Wednesday, October 13th. Jimin's birthday...

Minseo has invited us all to our usual bar to celebrate her now boyfriend's birthday. As I told you, Minseo doesn't act strangely when around others, that's why she invited me also.

Here I am, sitting at the bar, air thumping with the music, beat pulsating through my body and floor vibrating with each bass note; in front of me, a dozen of empty shot glasses and next to me, a guy whom I tried so hard to avoid in the past two days. Since I got discharged from the hospital. I couldn't bring myself to look at him or talk to him and now, he is sitting right next to me, looking down at his half empty whiskey glass and taking glances of from time to time, not speaking a single word. To my left, located the dance floor where Jimin and Minseo were at. Minseo was slightly bent over while moving her hips in a circular motion on Jimin's crotch area with Jimin's hands being all over her hips and back, biting his lips in the process. Minseo would look up at me every once in awhile with her disgusting smirk, as if she has won the biggest competition in the world, then back at grinding on Jimin.

I was getting sick at their actions and also because of the amount of liquor I've been drinking since I stepped inside the bar. I couldn't take it anymore so I dashed towards the restroom with stumbling steps. After occupying one of the stalls, I knelt down in front of the toilet and gagged a few times until a warm putrid feeling rose up my throat and an acidy bitter taste filled my mouth. I threw up everything in my stomach that was making me feel sick. Oh how I wish I could also throw up my feelings and everything that was making me feel sick emotionally. Too bad it's not possible... I barely had any energy left in my body after throwing up but still forced myself out of the restroom. By the time I got out, the music had changed into a slower and more calming music. It wasn't just any music either... it was me and Jimin's favorite song, 'eyes, nose, lips' by Taeyang. Suddenly all the memories we had with this song replayed in front of me:

I was playing the piano and Jimin was singing. We were only 17 at the time, still a junior at high school. We both were in the music club and even though we never had meetings, Jimin and I would always go to the music room at lunch and make our own music. He would intimate Taeyang while singing, causing me to laugh so hard that I would end up messing up the song and making him mad

"Yah, Kim Jihye!! Stop fooling around! It's the fifth time you're messing up the song!"

"But you're so funny when you intimate Taeyang!" I said, holding in my laughter

"Why? I can't be as cool as him?"

"Wait, you tried to be cool? then, why did it seem so...bizarre?" I choked

"Yah! you're being too much!" then he would chase me around the music room, making me trip over my feet and fall to give himself the advantage to take control and pin my hands above my head and start tickling me mercilessly. The room was filled with nothing but the sounds of our laughter.

Suddenly the picture in front of me faded and the couple came into view. Jimin's forehead was pressed against Minseo's and his arms were wrapped around her waist, swaying their bodies harmonically to the rhythm. Jimin's memories of me and this song are probably being replaced with Minseo... I didn't notice the tears welling up in my eyes, all I did notice was that I was running to the exit door, slamming it open I ran off to nowhere. My brain wasn't functioning anymore, I didn't know what to do or where to go...all I was doing was running.

Soon, my energy ran out and I was stumbling. I found a bench, which I then realized was a bus station, and plopped down on it. I was breathless, I felt numb, I felt weak... Thunder cried out from the blackened sky, the clouds invisible above. Instantly after, it poured down. Every drop of rain felt like cold rocks against my fragile skin. I began to shutter. I didn't have enough money or enough energy to go back to the dorm so I stayed under the cold pouring night sky, not caring that I was dripping wet. I hugged my arms, trying to give myself some warmth. My tears mixing with the raindrops before rolling down my cheeks. All of a sudden, the rain stopped but I could still hear the sound of heavy drops beating the ground harshly. I looked up and saw that a black umbrella was shielding me from the rain. The person who was holding the umbrella stood still, staring off to the distance before looking down at me with those familiar black eyes

"let's get you home" Jungkook said and helped me up. As soon as he supported me in his arms, I could sense the familiar sweet and manly scent of his cologne. It gave me comfort. I felt safe and not alone anymore. We walked in silence, having only an umbrella to protect us from the heavy rain. They say that if two people share an umbrella, they would become closer because they should walk really close to each other in order to be fully shielded from the rain. I guess we can relate to that... I'm pressed against Jungkook's chest while his left arm is holding me firmly over my shoulders. We've never been this close this whole time we've known each other. It felt good and comforting, he gave me this feeling that I shouldn't worry about a single thing in this world as long as I have him and I actually did feel that way. He was the most trustworthy person I've ever met and yet, I pushed him away. But no matter how many times I push him away, he keeps coming back to me when I need him the most. I felt guilty, but it was the only way.

