"I love you, I love you, I want to hug you and tell you, even if it's for a day" Super Junior: Mid-Seasons

Hyukjae~ 

It was awkward really, the way Kyuhyun had hugged me. I felt- I don't know how I felt honestly. 

I had noticed he changed. He looked different. If before he was cutely handsome now he's beyond that. 

After our "moment" we had gone outside to talk and catch up with him. I don't know why but my eyes never left him as he spoke. He sounded even more confident and something about him had changed but I didn't know what it was. Besides his look. It was something else.  

I decided to think about that later. 

"And after that he knew to respect me." Kyuhyun was telling us about his roommate and how he would constantly disrespect him and his games until he pranked and showed him who's "boss". We laughed as he smirked wickedly. 

"Kyu what made you come though? You always reject us when we ask you to." I watch him stiffen and look at me. Did his eyes just soften? No impossible. 

He then turned to Henry who had asked this. I couldn't help but feel giddy when he looked at me but I decided to ignore it. 

"Oh that," He shrugged "I just felt like it was time to enlighten you all with my presence again. I think I've tortured you all enough without my presence actually." He smirked and we laughed. His evil smirk was y. 

No I did not just say that. But it was true! No stop it Hyukjae! 

As I was internally fighting with myself I failed to hide my shiver. It was cold outside and since Heechul had surprised me by dragging me here I had no time to grab an appropriate sweater. All I had on was a thin blue cardigan over a black wife beater. I guess this caught Kyuhyun's attention because next thing I know he's taking his coat off and placing it over me. 

"Here." He said smiling and I couldn't help but blush at the nice gesture. It was the first time someone did this for me though so don't blame me. 

"Thank you." I smiled back at him and he looked dazed for a moment because Heechul kept slapping his arm for attention. He finally turned to him and Heechul smirked whispering something to him. Kyuhyun blushed and looked at me before turning back to the diva who was cackling evilly. 

I had to admit I had never seen Kyuhyun blush. It was a cute sight. 

"So Kyuhyun are you in a relationship?" Heechul asked his voice dripping a hidden meaning. We all leaned in waiting for his answer and I couldn't help but be bothered I don't know why. 

Probably because Heechul keeps smirking at me. Yeah that's it. 

"No. Not yet at least." And there he was again looking at me while muttering those last words! Is this a hint? Naw he never liked me like that. Plus it's too soon to move on I mean that stupid fish is still in my heart damnit. 

"Well Hyukjae here is single." I chocked on my own spit at that. What the ? "Hyung!" I scolded glaring at him. Heechul merely wiggled his eyebrows suggestively. I heard Kyuhyun laugh. I turned to him and god it was a cute sight. How his brunette locks ruffled along his shaking body how his brown eyes seemed to smile along how- no I'm not thinking this. 

But why was he laughing? Did he not want to be with me? Pfft not that I mind anyways. I mean it's too soon. 

He looked at me and smiled. "I did used to have a crush on you Hyukjae." He spoke honestly and I blushed I couldn't even look him in the eye anymore. My heart was beating wildly though I refuse to acknowledge it. But he said used to. 

Was I disappointed? 

"Wahh Kyuhyuk? That's so cute!" Ryeowook beamed. "Imagine you two being all lovey dovey oh my god! The mental images are just so.." He trailed off and we knew he was imagining it. 

Kyuhyun and I? But he's not the sweet type. I can't really imagine him and I together I mean we're total opposites except for our pranking side.

I looked over at him and he seemed deep in thought staring at his hands. 

"What's your type Hyukkie?" Henry curiously asked me. I turned to him and saw him cuddled up in Zhou Mi's arms. The latter resting his head on his as he was napping? 

"I don't know I guess someone loyal, sweet, smart, very nice, gentle, caring, funny, protective, and has eyes only for me." I finished I really tried not to describe the fish so I said the opposite of how he was. I needed someone better than him after all. 

Everyone was staring at me and I noted all the couples. Zhou Mi still had his head on Henry's the latter cuddled up in his arms while the taller was indeed napping. Heechul had his head on Hangeng's lap since both took up the large bench and Hangeng was running his hands through Heechul's hair from time to time also pecking him while the diva enjoyed it. Ryeowook had his head on Yesung's shoulder the latter with his arms wrapped around the smaller one hugging him closer. 

