Hoya POV

What do you wake up for..?

I couldn’t possibly answer that question weeks ago..

I couldn’t because I might not have decent answer for it

Pathetic.. sad.. call it whatever

It just felt like hope have slaughter my heart before it even try to fight back

And I caught up with my dreams

Caught up in life so fast and so strange

I didn’t stop a day to ask myself that question

Because

The answer was simple ..!

Simple question yet it rings all kind of alerts.. Senses.. Memories and then

Beats..!

I can lie saying it still the same though

But it’s not anymore .. every cell in my body knows that..!

The same reason that wakes me up though is the same ing reason why I can’t get the up right now..!!

I have been awake since he came in.. believe me I was this close to take off.. or greet him like it’s the most normal thing between any guys that know each other or have been in a band since forever.. or .. live under same ing roof.. you know..?

But he started climbing in

And I ing froze like I’m this huge lamb scared to death that I was being attacked

I know I’m being too dramatic.. it was only a black cat after all

One cute adorable needy fluffy scary blackie cat

And there my manhood goes

Like a dead body

Like if I move inch I’m gonna break or murdered anything can happen (NOOOOOT)

My heart jumping on his sudden moves

And it tightens so hard that I almost told him to ing stop (Not gonna happen)

It hurt so bad if it beats like crazy

And I just couldn’t manage do a thing.. speak or look alive in any ing way

So I just lay like that

Like a cold burning dead body if there’s such a thing..!!

And when I try to let my voice out

I swear I felt his chest suddenly gave in to sleep

And now I’m trapped

The Hoya..!! he arrives seconds ago and you went to this big pile of numbness

Ugh how much I hate and love me now

Hearing his light snore.. his light beat

Feeling his body finally close to me

His heat transfer to my flesh and bones

Blame me if I was wrong

But I felt it like being home

And I drifted

without even realizing

I was been captured by the freaking devil

…

Like the sun that suddenly disappear.. It didn’t I was just trying to be more dramatic.. It’s still morning and I only slept for about hour or something

What wakes me up..?

Is the feeling of being left in cold..!

I squint my eyes to the sudden change of light and I look around eyes still fluttering..

My hands suddenly pat my stomach signaling what I felt it was gone

His hold was no longer here

I was being released

So my heart did stupid kind of sinking and I hate my existence a little bit more

I didn’t have much time to process this sudden lapsing since Yeol storm inside the room shouting: “KIIIIIMMM MYUNGSOOOOOOOO”

He stops dead on track when his eyes finally lock on mine.. his pupils wide before he suddenly reach and 

Take off the sheet so harsh then he slam his hand on his heart saying: “Oh dear god you are decent”

I’m still laying there with no blanket above.. still not fully processing this

Hoya: (low voice) “The is your problem..?”

Yeol: (putting both hands on waist) “Me.. ?? I’m sorry are suggesting that I have an issue ..? me (pointing to his chest) MEEEE !!!! have you lost your brain when you lost your bed at same ing time..!!”

Hoya: (smirk) “ I almost forget how annoying you were” (laughing while adding) “this was almost like a normal dorm when you left, it was this close to be boring”

Yeol: (waaaaahhhh face) “So boring you seek another bed to crash on”

Hoya: (waving my right leg on him) “what is it for you anyway..? it’s not like it’s your bed..” (Teasingly)

Yeol: (death glare) “It’s Myung’s bed and Myung’s need his bad so that Myung can sleep on his bed because Myung haven’t slept much since those bed weren’t his so you ing tell me if you are ok to sleep on Myung’s bed instead of Myung..!!”

My head was exploding on how many time he mentions “Myung” in his frustrating speech.. so I stand up sighing and went to door then I felt exploding that I’m leaving cuz Yeol thinks I need to leave so I add angrily: “Who said its instead..” he looks at me puzzled before I add with a smirk: “Myung can sleep beside me”

And I slam the door shut

BUUUUUUURRRRRNNNN

I heard lots of satisfying “TSKKK AND WAAAHH AND WHO HE THINK HE IS ..”

Ok I was upset.. not from this brat but from that other brat that feels it’s ok to just have me whenever he wants and now he’s taking freaking shower..!!

