HOYA POV

There's stuff to say

And things kept to your mind 

And other s that you spill while being pissed

The last one is killer.. Not because you said it.. It's because it's mostly irrelevant and you don't really think in that way

To put it in specific 

They are ing lies you say it to make you feel better 

Which you shouldn't 

And it made me feel worse.. Way way worse..!

I woke up to major headache and puffy eyes from all yesterday drama.. Good thing I'm not the visual huh ?

No the visual is there making some coffee 

And damn it 

He glows 

I squint my eyes to the scene

Everyone was slowly getting to the usual morning routine 

Getting their asses to kitchen scene while there's people that are too sleepy to care .. mostly /Myung and songjong/ but not today

People that want to make food but fail /Woohyun/

People who play loudly and get in trouble /Yeol/

Touchy people like they woke up to touch some skin /Woohyun and Dongwoo/

Those that yell /Gyu Gyu Gyu/

And those that are pissed every single morning

Take a guess .. I say Ho you say ?? 

I went in heading straight to coffee because god knows how caffeine was a must

As soon I walk in he walks out

Am I imagining things ??

I shrug and pour me some and I kind of pour the last of it

I heard Yeol: “Myungiiie my coffee ??”

He shrug with cold face sipping his own: “He took it”

Ok I don't know why on earth I felt offended.. Maybe the coldness in his voice.. And the fact he didn't look at me once

I shake it off while sitting and Yeol glared at me then whispers in my ear: “I put spit on it”

I snort.. The way he acts sometimes is so childish 

I take a sip and then look at Gyu yelling at Myungsoo to make some food

He suddenly place a hand on Myung shoulder 

Myung shrug it off so fast that Gyu had a look in his face

I cough with the sip I took

Damn it

I made him sensitive 

I bite my lip knowing I touch a nerve .., damn it 

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It's hard not to think when you uncover everything while being alone.. I literally did in the bathroom

But the sight of those bruised reddish marks made me gulp 

I touch one with my curious  fingers and I close my eyes

It all rushed back like water falling..

There's no way he didn't enjoy that too

The sounds of his strangled breathe .. The sound of .. His damn teeth grazing my skin.. 

I redden remembering the monster I unleashed yesterday

And then I remember his face today brushing Gyu hand off his skin

And that hot feeling turns to sickening one.. I almost throw up

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Recording.. Nice.. I can't dance.. Nice

Then why I'm here ?? /y mode on, oh wait he activated it last night/

I'm having difficult time to cover up his damn hickeys

I wear a jacket and let Dongwoo say if it's weird to wear damn jacket when it's not cold !!

He laughed a lot .. Duh Howon of course it is

From the look I got from Songjong.. He apparently agrees

Dongwoo talked to makeup Nona before anyone in.. Begging her to cover the damn marks ASAP

She let out some frustrated curses then let me in and I took off my jacket and she made a gasping sound and I shiver.. There's no need to describe my face

I scratch my neck while she got closer looks..

Nona: “So you were desert or main course ?”

I smile nervously 

She start applying massive pile of cream powder just name it.. She actually thought for a second to start drawing fake tattoos .. Yup no one will notice

Nona: “Was it good??,” while touching the last big hickey on my left neck.. It's where he started.

I close my eyes trying to shrug her question.. 

She eyes me and then smiled saying: “No more, Howon! .. But I'm kind of proud of you getting some actions,” nudging my arm with a wink.

I was burning .. And I kept biting my lips 

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Not being there with them performing sux.. Specially when dancing is what I like in this life

Recently everything that I like is forbidden ..!

The only thing That I'm good at is dancing.. And I felt out of place not to stand with them.. Not to stand in my position in front of him

Maybe he will look at me once

I fight back the stupid limp..

I need to sing.. Even though I felt like my world is crumbling behind me

I still gave it my all.. My eyes are kind of blurry

This emotional song is not helping me in bad days

It all feels like it's too bad to be here.. To stand.. To be ignored 

Fans though.. Their eyes were cast on me

At least I'm not being ignored from all

Did he feel that way when I pushed him away..?

L POV

He keeps looking at my direction.. His face look down.. I'm sure it's because of not dancing 

That's when he's the happiest 

When Hyung dance his heart out

There's no more Sincere Hoya than dancing Hoya

The passion in his every move 

Always make me embarrass to stand beside him 

Me dancing or trying to dance is beside that dance machine Hoya 

I miss him dance

Omg Myungsoo .. Really he look like a sad bird and here you are missing him.. After what he said yesterday you are crawling back like

Ok I don't have a word to describe me so feel free to suggest 

But I still wanted him without clutches.. Without splint.. And even if he was an

I still wanted him to stand beside me .. 

It all reached to the end of the broadcast and they are calculating the results.. Woohyun and Gyu start to show some panic faces.. Yeol is looking at the MCs and then me as if I know what's going on

Hoya was numb

And then here it is

We won

Upon hearing the results and fan screaming.. The members start hugging each other.. And even if I don't feel like touching today I let it be

Because it was all too much

My eyes were looking at the happiness in their features.. They are all dressed in red!!