I felt lonely. 

Luckily I wasn't the only one single. Sungmin was resting his head on my shoulder yawning and I deduced he was tired due to the party and how long it must've taken him to organize it. Kyuhyun was sitting on his chair quietly his eyebrows furrowed in thought again. 

"Well what's your type Kyuhyun?" Sungmin asked not lifting his head from my shoulder. I heard him giggle as Kyuhyun shot him a glare. "Sweet, nice, devoted, passionate, funny, caring, willing to accept me how I am, understands or at least tries to understand me, patient with me, loving- Yah! I think that's enough" He blushed when I stared at him questioningly. I guess I embarrassed him? Everyone laughed and suddenly Sungmin jolted up as if he had just come up with a great idea. 

"Omo guess what?!" We turned to him questioningly and he grinned "I read Hyukkie's dia-" "It's a notebook!" I clasped my hand on his mouth quickly making everyone laugh. Aish it is a notebook dammit! 

"Whatever you say. Anyways he wants to bungee jump! How cool is that? Who's in?" He beamed happily when Hangeng and Yesung raised their hands. 

"I don't know I'm afraid of heights." Ryeowook sighed "Don't worry baby I'll be with you. We can both do it at the same time." Yesung cooed his boyfriend who nodded and smiled at him. "Alright then I'm in!" 

"I'm totally in but if I back out at the last moment I want any of you to push me!" Henry proudly announced "My pleasure, squirrel." Kyuhyun smirked evilly making us chuckle when Henry shrunk back in fear "On second thought no don't push me. I'll do it myself. Mimi will you jump too?" He shook his boyfriend awake who just nodded and blinked a few times before sleeping again. "Good we're in." 

We turned to the remaining two. Heechul was thinking it over "I don't know." He started but we all knew he wanted to either because it'd be fun or because he would just enjoy watching us cower in fear once up there. 

"We know you want to." I said rolling my eyes. Heechul turned to me smirking and shrugging "Well since you all keep stubbornly insisting I go then I shall." We turned to Kyuhyun who looked at all of us before speaking. 

"Fine fine I'll go. But you have to tell me two days before so I know to clear my schedule." Sungmin scoffed next to me "What schedule? It all consists of your stupid games anyways so you're definitely coming." I couldn't help but chuckle. It was true he was a game addict after all. He looked at me when I did and I stopped, looking away biting my lip hoping I didn't do something wrong. But why should I care anyways? Ugh whatever. 

I pulled his coat to cover me fully once again but accidentally pulled it up to my nose. I could clearly smell his scent. Fresh woody rainfall scent. It was refreshing. I closed my eyes inhaling it deeply until I felt eyes on me. The owner of the coat was blushing and looking away while the rest were giving me curious looks some even knowing looks. Why the last ones though? Sheesh Sungmin and Heechul are planning something I can totally tell by the looks they're giving each other. 

I shivered at the thought of it having to do with me. 

"Yah! Quit looking at me!" I flushed and hid myself with Kyuhyun's coat. They started laughing and I just wanted to stay hidden it was so embarrassing. 

"So about Halloween, anyone have their costumes yet?" Ryeowook asked trying to save me. Ahh he's truly my hero (don't let Sungmin know). 

"I'll be Ana, duh!" Heechul stated as if it was the most obvious thing in the world. "Once again." Sungmin added rolling his eyes at the diva. "It fits me perfectly though! And I think instead of Hannie being Kristoff he should change to Olaf." We laughed imagining that. "No I'll be Kristoff." He started. Soon after both started bickering. 

"Well I'll be-"

"Nooo! It's too early to say! Let it be a surprise!" Henry suddenly chirped in interrupting Ryeowook. We all agreed with him and we knew Heechul's revelation was no surprise. 

I watched as we all tuned to different conversations with each other. Hanchul was still bickering about Hangeng's costume, Yewook were talking about planning their next musical, Zhoury was talking (more like Henry was since Zhou Mi just kept nodding at whatever he said) in Chinese about who knows what, Sungmin went to play host again, and Kyuhyun was fidgeting in his chair. He kept glancing at his phone when suddenly he stood up and turned to me. 