When we reached our dorms, Jungkook helped me unlock the door because apparently, I was too drunk to do so. He walked me in but I stopped him midways

"ahm ok-kay Jung-kook-ssi! y-you can leave no-ow" I managed between my hiccups and he scoffed

"you really think I believe you?" he said in disbelief. I didn't say anything and my heels to walk off when he shouted from my back, startling me

"Stop avoiding me, Jihye-ssi!!" I quickly turned around to face him with widened eyes. There was a moment of silence between us until I spoke up

"Jungkook, please lea-" I got cut off by his lips. Both of his hands cupping my cheeks and lips covering mine into a rushed and forceful kiss. I didn't even have the time to react before he pulled back, staring deeply into my eyes

"and don't you ever! ever ask me to leave you again 'cause that ain't possible! I can never leave you Jihye, I love you! I love you and there is nothing I can do about it!" I could feel the sternness in his shaky voice, his teary eyes piercing through my soul, his hand moving to the back of my head and gripping a fistfull of my hair gently as he leaned closer. His eyes traveling down to my lips and then back to my eyes as he closed the gap between us. I was frozen at my spot, not moving an inch as I tried to grasp the situation

"J-jungkook...we can't-" and I got cut off again by his lips. This time was different. The kiss was hard yet soft, it was fiery yet passionate, it was filled with love... I found myself kissing him back. I didn't even know what had come over me to give in so easily. My mind told me to stop, but my body acted otherwise. My mind told me to pull away, only to find myself pulling him even closer.

I know that this is wrong, but why does it feel so right?

What's happening?

Before I knew it, I was pressed against the wall. My fingers running through Jungkook's hair, messing and pulling it gently. One of his hands moved down to my waist, pulling and pressing our bodies together that even a sheet of paper wouldn't fit between us. He bit my bottom lip, asking for entrance which I immediately granted. He slid his tongue into my mouth, tasting every corner of my mouth until our tongues met. That's when I felt the zap of electricity running through my entire body...that's when I realized how much I've been wanting this. I needed this. The room seemed to spin around me. I clutched onto him tighter as I felt my knees going weak by every passing second, he seemed to notice as he picked me up with ease and wrapped my legs around his waist.

Soon, his lips left mine and got attached to my left earlobe. My ears being one of my many sensitive spots, I let out a gasp. His lips moved from my earlobe to my jawline, trailing butterfly kisses along the way until he reached my neck. His kisses got rougher as he on the delicate, sensitive skin, causing me to jump and arch my back to his toned chest. I let out a low moan, balling my fists in his hair, making him groan at the sensation. He held me so tenderly in his arms as if I was the most fragile being in the world, kissed me so gently as if I would break if he got a little rougher. He pulled back just a little so that our eyes met, my eyes hooded from all the sensations he'd been giving me. He smiled ever so sweetly, his eyes filled with love and care. He brought his hand up to my cheek, caressing it with his slender fingers

"I love you, Kim Jihye" he whispered as if I was the only one who was allowed to hear these words from him. He leaned closer, I could feel the tingling of his breath against my philtrum before he lowered his lips to mine. I closed my eyes as our lips touched once again, ignoring the butterflies in my stomach going crazy. He lifted me, never breaking the kiss, and started walking to my bedroom.

Lips still connected, he gently put my vulnerable body on the bed and hovered on top of me and that was when I realized

This is going to be a long night...

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Author's Note:

Hey there, everyone~ been awhile, huh? I'm sorry for this super late update. I was kind of nervous to write this part (and I think you can guess why) and I was kind of having a debate with myself as to how to write my ideas for this chapter, which finally I decided to write what I was wanting to write this whole time since the beginning I started this story and honestly this chapter, even though is really short, is my favorite chapter so far and I hope that you guys also liked it.

Once again I apologize for the wait, my brain nearly shut down for this part but I overcame the struggle hahaha

As always, thank you for reading <3