Laughing.

Liking.

Crying.

Smiling.

Hating.

Being jealous.

Plotting.

Hitting.

Hoping.

Loving.

It was all because I loved him.

I promised that I would "marry" him.

But who was this promise made to?

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Starting from the first day of school, I knew that the boy I once loved and loved from then was in my class. 

In fact, sitting behind me.

Here's the problem with that. There are three boys. In fact, all of them remind me of the boy in my memories.

Of course I can go by the name but....I can't remember the name, face, height-anything about the boy. I apparently had a trauma that even my parents can't remember clearly about due to their own part of the shock during the accident.

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I was always happy going to school until that one day when I met the boy again. I thought it was the worst mistake ever. 

He had a fiancee. 

To make that worse, she was my so called bestfriend who used me from the start. It even looked like they were in love.

Because I knew that from the day I saw them through the small peak that the curtain had made inside my dream house, they were smiling.

Each smile.

Each laugh.

Each hug.

They all broke my heart. 

Why has he forgotten about me too? Why can't he remember me enough to hold onto my hand and the promises made first? 

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I'm looking at them again. I have two other guys willing to take my hand for the rest of his life, but I just can't.... Even if my chances are scarce, I have to try to break up the couple to have the boy beside me..... why am I so hateful?

If he did have me by his side, would he still be happy?

If only I had realized earlier that he was the boy and that he knew who he was to me. 

If only I hadn't walked away from him that one night he told me. 

Would I be the one standing next to him?

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(Next part/view of foreword)

You were searching for that one boy who had saved your life when you were little, took your first kiss, and asked  for your hand in marriage in the future.

What would you do if you found out he was the one next to you all along? 

What if he was engaged once, and was engaged again-with your so called friend?

Would you risk so much just to get him or walk away?

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