HOYA POV

He makes me dizzy 

He makes me into someone I can't recognize 

Someone stupid and falling heads over heels 

But I still feel I can't even say it out loud

It all feels like a dream.. A dream that I don't want to wake up from 

Whenever it starts I keep panicking when it's going to end 

And whether it's enough 

But it never is 

I kissed his dimple and I'm getting too into it that I left another one.. His smiling face fall into serious again.. Staring at me in a way that made me gulp

He's too damn close 

Just a little tilt of his head will make the perfect compact 

And he did

Turning slowing 

His eyes are staring at my dry lips 

I gulp

I've been thinking of this all day long

The taste of his lips again is all I can shamefully think of

I crave that taste again

And shamefully I'm leaning into his stare

Till our lips barely met

But

We part as soon as walking zombie enter the kitchen..

I cough 

Myung face was totally hidden under his hair that made Songjong raise his eyebrow: “L hyung .. You ok ?” Looking suspiciously at me

Damn it even the maknae thinks I bully him

Why can't they get it.. He's bullying me.. He's tricking me into kissing him again.. Ok sorry I'm being dramatic

L nod and then smile to maknae: ‘You are still up ?”

He shrug: “I had a nightmare”

L pout and reach up to Songjong and pat his hair: “Poor Jongiie”

Ok I can pretend I'm ok but my face is making I wanna hit Jong stop patting him like that

But I stay still, Like a good boy. I'm suppose to erase the thought that he was this close to kiss me 

I sigh shaking my thoughts 

Instead I turn and add chocolate to the milk: “Songjong want some ?”

He smiles brightly while taking a mug from me

And I gave another to Myung.. The way his face lit up upon seeing another mug

He make that face of this is for me!!! He look like a cute kid And I bite a smile because he's just too cute

I don't get that sharp demanding stare a while ago when now all I see is a happy kitten chatting with maknae

And I'm staring

This is where I should leave them both.. But I barely saw him and I miss the hell out of him

His stupid ridiculous gestures.. The way he gaze at people talking.. The way he keeps nodding and you know that useless head is overthinking anyway

The way he covers his laughs with his hand.. Oh how much I want to reach up and take that hand away

I crave that tasty heaven like dipped dimples 

My stare is making him nervous.. He shift and his eyes land on me

And then his face were fighting his own features hiding a smile

he want me to stare..!! He's enjoying this ..!!

I got water bottle and sat next to them playing with my phone 

Jong: “Hyung.. Hoya Hyung you are not sleeping?”

My face look at him and I nod saying: “I'm waiting for Dongwoo to finish showering,” big fat gay lie

Jong: “So you weren't awake for myung ..?”

Thank god the lights are dimmed because I blush hard and it will give me away knowing how smart our maknae is

I gulp

L: “I just reached home a while ago”

Jong nod knowingly 

L tapping Jong leg and my eyes are staring: “What did you dream of ?”

I want to be ok I really do.. But the fact I'm too needy for his attention right now is making me feel this rage of his lil affection towards everyone

I know he cares and I should too.. I rub my eyes and his eyes look at me

L: “Tired?”

Finally he's addressing my existence

I nod staring at him

Jong: “You should sleep Hyung”

Ok get it .. I do.. I definitely do.. I'm feeling I'm this close to cause a scene anyway

I'm about to stand then Myung's hand reach to my knee: “You sleeping?”

He doesn't want me to sleep

I stare at him: “Maybe I won't,” almost a whisper in questioning way

He again fight a smile and I bite my lower lip 

Myung heard each word coming of maknae.. He share every little detail of his dream and I was there pretending to read something from the phone while all I want is lean on Myung's shoulder next to mine

I can smell him

I can feel his warmth

That warmth that was wrapped on me a while ago

Is it possible to want someone so bad while he's literally inch from you

There was plenty of space on that sofa

But I made sure I had contact with him

My leg is pumping his

Each while during their endless conversation my leg nudge his and I can feel him smiling in maknae face

If I can keep his mind occupied by me while being with others

That's enough for me now

Till I lock him where there's no one but me he interact with

See what he makes me into ??

I got a text

From Dongwoo to Hoya:

"Hooooooyaaaaaaaaaaaaaa~

Damn bro you didn't get enough yet?

Get back in here.. I'm sleepy"

I tried not to look creepily amused on the flashing screen but it still made Myung avert his eyes on me for seconds and I bite my lower lip and look again at the screen typing

From Hoya to Dongwoo:

"You miss me?

Show me how much you miss me"

And it flashes again

Dongwoo To Hoya:

""

I laugh loud which made both of them look at me questioning, and I had to admit making him look at me like that is making something with my blood

And it feels good..!

He didn't break contact though.. As if his eyes decided he don't want to avoid me any longer 

Jong were shifting of the sudden change in Myung's attention and so he says: 

“I kind of feel sleepy,” standing up “Thank you L hyung for the talk..,” He stretches and start walking away then stops and turns, 

“I'm really glad you work stuff out,” smiling “Goodnight Hyungs."

I lock my phone and I still feel him staring.. And there's silence and I don't know anymore

One of us should say something now that we are finally alone

I felt kind of nervous: “You staying up late ?”