"Hyukjae can I talk to you in private please?" He asked nervously. I looked at everyone who stopped talking to turn to us. Heechul and Ryeowook were whispering to each other and I rolled my eyes at them before standing up. 

"Sure Kyu." I smiled and he guided me to the back gardens. We walked through the brick covered pavement and I couldn't help but find this awkward. When was the last time Kyuhyun and I had talked like this? 

"Hyukjae," He suddenly turned to me calling my name softly an giving me a warm nervous(?) smile. I turned to look at him and smiled back inviting him to go on. "I'm sorry about you know confessing back there. It just slipped!" He shook his hands as if dismissing it. 

Oh! I get it! 

He probably thinks I'm mad at him or something right? He probably didn't mean it anyways. 

"I really didn't mean-" Yep I told you! 

I cut him off when my hand made a stop gesture in front of him. "I know Kyuhyun and I get it. I know you didn't mean it. It's alright." 

"No Hyukjae you got it all wrong" Huh? Wait what? I looked at him again and I could see he was biting his lower lip. He kept tapping his thumbs on his jean's pockets and he was avoiding eye contact with me. Was he nervous? What for I mean he said he used to like me so there shouldn't be any awkwardness between us. 

Oh! Now I truly do get it! He probably doesn't want things to get awkward between us because of that! 

"Kyuhyun things won't get awkward if that's what you're worried about" I cleared up all this and smiled warmly at him. He looked me in the eyes again and smiled a bit "You truly are clueless huh?" I furrowed my eyebrows in confusion. What is he talking about? "But it's cute." He said and I felt myself blush. Aish what's up with blushing lately?! I know I blush at every compliment but this is too much! Is he trying to kill me with the heat?

"Hyukjae," He started again and holy jolly my strawberries! When did he get in front of me? "What I meant to say was I really didn't mean to blurt it out like that." He looked into my eyes and I could see hope? Nah. 

"You see I lied to you." Well I never really could picture Kyuhyun crushing on me anyways. But why do I feel bad? He's just so much more handsome up close. I hadn't noticed before. 

No Hyukjae get a grip on yourself! 

I smiled a bit at him because he looked like he was debating what to say next so I spoke up "It's alright Kyu I get that a lot. You know "I like you" then "Sorry I don't". And before you apologize let me tell you that you're already forgiven!" I smiled at myself proudly. That's right it's a brand new Hyukjae here! No more hurt for me. "Now why don't we go have some fun I'm pretty sure Sungmin might need our help seeing as guests just keep coming and..." I kept on ranting turning back to head to the house when suddenly I was stopped by a hand on my arm tugging me backwards.

My back collided with a warm chest and I froze. What's happening? 

"I'm sorry I'm such a coward for not being able to voice this in front of you. I'll just say it and if you decide to look at me for reassurance I promise I'll say it again so you'll see I'm not lying." My heart was beating wildly once again as his hot breath tickled my right ear. Seriously what's happening?! 

"I lied to you about the whole "Used to have a crush on Hyukjae" because the word used to shouldn't even be there. Ever since the first day I saw you I was mesmerized by you. I fell for you Hyukjae." I felt his forehead press against the back of my head. My heart kept speeding while my stupid stomach felt weird. Was I going to be sick? No it's a weird ticklish feeling. 

Is this some kind of joke? 

"It's not." I gasped not realizing I had said that out loud. Suddenly I was turned around to face him. His hands kept on my waist tightly but not too tight as to hurt me. I guess he doesn't want me running off which I would consider doing any moment now. 

He looked intensely at me "I'm not joking Hyukjae." I could see the sincerity in his eyes. "I truly did fall for you that moment. I tried to get you out of my mind and out of my heart but I've realized I can't no matter what I do. I held back but now I can't anymore." Then he said it. The words that had me melting on the spot. I felt a shiver run down my spine and my knees felt wobbly. I was finding it hard to breathe as I stared at the man in front of me who still held that sincerity look on his handsome pale face. 

"I love you Lee Hyukjae." 

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Tada! I'm currently writing the next one so I might update in a few minutes or hours I don't know yet. I think it'll be short though. Anyways please comment it motivates me to keep going! And thanks so much to those who do!