Which took me back to our first winning and how much it meant for us to finally been recognized 

It's all feel too much

And my eyes search for him between the crowds

I don't care if I felt like slapping him last night 

This feeling now.. I wanted to share it with him

He smiles genuinely 

And I wanted to hug him.. Take him in my arms because at that moment

I wanted to show Hyung

Our fans love us

Support us

And there's nothing more sad to them than seeing you like this

But they are here for you

And our hard working.. It all pay off

His eyes meet mine and I froze

I don't know how to reach out for him with this fear

Fear of him judging me

So I went behind him

And between all the fuzz 

I place my hands on his shoulder

And give it reassuring squeeze

He smiles finally that one adorable freaking heart stopping howon smile

That's when I felt like I woke up from yesterday nightmare

When he smiles this world is fine.. Even if it's not for me

HOYA POV

I wasn't ready for his interaction in that moment.. And I'm sure those stupid tingles I felt from his barely there touch is enough to make me laugh in stupid way

Btw Dongwoo said something but I didn't hear him

But I laugh anyway

His face though.. *thinking* I felt his stare is teasing me because Myung approached me

Not helping dude.. Not helping !!

I can't get what was that about.. All day his eyes were everywhere but not me.. And not a single word said to me

But the hints he drop

Was enough to make me shiver in misery 

I'm always a game for him.. This hot and cold game and I hate that I'm actually excited about what's next

Ugh

I took a path and collapse on bed.. I'm not gonna do that same mistakes and approach people at night

No water today Hoya

Die of thirst

Unless he bring it inside room

Oh dear god stop 

I growl 

I doze off quickly.. I may not dance anymore but being old make me tired

Judge me!

Dongwoo trying to wake me up: “Hoya Hoya Hoya Hoya hooooyaaa!!,” He scream the last one and I start covering my ears and eat my pillow instead.

With muffled threats I say: “I'm gonna kick you with my dead leg”

He laughs and then starts annoying my again

Hoya: “For the love of god stay away from me..,” Crying voice, “let me get some sleep”

Dongwoo: “Yeol have rated movie .. Let's sneak and watch it.. No schedule tomorrow” 

Because we then gonna do that summer 2 preparation.. I don't see his point of not resting..!

Like I said I'm old with one leg 

Dongwoo adding: “No Woohyun and Gyu so no interruptions”

Woohyun and Gyu always fights when we watch rated movie.. Don't ask me I'm not them 

Ok I will tell

Woohyun gets excited then Gyu gets pissed 

There.. Happy ! God I don't like to tell on other people ,, ok maybe I do!

Hoya: “ off.. Not interested,” the only rated movie I'm up for is Myungsoo pictures

Ok you got me wrong even if u can't talk.. Your mind is sick that's why

I mean the pictures he takes you s /rolling my eyes mentally/

Dongwoo coughing while getting off me: “Myung is still awake”

My eyes shut open

And he burst: “kk hooooyaaa”

I look at him: “It's not that”

Dongwoo: “what's that ??” Still laughing

I blush

Hoya: “It's just that I pissed him off”

Dongwoo: “And you feel like apologizing” making y face

I blush and knock him with the pillow I ate 

Hoya: “I will make you a door if you don't stop,” that's mean he's sleeping outside

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We got inside Yeol room.. The last were already off and there's a freaking projector 

Hoya: “Holly ... Where did you got that !!!”

Yeol made an evil laugh while Dongwoo squeel in excitement 

Myungsoo was sitting near Yeol on the floor with pillows in his grip in between his knees..

And I bite my lip on the thought that I'm actually feeling like being a serial killer and start killing that lucky pillow as one of my first victim

Yeol is in the list 

He's the enemy .. 

Dongwoo gesture for me to sit beside Myung and I can slap him because he's making me blushing

I'm an old man.. With clutches

So when I sat I made a mess

And my leg pumped his

And he still didn't look at me not even once

He's focusing on the empty screen instead.. Yeey

May I add he was wearing a short

It's irrelevant to you but it's a matter of life and death for me

Good thing you don't see or you will be on my long must kill related to Myungsoo list..!!

Dongwoo sat on the other side near Yeol.. He's still making I'm not disturbing you two.. Have fun face with a wink

Someone slap him for me

I'm too old to stand up

Ok I was laughing .. It's one of those sarcastic rated movies that make me laughs.. A lot

And each time I laugh I felt something looking at me

Yeol and Dongwoo wooooohhhh noooo and ahhh was enough to distract me from the silent frozen non happy too perfect creature sitting beside me

The room is dimmed 

The scene were mostly shot at night

Then it's get really rated

and the only voices you hear are the voices you wish you don't hear

At least not when he's beside me.. His shifting and tossing pillows are the ones that make me aware he's here 

And it's ing too much to hear moans

And think of last night 

My face is burning 

And without knowing I cover my mouth 

Then that creepy feeling Is back

So I tilt my head 

And

His eyes were glaring at me

It's too black even when the light flashes all those shadows on him

I gulp

Taking in his perfect face looking at me..

And for once I wanted to cup his cheeks and made it look only at me like this

His eyes though start getting heavy 

Is it my head or is he looking at my nose

Lips

Jaw

Down to my throat that start nervously swallowing

His stare froze there too

And if I thought that I was even capable of watching with him before then I'm not in my right freaking mind..!!

Because his eyes is enough to make me feel like it's 90 degree

I'm telling you I might start pealing off my clothes 

I bite my lip.. Is it possible to feel turn on from only a stare 

My eyes are slowly closing 

He's looking at my damn neck as if he's going to attack me again

I bite the urge to pull him..!

I open my eyes to try have some sanity back

But his eyes were wide in my neck 

That's when I figure it out.. 

My hickeys were exposed..!

He's flushed staring at my eyes

When the darkness of the black night finds us

Those beautiful eyes close and drift off

I sit by your bed

And caress your hair

Looking into your face

I want to convey my love

I wish time would stop like this

You are just so beautiful

[GD&TOP- Babe Goodnight]

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sorry for the late update.. Happy Kyuzizi day ^^

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