Maybe I'm too tired
Pain behind a songhello!
sorry for not being here in a long time.
Hope you enjoy!!!!!
love ya lots!
-seiyoung
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"Sometime when I look at the stars, I wonder how they always manage to shine, I try, but I can't."
White. That was all Sehun saw when he woke up.
Dizzy. That was all Sehun's head felt.
Pain. The feeling that traveled through his arms when he moved them.
Scared. That was all Sehun felt when he realized what had happened.
The soft sound of the door opening made Sehun turn his head.
"Oh, Sehun-ah, you're awake. How do you feel," asked Suho gently.
"Hyung, do you," started Sehun,"know?"
Suho's eyes saddened.
"Yes, Sehun. So does all the others, but now we can help you. We want to help you, we want to know why you are hurt yourself," said Suho.
Sehun started to feel naseous, now that all his hyungs knew, they would surely think he's a freak. They would call him weak and pathetic, all he was to them was a flaw, a burden, a child, a lost cause.
I told you
You're back
yes.
Go away, please. Not now
i'm the only one who can help you
My hyungs are the only one who can help me. They care, they care. atleast they will pretend to.
your hyungs don't want you. who would want you
You're right. why didn't I realize it. Why. why.why.
the fans are correct. You don't deserve to be in exo. You don't even deserve to live. You are weak, pathetic, ugly, and monstrous.
You're right. I am pathetic. I am weak. I don't deserve to live. Why am I such a burden to hyungs, they only get hurt. No matter what I do, it just makes things worse. I'm a mistake.
You hurt your hyungs.
How could I be so monstrous, my perfect hyungs, All I did was hurt them.
Sehun started having a panic attack. HIs heart monitor rose and started beeping loudly. Suho felt frozen, all he could do was watch as his dongsaeng was in pain, he felt like he had failed at being his hyung. All this time, he had no idea of how he was feeling. Suho tried helping Sehun and hugged him while whispering words or reassurance. After a while the nurses arrived to sedate Sehun. As he fell asleep slowly he whispered one thing,"I'm sorry hyung".
Everything went pitch black.
When Sehun woke up it was night time. Now all his hyungs were in the room, all fast asleep sprawled out on couchs and chairs. He stared at Luhan who was sleeping next to him, sleeping in a chair, with his head on the bed. He
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