Rickys P.O.V

'His eyes are fluttering! theyre fluttering ya Jonghyun, minsoo he's waking up'

My eyelids felt heavy as i tried to lift them open, i could see some light managing to enter my eyes, slowly i opened them only to see chansoo smiling at me, her face worn out and her eyes a deep shade of red *she must have been crying...but why?* and in a sudden all the memories came rushing back, i clentched my head in pain as flashes of ~~~~~, howon and the rest of them came rushing to my brain 

'Omo! ricky' chansoo said worryingly 

i gave her a weak smile 'Im...Im ok...' i managed sofetly 'Hajiman where's noona?' i asked worried 

she looked at me sorrowfully but before she could speak Minsoo enetered, as loud as ever 'RICKY you awake' he boomed, chansoo hit him softly on the arm 'Quiet were at a hospital' she said he smiled and then sat down beside my bed 

i looked up at the enterance only to see Jonghyun standing there 'Hey long time no see' he said 

i smiled sofetly 'Hello there chingu' i turned my attention back to chansoo noona 'Noona what has happened to ~~~~~ noona?' i asked this time with a more serious tone 

Chansoo looked at me and then began to tear up, minsoo took her in his arms and she sobbed in his chest

my eyes widened 'Is.....' i hesitated 'please...dont tell me she's...' my face was drenched in tears 

jonghyun chuckled sofetly but sadly 'No...ricky..' he hesitated 'noona is...well she's in a coma'

i stared at him, partly relieved and partly shocked 'c...coma?'

he nodded, chansoo removed herself from minsoo's chest and wiped her tears and began to explain in a thick voice 'the doctor said that she was hit pretty hard and that....well..she lost a lot of blood...and the chances of her waking up....are ....' and she burst in to tears again. minsoo held her gently and rocked her while rubbing her back 

'he said the chances she'll wake up are very slim' minsoo said expressionless 

we all sat in silence, my whole body was aching but my heart hurt the most, i stumbled of the bed 

JOnghyun caught me as i almost slipped 'where are you going?' he asked sternly 'you need to rest'

i shook my head 'I need to see noona' he looked at me for a second before leading me out of the ward

The walk wasnt long, the whole time i was practically leaning on jonghyun as my legs were still too weak 

we finally made it and as i entered i saw noona lying there perfectly still, he face peaceful yet there was a hint of sadness, jonghyun helped me onto the chair and then left 

i sat there and stared at her body, i took her frail hand and held it to my face and then broke down into tears 

'noona' i pleaded 'noona, dont leave me' i continued to sob 'i ... i love you noona, your my first love'

i watched and waited for a response but got none, i wiped my tears and sat up straight 'ok then noona, i promise to visit you everyday! and you will wake up!' i said with enthusiasm 'You will not die on me noona!'

i clentched her hands hard and tight 

*she will wake up....she will'

I was honestly in tears while writing this 

should i be a mean author and leave it here..............................?