Dear God please do not let the music stop. Let the song play forever. The steady rhythm of the beeps. Please God let those beeps play until they drive me mad. The song means God has not come to his senses yet. Anyone with common sense would want to keep you all to themselves. God doesn’t know your worth otherwise he would make the song stop. The song that means your heart has not stopped yet.

I am sorry I should not have done anything to make you suspicious. I should not have agreed to have lunch with him without telling you. You have done so much for me but what have I ever done for you? I should have done so much more. I should have told you I loved you a thousand times more.

“I promise if you wake up I will say yes. I will be your wife Heechul I will be whatever you want. JUST PLEASE WAKE UP! PLEASE I CANNOT LIVE WITH OUT YOU! Please do not leave me. Wake up and tell me you forgive me please…I love you Heechul.” I lean down, kiss your lips, and run my fingers through your hair. In addition, than I pray to a God you do not believe in. A God I hope will not come to his senses and call his angel home.