How the hell do I get my ego and masculinity back?

The question had been infiltrating Park Chanyeol's mind for forty eight hours now. Give back my ego, Moon Ah Reum!

Countless times he convinced himself that there was nothing wrong with his performance on Ah Reum's bed. Former bed friends begged, screamed and writhed under him. How can an inexperienced woman resist him? 

He tried everything- from teasing to y talking to rough and fiery. 

To be fair, not everything. Soft and slow. Avoided it. Hated it. Never did it with a bed friend. Ah Reum wasn't going to be an exception. From the way she reacted in bed, (oh, she didn't react by the way), Chanyeol was absolutely certain that their publicist had also no time for gentle and intimate bed sessions.A waste of energy and productivity.  An in-demand idol like Chanyeol with an insane schedule needed fast and convenient. There was no time for sweet nothings and vanilla sessions.  

Romantic Chanyeol wasn't gonna happen unless he meets a woman worthy of his soul and emotions. The affectionate kiss and love making was out of the question. 

So for now, he'll stick with his plan. He'll up the ante, maximize his performance, and get her begging for more, And if the plan fails,

no, he won't fail. He doesn't fail.

Let's play this game, Ah Reum. You'll be begging for Chanyeol in no time.

"Relax. You got this. It is natural to feel craving for the opposite . You are normal."

Ah Reum was not a desperate woman, but if she was talking to herself in the mirror, that can't be good. She grimaced. What the daring publicist simple wanted was another uhm, "meeting" with Chanyeol.

A top rank publicist with a degree in communications and years of experience  must be contacting media outlets for EXO's impending summer comeback at this hour instead of wondering when Chanyeol will give her that "call."

That call of mating. 

It took her guts to admit it, but here goes. Ah Reum craved for Chanyeol. Her semi-panicky mind was beginning to pollute her. She supposed that she hadn't done anything to drive Chanyeol away. The other night, she was obedient. Ah Reum sat on the bed when he told her to. She looked at Chanyeol when he told her to. Right, she had done nothing wrong.

Or had she?

Ugh. She was overthinking. 

It was easy peasy to call Chanyeol and initiate, especially now that EXO's North American tour had ended, but Ah Reum's knees weakened at the thought of inviting Chanyeol for another rendezvous. 

Maybe Chanyeol would be too exhausted to do it. Or worse, he'd secretly make fun of her for being too easy. Very likely to happen and embarassing!

Aish. Introvert problems at its finest. Scared to inconvenience people, terrified to speak their thoughts, ashamed of humiliation.

While she was phenomenal at business meetings and small talks with media outlets, talking about herself, her thoughts and her feelings was another story.

In her perception, there was nothing much about her, but one thing though, her heart was golden. Selflessness and sacrifices were frequent occurrence