke off into my hand. I smiled and continued to study it. I flipped it through my fingers. It would slightly cut them. It looked as a golden dancer was throwing streaks of red paint onto my fingers. After awhile it started to sting, you would of thought that I would of stopped but the pain felt good. I soon had to have more. I took it and ran it down my legs gently, only leaving small open cuts. I let the pain fill my body then took it and made the cuts deeper and deeper on each leg. I watched as my water turned red. I took it and let the metal piece deeply dance on my wrist and arms. I let go of the piece and let it sink down to the bottom of the tub. I laid my head down into the water and looked up at the ceiling. It started to blur and my eyes started to close. I smile. When I’m almost asleep I see Han Geng’s worried face looking down at me. I’m confused, why is he worried. I feel much better. I go to ask him but before I can, I fall asleep