It's already late.. Perfect Howon what a brain you have.. You want him to stay but what you do is push him in another way.. And you wonder why you are sad!! God dammit..!!

L now averting his eyes on his legs that start pumping mine: “Actually I have been thinking,” biting his lower lip

I shake my head: “Don't think through everything,” I look at him to look at me and so he did “it's simple ..!”

L: “Is it ?”

Now I don't know what he's talking about.. I'm starting to think it's not ..?

Hoya: “I mean it's not healthy to overthink everything”

L shrugging: “I can't help it .. Kind of” voice trails off.

I sigh and then felt him nervous again, now swinging his leg and staring on it: “I won't push you away”

Those words were breathless and way too nervous that I felt I got chills from his voice: “you won't ..?”

He nods.. How cute 

L: “I will try be better,” now I felt what that nervousness is for “I won't make things that piss you off”

His eyes are getting kind of blurry and I felt my heart tightened 

He's afraid I will push him again .. That's any mistake I will start dislike him again

I pat his hair and his eyes look at me while blurring: “I can't go back now”

Neither can I ... Neither can I 

How long can I take from this

Hoya: “Stupid,” patting his hair “told you it's unhealthy”

He looks at me in a way that he will burst crying anytime soon but he smiles instead

I cup his cheek and lean forward 

Kissing his forehead: “You really shouldn't stay way up for too long”

And he laughs showing dimples and teary smiley eyes 

Can I kiss them again .. The words kept playing on the edge of my tongue

But my face is on fire.. I never thought I will be one of those guys 

But damn it.. I just want to show him care

He makes me into someone I barely know anymore

L: “Another thing ..”

Hoya: “I said no thinking”

L: “Just one thing”

Hoya impatient looking at him: “Spill”

L is shifting again and then swallowing: “if .. I mean if that's ok with you,” I feel his cheek is tinted red and I got urge to kiss them, “That if Hyung won't mind”

Hoya: (interrupting) “Yaaaahhh,” he look at me, “Do you always talk like that with all other men ?” smirking

His face just fall and then frown.. Then start rubbing his face with his palms while his leg pumped mine once twice and third was kind of stronger that I start laughing 

L taking off his hands to stare at me: “And what I said about that laugh ??”

I bite my lower lip and his stare is making me anticipate all good stuff 

Pissing kim Myungsoo is much fun

Hoya: “Rated,” voice almost a whisper while staring at him back raising an eyebrow

L POV

I easily get worked up.. And he knows it damn well

As soon his lips parted to whisper “Rated,” I lost all conscious.. My hand reaches to the back of his neck and pulls him closer and in seconds I taste those heavenly lips again.. 

He's kissing me back parting his lips before I even ask.. I wanted to taste him so bad.. The shameless need all morning flashing back of what we did last night

What we could have done if maknae weren't interrupting 

He moan Myung into my kiss and I like it

I like the way he say my name whenever he lose it 

Breathless and y and too caught in the moment 

The way he keeps repeat it unknowingly.. I'm doomed

I tilt my head to enjoy better access I'm cupping his cheeks and tasting his warm caverns.. Better than that damn chocolate… The way he fight with dominance and then he cave in and then he gets back to take control…  I'm losing track of who gets what

His hands slipping through my waist and pulling me closer 

I caught his bottom lip while whispering: “Howon”

Before breaking to find some air 

He's breathing hard nuzzling his nose on mine and I smile while my hands brush backwards through his hair pulling him much closer

And I left a last peck, that startle him so he start smiling 

L: “So what were Hyung doing all day ..?” Still playing with that soft hair

He let another laugh.. And it flickers something good and not good inside me.. The pitch of that sound is making waves in my stomach 

Hoya: “I was ...,” Taking a breath as if he just answered

His closed eyes look at me and he pull back a bit but I haven't released him yet 

Neither did he

He wet his lips again and I'm tempted to capture them again

But damn it have some restrain will you 

Hoya: “I barely had time anyway,” cold voice

I nod 

And he smirks

Hoya: “Ok maybe I had a bit time,” teasing

I nod again stronger

Hoya: “Fine I thought about you but it was just a passing second and I was like where's that dark black freak anyway,” with laughs

I nod smiling this time 

Hoya: “Then there's another second,” biting his lip and I could do that for him

L: “Another ?” Serious face

Hoya: “Maybe other one too,” showing those beautiful canines

L: “Ok I think it's enough for me.. Let's sleep”

Hoya frowns while I release him but his hands still on my waist: “Enough ??”

I nod seriously 

Hoya gasps: “You are using me !!!” making a shocking face

I let out a loud laugh 

Hoya: “So that's what this about ..!!”

L: “Of course I am.. I told you to stay haven't I..!”

He look hurt while releasing me now

Hoya standing up while muttering: “That’s what he meant by benefits,” nodding while walking away

And I laugh again capturing him in back hug... I couldn't stand the thought of his sad back walking away.. 

