Relapse
Pain behind a songHere it is. He's going to tell me to never bother them again because I'm so disgusting
beep....beep...beep.....
Sehun woke up to the sound of a beeping machine. When he looked around, all he saw was white walls and the monitor next to him.
He was back in the hospital. Again.
He was in the hospital again even after he had promised himself and s that he would get better and that he would feel better.
Of course that was too big of a promise to keep.
He was alone in the hospital room so he had some time to think to himself.
Am I really that pathetic? Why does everyone keep saying these hurtful words to me? I bet hyungs are disgusted by me now.
Of course you are, did you just realized that? it's about time. All those words that people telling you are true, they're only hurtful because there's so much wrong with you that there's nothing good to say. Your hyungs never loved you in the first place, they were always disgusted by you.
Stop. I know that's not true, it can't be. Hyungs promised, they said they sincerely loved me.
And you promised you would get better and that you wouldn't keep hurting yourself. Those were all just empty promises that didn't mean anything. They. Hate. You. Everything about you, from your lacking skills, your hideous voice, your hideous body, your pathetic life, and your pathetic existence.
After hearing that Sehun couldn't take it anymore and started freaking out. He started seeing black and white dots everywhere and it felt like the airflow had just stopped and he couldn't breathe. He felt a pang of disgust as he looked down at his scarred wrists and felt a need to hurt himself. He grabbed the sharpest thing that was close to him which happened to be a plastic butter knife from the tray of food the staff had left for him. He aimed the knife at his wrists and started to cut himself, mind still blurry and panicked as he watched the knife create deep gashes causing blood to flow down his arm.
s had comeback from the trip to the supermarket to buy some snacks when they saw the shocking sight.
"Sehun!" Suho yelled as he saw the mess Sehun was in and frantically ran towards him to stop him. He tried to grab the knife out of Sehun's hand when Sehun started screaming.
"No! Stop! You're messing it up I have to do this!" yelled Sehun as he felt a pair of warm arms surround him and he was pulled up against a broad shoulder. He slumped defeatedly onto the chest and just stayed still as he started at his wrists.
All the other members were surrounding Suho and Sehun with shocked faces and tear filled eyes. They had never imagined to be in the hospital again with Sehun in a depressed and panicked state. It broke their hearts to see how much Sehun was suffering and how much hate he had for himself.
After a few minutes of silence and the soft sound of Sehun's sharp breathing Chanyeol finally spoke up.
"Sehun," Chanyeol started, "Why?" It
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