OMG its been such a long time! But I've missed writing on here, and finally after almost a year, I wrote the next chapter! I'll try to update as much as I can and thank you guys fro being here always and supporting me and my story. This chapter is really intense and angsty, and if you are easily grossed out by grim descriptions, then skip some parts. 

Enjoy!

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"They look their opinions and tried to turn it into the truth. It was always what they thought."

"We thought he was getting better, we thought he was alright," Baekhyun whispered with tears streaking down his face standing outside of Sehun's hospital room with the rest of EXO and the doctor. 

"I thought he was going to be fine and healthy again, but it looks as if there's a more serious problem," said the doctor quietly with a grim expression. 

They tried to be quiet and tried to hide it all from Sehun. They thought he was okay. He was tired of hearing "We thought". That's all people ever did. They thought whatever they wanted about him. They thought that they knew the truth about him, they thought they could see through him. It was all misjudgements. It was just their thoughts. They look their opinions and tried to turn it into the truth. It was always what they thought.  

flashback: 

"Sehun-ah, we'll be back. We have to go to our schedule's but we'll be right back as soon as we finish, and we'll even bring you milk tea!" exclaimed Chen as he got up from Sehun's bed side. 

"Neh hyung. Don't push yourself to hard. All of you hyungs, take care," said Sehun with a smile. All of EXO bid Sehun good bye with a hug or an affectionate ruffle on his hair. It was the most peaceful it had ever been for EXO in a long time. With their comeback over, EXO had time to visit Sehun and talk to him and shower him with affection. Sehun was slowly recovering, he was happier and less depressed. He tried to make efforts and the doctors had told him he was doing great. It was nice that he got a chance to take a break from the hard and draining life of an idol, but sometimes it wasn't too pleasant. 

There were times when he couldn't help but feel lonely and alone. He had to try his best to push all the negative thoughts away and forget about them. He also had a lot of time to sort through his thoughts. He couldn't help himself as all the negative thoughts surged back into him, all the nasty comments, hurtful experiences, but he had no one to help him through all of it. His mind always wandered back to Eunbyul. He felt all the guilt, heartbreak, and longing all over again. If he could restart, he would. But sadly, life wasn't that forgiving. 

One day, he was sitting alone in the EXO practice room, listening to music and waiting for the members to come back from their schedules. He was well enough that he could be released from the hospital, but still wasn't allowed to train and practice with the members. He was having a peaceful time when suddenly the door opened. 

"Hyu-," Sehun was about to call out thinking it was s but stopped half-way. It wan't , but his sunbae, Taeyeon. Truthfully, he was always intimidated by her. He always had a strange feeling around her, it felt like she was the predator. He didn't know why, but ever since he entered the company, Taeyeon always ignored him. She talked to all the members, and it even seemed like she took a liking to Baekhyun, but she was always cold to him. She tried to hide it with a fake smile but it just didn't seem right to Sehun. 

"Oh. Sunbae, Annyeonghaseyo," he said as he bowed respectfully. 

"Ah,  Sehun. Annyeong, How are you," she asked with a forced friendly tone. But it fooled Sehun, he was too pure, too trusting, and he let out the breath he hadn't realized he was holding. 

"Everything's fine, sunbae, thanks for checking in," Sehun replied with a smile. 

"That's good. Better than before when you were in such a pathetic state, honestly you should be really thankful for your members. They're really great people, sticking by someone like you," she replied with malice in her voice, her true personality towards Sehun showing. Sehun shouldn't have been surprised it was something that he was expecting, but he was still taken aback.

"What do you mean," he replied with a shaky voice.

"I mean it's really a wonder that they're still sticking by you. You were always the weakest, always the least talented. Do even think for a second they accept you. You're purely a business relationship. They have to be nice in order to maintain EXO's image, you're the weakest link and of course they don't want to have a weak link. You're pathetic," she yelled at him.

Sehun didn't know why any of this was happenign what did he ever do to the world to deserve this? Why did this always happen to him.

"Sunbae, I know that I may not be the strongest in EXO. But I don't think you're talking about me just because of my talents. Why do you hate me so much. You barely know yet you act like you do. You say you're doing this for EXO, but I think that it's much more than that," he