FIRST OF ALL I'M SO SORRY TO ALL THE READERS ESPECIALLY TO THOSE WHO WAISTED THEIR TIME TO SUBSCRIBE THIS FIC. It has been what--a year? since i updated ;(( 

AND ANOTHER THING I CAN'T CONTINUE THIS STORY ANYMORE T__T 

Right im a loser i know this is my first ever fanfic yet i wasnt able to finish it /sobs/ Really i do have reasons mainly bcoz I WANTED TO LEAVE THE FANDOM. Im so ugly of a fan to think about it right? But really im so sad that most of my friends back then quitted the kpop life and move on. Some stayed i know but they keep hidden and we rarely communicate anymore especially to my co-chanbaek shipper chingu!! I FRIKIN MISSED THE OLD GOLD TIMES. Being an exo-l bring me happiness really and i missed that part of myself now. My time has been consumed by school and i cant focus anymore since my parents has high expectations on me, and i dont want to destroy that trust ;; Reading and scanning through updates on exo has been my mood therapy back then AND THAT DIDNT STOP UNTIL NOW. I TELL YOU UNTIL NOW. 

I REALLY TRIED TO QUIT AND LEAVE THE FANDOM BUT I CANT FAM /breaks down/

College is such a toxic yet i still manage to keep updated on exo through silently stalking people on twitter. I feel so alone loving this idols that i wanted to get out BUT I CANT LEAVE THEM BEHIND. This is so dramatic i know and you shouldnt be burden of this too but i wanted to explain to you guys how i stop writing this fic especially to those who commented and made my heart so happy :'( Through writing fic i was able to feel that someone atleast appreciate MY LOVE FOR EXO AND CHANBAEK. I think only one of my friend know that i still stan exo and ship chanbaek but we rarely communicate but i love her to bits and pieces coz once in a while we're able to talk about exo and our conversation became too long that we forget about sleep and time. 

More and more issues came on exo and me as a fangirl wanted to stop this delusion especially on the chanbaek issues but then again I CANT STOP. Chanbaek is so wonderful it makes my heart melt. As time passes by they became more and more real in my eyes. All the interaction may it be direct or indirect gave me all the go signals to somehow believe there's something between the two. SO IN THE END HERE I AM A PROUD EXO STAN AND A HARDCORE CHANBAEK SHIPPER!!!

EVEN THOUGH MOST OF THE PEOPLE AROUND ME DONT KNOW A THING ABOUT THIS, I WILL STILL CONTINUE TO SUPPORT AND LOVE EXO. I know this is just a phase in my life, BUT WHO DAMN CARES IM STILL YOUNG ANYWAY HAHAHA. I know ill laugh at myself when i grow older once i read this stuff.

I am planning to make a comeback like exo's lotto y'all!! I will finish this long time imagined fic so im not posting it anytime soon. But maybe a oneshot or drabble will do. Ive got tons of fics in my head i cant put them in words thelast time but im determined to make them for you guys. I know im not the bestest author out there but ill try my best to atleast give you an 'almost-worthy read' fic hihi. Reading and writing fics stresses yet calms me in such a confusing way. Like reading BITTER PILL now and i still have an exam tomorrow omygod. But i dont regret anything about it ^^ Authornims inspire me in a way i want to also give people fics that they'll enjoy like how much i enjoy reading their fics. But hey im repeating this again, IM NOT THE BESTEST AUTHOR SO DONT EXPECT TOO MUCH ^^V

Well this is getting out of hand and way too long for an intended explanation. I even think no one finish reading this crap orz SO ILL LEAVE THIS NOTE HERE AND LIVE THE LIFE I WANT AND BE HAPPY ONCE AGAIN. Thank u so so much guys please accept this unloyal exo-l again, will you? /smiles/