If only it were a dream
Pain behind a songHi hope you guys enjoy it!
Sorry for not updating in a long time!
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"Am I wandering in a dream and beyond? I just want to look in those eyes and stay in this dream forever."
"Sehun! Pick up the pace your dancing is getting messier and messier, you have to hit the moves better and sharper like Lay and Kai. Maybe if you worked as hard as them you would be a better dancer and the main dancer," said the dance instructor.
That was the first strike that made Sehun hurt.
"Sehun! Come on are you trying? It's just two simple lines, and you can't even do it correctly, maybe next time you won't have any lines. If you tried and practiced like Luhan, Chen, Kyungsoo, or Baekhyun, you could be better and not waste time," said the music teacher.
Strike two, the walls put up are starting to crumble.
"Sehun-ah, pick up your clothes, you're the maknae, take care of your chores and duties, the hyungs can't watch over you all the time, stop messing things up, we're all tired," nagged Kyungsoo after they came back from practice.
The third strike, Sehun should have broken, but he didn't, they didn't know when he would break, but he knew he would soon.
"Sehun is a lazy Dancer", "Sehun is useless", "Sehun is a fat dancer who rings EXO down", "Why is Sehun in Exo? Why is he still living?","Sehun the cute maknae, more like the creepy little child" all these titles and words that Sehun keep reading over and over again on various sites. He didn't understand why no matter how hard he tried he was still like this. After he kept seeing these hurtful comments over and over again, he finally found an answer, he was just simply imperfect. This was the final blow, Sehun had finally broke. He went to the store to go runn errands for his hyungs like the perfect maknae should, and after he bought the groceries he bought some blades for himself. He went back and gave the groceries to Chanyeol and secretly went to the bathrooms with his new blades.
Sehun was nervous, he had never done it before, was this really the right thing?
Is this really the right thing to do? Sehun thought.
Of course it is, its the only right choice you've made in you useless life, said a new voice
who are you
your inner self, the one who speaks the truth, I'm the one who is going to guide you to try and fix your miseable life. Now listen carefully, take one blade, then drag it across you wrist, don't worry there's a reward at the end.
ok, just place and drag simple.
Sehun followed the steps over and over until it was a bunch of red lines over his wrist, it surprisingly didn't hurt, it actually felt good, the pain was a punishment but he felt he needed it, he was finally doiing something right, or so he thought.
this surprisingly doesn't hurt, it actually feels good, the red is so beautiful, i'm finally doing something right, i need this
there's your reward, now just keep doing it over and over.
okay.
*knock knock*
"Sehunnie, come and eat dinner with us! Kyungsoo made it," cooed Luhan as he called to Sehun. Everyone was just waiting for Sehun to come so they could eat.
"Okay hyung," said Sehun as he followed Luhan. He and Luhan went into the dining room and saw all the members there arou
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