Ok I am a lil bit dramatic

Ok I am dramatic

it’s not like you are the one that was used and tossed anyway so off

Ugh I’m gonna shut up why would you get it anyway

It’s like..

I thought it would be different

Hoya you are still sharing (rolling my eyes on me mentally)

He’s running late.. I went inside the van 5 minutes ago.. it’s the start shooting of our drama.. the another kind of drama not the real one

And I felt it’s going to be a bad bad drama day

Bad in not good way

He slept for an hour maybe but it taking much more time for him to get ready.. He suddenly shows up to the door and my heart skipped a beat

I missed his stupid perfect face

But it washed very fast when suddenly Yeol steps into the scene to hand Myung “NIT” coffee while doing the “Fighty” sign with his hand

…?

I do not want to say how I feel right now when that idiot face that was deeply frowning turn to stupid wrinkled dimpled face…,

And I ing miss him so much I think I’m hating each lil detail about him

Because it ing hurts..

To beat so hard while something grabs it harshly..!!

He gets in and chooses a far away seat

That’s when I felt my eyes burning so I stare at the road instead

Ignoring that I feel this new kind of death..!

Why would you wake me up if you want to sleep instead..?

L POV

I try to be behind of his sight or way in front.. I haven’t look straight at his face not even a second..

What if I just gives in ? what if I crumble tremble back again ?

What if the only thing I smell is his stupid warm scent even though I ran way too late trying to get it off..!!

Is it in my head..?

Have my mind finally find it’s way to tremble me for good ?

When was it ever this deep..? I don’t remember falling ?

But I feel as if I already crashed..!

It’s easy to act as we hate each other on the set of photo shoot.. it’s easy because I can pay them anything as long they don’t force our eyes to meet..

It’s easy when they tell me to turn my back to him

It’s easy when he do too

Isn’t that how we always have been..?

It should be easy

But

I felt the urge to sob again

When his back suddenly brush mine

I flinch

I can feel his eyes on me without even looking at him

I can feel him drawing breath in because I can barely see lights

Barely hear people shouting more turn perfect that’s right

Barely seeing the other costar

How did I ever thought that acting with him is going to be fun and easy is beyond me

How stupid I was ?

As soon the words “finished” went out I storm away to the nearest door .. nearest air

I cannot lose my right now.. it was hard Myung but you can do it..

I went back in and he looks at me ..

Stop looking at me as if you want to burn me..

My eyes suddenly locked on smiling Daeyeol that kept bouncing: “HYUUUUNGGG MYUNGSOO HYUNG” I tried to smile while he kept blabbing

It was messed up I barely can hear a word

I start sweating and his hand suddenly land on my forehead that’s when I start looking at his worried face saying: “Are you fine, hyung ?”

I felt cold and hot

I didn’t know that I was trembling; eyes darting everywhere sweating like a maniac

I shake my head saying: “I’m fine..”

When he frowns I thought I might add: “I haven’t got much rest that’s all”

Partly true

But the other part is laying on him not wanting to look in other direction

As if his eyes wanted to just torment me

I felt

The day was not over..

They told me to shoot a scene where I get drunk

Funny thing how that was so tempting right now

I have to be this sad jealous lover or something..

Looking at his girl dancing with the person that he seek his acceptance but that person just loathe him enough to steal his girl

Great..

I try to draw some emotions.. anything Myung anything.. just bear this ing endless day

I close my eyes and was this close to say I can’t before the direction voice went off:

“ACTION..!”

And the game begun

My eyes look at him

And he looks back

I stare at him long enough to know that he was a bit uncomfortable

But I let my self to stare

They want me to stare

So lets give them what they want

A heartache..?

That’s so easy to act

When he start holding her waist.. reaching for her body like I reached his this morning..

His eyes stare at her shoulder

As if she was the most beautiful thing

I heard it pretty clear

The shuttering voice of the heartache they want me to act on so bad

I haven’t realized that my eyes get a bit teary for real

And my hand reaches that glass of wine as if it was the most normal thing in life

She swayed her hips and he looks like he likes it a bit more

Way into it that he looks at my sight instead

And there’s that Hoya crooked smile

The satisfaction in his eyes burns me so much I start delivering the lines as if it was the only thing I can manage to say without breaking into sobs..