He was smirking while saying adorably : “Get off me,” shaking his back and I shake my head in a no and nuzzles on his shoulder that made him go hmm

L: “I told you I wanted to say something but you cut me off with your crap.. For how long you are using that against me.. You ing start that stupid joke!!”

He made a waaaaahhhhh sound and I laugh again

I close my eyes as if to say my point: “I need this ..”

He froze now letting all jokes aside 

L: “I'm not pushing you away.. And I need this more than anything”

He gulp.. 

L: “Hyung ..?”

He says nothing again 

So my hand that was resting on his stomach brushes to touch his chest 

L: “Breathe,” whispering on his neck, “I know you would go numb anyway,” smirking

He shivers 

And I find it too adorable that I kissed his temple 

L: “I call it Hoya time” with a smirk

He let out a laugh and I felt those beautiful vibration in the palm of my hands

Hoya: “Not only I'm being used.. I'm also being named”

I nod smiling against his shoulder blades muffling: “At least once a day”

He made another waaaahhhhhhh

Shaking his head and I'm tempted to kiss his cheeks again

how to stop!!!!

L: “So it's enough today”

Hoya frowns and tilt his head to look at me: “Talk about yourself”

Ok .. I'm burning 

I releases him and he laughs

Hoya: “Where are you going ??” Laughing at my sudden reaction

I wipe my sweaty hands in my jeans: “I haven't even change for god sake”

Hoya rising his eyebrows: “So I'm keeping you up !!! You told me to stay”

L shrugging not looking at him: “Till when ? 4am..!!”

And he snorts and approaches me patting my hair once: “Aiiishhhhh”

I smile at him: ”Goodnight”

He smiles back: “Goodnight”

GYU POV

Waking up late is something a leader shouldn't do.. But it happen anyway so off I'm a human after all

I panic jumping of bed and screaming: “WAKE UP EVERYONE WHAT KIND OF PEOPLE ARE YOU .. ANIMALS HOW LONG SHOULD YOU SLEEP !!! IS THIS A BARN”

I froze seeing everyone in kitchen and Hyun eating his cereal: “Yaah Namu “

He didn't look at me

Gyu: “Is everyone awake ?”

Not looking at me: “Hoya Dongwoo and myung aren't”

I nod: “Help me wake them up”

He look at me and sigh: “Fine you take infinite H,” I smirk at him, “I'm serious just try to come near Myung's room,” he made I'm warning you face

I laugh at him.. and shake my head while going to wake their asses off.

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HOYA POV

I'm barely here.. Sitting at the sofa while having breakfast 

Dongwoo: “Just imagine a dragon Hoya .. Tattoo of dragon”

I shake my head in a no

Dongwoo: “Tiger ?”

Ok I can hit him.. He's too awake that pains me to listen to his suggestions of tattoos 

He then smirks evilly: “How about kitten ..?”

I froze looking at his face while Myung stumble through the living room

His sleepy eyes lands on me 

And here that dimpled stupid face 

My chest tightened 

He approaches us 

And I feel stoned..!

What's he's up to since morning 

He's not having Hoya time not this early right !! Not when everyone's here

I gulp sweating and my heart pick it's high rate 

And as soon he reaches near he sat on the ground near my leg giving me his back.. I stare at his neck.. That beautiful mine neck totally Howon's

Dongwoo coughs and I stop staring at that cute kitten in front of me while looking at him smirking 

Suddenly I felt a hand hold my injured leg and I cannot stop staring at him holding it barely resting between his two hands, I can touch his stomach if i try

Hoya: “Wwwwhaatt are you doing..?”

His face turns and looks upward with that dimple smile: “None of your business !”

And he turns again

I felt screeching of a pen and I laugh 

He's drawing something on my splint 

I bite my lips and I barely hear Dongwoo that start complaining of my lack of focus on him

My hand unknowingly start patting that golden locks 

Don't judge me he's too near

Dongwoo hold a pillow and cover my hand: “Yaaaahhh you are insane ..!!”

I laugh 

My fingers were messaging his scalp and he's leaning into me backward: “Hyung let me finish before your leg gets better,” laughing

I laugh again 

Hoya: “Oppa..” whisper

Dongwoo throw another pillow on my face while storming away saying: “For god sake ..!!”

Myung turns staring upward at me again and I want to kiss those lips again: “wait..what..?”

Hoya laughing: “Call me oppa ..” teasing

Myung: “You want to die ??” Serious face

And I laugh out loud 

I'm already dying Myungsoo...!! 

When a man’s in love, he wants to stay by your side

There’s always so much he wants to do for you

When I’m in love, I want to give everything in my life to you

With just one expectation, your heart

My cheeks get redder and my head slowly drops

I’m only looking at you as I’m on my way

My confession gushes out as if I’ve been crazily running

Like a young child, I keep laughing for no reason

(Infinite- Man In Love)

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Finally a chapter

so tell me what you think so far ?? I appreciate your comments and feeds its what keeps me going

as you all figure out by now i have a weak spot for Hoya's laugh XD

AND LAST BUT NOT LEAST.. HAVE YOU HEARD GYU ALBUM !! ITS SO DAMN AMAZING IT GIVES ME FEELS

Wait for the next update.. seeyaa