…

“Breakout room”

he shows up a bit later while I was collecting my stuff.. he’s looking at me so I suddenly say before storming out: “We are late”

and we are

but I can’t stand the air around him anymore

and his questioning eyes

ugh

I start heading to the van till I was stopped by Daeyeol: “Hyung, today was fun” (smiling cutely)

I smile back trying to show him some sincerity

L: “so fun, (smiling while patting his hair) I haven’t seen you for a while let’s get together some time with Yeol.. ok ?”

He was grinning like a cute lil kid

When I felt a hand snap mine away from him

He suddenly hold my hand a bit too harsh

Hoya: (low voice) “I thought we are running late ..!” (his nail is trying to dig deep in my skin)

I stare at him.. the deep frown on his face I felt like slapping him for real

The

I snap my hand away while walking away then I felt him shout: “Yaahh, Kim ing Myungsoo”

He was impatient and I stop dead in track.. the van is ahead but I feel I’m gonna explode if I don’t face him now

When I do.. he suddenly gulp.. I can feel his emotions change before he add almost like a whisper: “Do you want to join us hoya..?”

I felt puzzled so he roll his eyes adding: “oh glad you ask..”

I took step forward till there’s only inch and I felt him draw breath in

L: “why would you want to join anyway..?”

Hoya: (not looking at my eyes)“out of manner but seeing you lacking it today so I don’t expect a from you anyway ”

L: “yaaaahhhh”

Hoya: (he suddenly whisper closing his eyes)“should I be Yeol or ing related to him so I am ing allowed into your world..?”

That was almost like a plea

I swallow

NOOOO

NO

I shake my head: “You can’t act like this”

I haven’t realize I say that loud till I notice his eyes suddenly open

He look at me in a way that can almost break my heart if it wasn’t been broken already

When I look away his gaze give up and start walking away while he saying: “And just so you know.. he’s not a kid !!! his freaking eyes glow when he talk to you .. IDIOT”

I went blank..

I got into the van choosing the same seat but suddenly he sits beside me.. I look at him he suddenly shout: “It’s not your ing car..!!!”

My jaw fell open before I spell out: “Get off”

He suddenly get way too close to my face: “Show me where your name was written and I will leave”

I can stare at him

Or I can kiss him

It’s one of the two

So I push on his chest muttering: “childish”

He grab on my hands before it can leave that heaven like warmth trapping it there

Before he whispers dangerously close: “Tell me something I don’t know”

I can stare at him

Or I can kiss him

So I swallow: “.. off..”

He made that crooked Hoya smile

And I feel burnt

Like this day cannot get any more hard

He start rubbing his thump on my skin: “why ..?”

His whys always do this sick thing in my stomach..!!

L: “Why what..?”

Hoya: “Why you left me on bed”

There it goes…

My insanity

I’m gonna kiss him there’s no more stare or run option !!!

I felt like I’m gonna break the door open and free myself but manager caught on time getting into driver seats saying: “Myung..? is Hoya bothering you..!”

He quickly part away like that scared cat reaction.. I whisper coldly looking at the ground: “He’s bullying me Hyung”

Hoya eyes widen and his mouth gape at me before I smirk trying to hide my smile while our manager kept throwing ty words on him all the ride to dorm..!

Your eyes have grown cold again

Your sharp tongue digs into me, please stop

I can’t take it anymore

You come to me like you have me, you wrap around me

Then you disappear like a dream

With no time to touch, I’m captivated by you

(Infinite- Bad)

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soooo

set of gifs because there's lots and lots of them here XD

GIF 1: MYUNG WAITING FOR HOYA CALL BE LIKE... EEEH IT'S DONGWOO ..!

GIF2: MYUNG SOAKED IN MISERY (FAV SCENE.. HIGHLIGHT)

PIC (CUZ I STILL CANT GET OVER IT ^^)

and last but not least.. this fitting scene (getting slightly pissed off)

anyway.. hope you like it.. seeyaa next chap