Kyuhyun~ 

Finally the weekend had arrived and I would get to be with my baby. Physically, because I've been seeing him through webcam and it's really not enough I tell you. 

My arms are itching to hug him tightly close to me. My lips are craving his like crazy. My whole being wants him here already. 

I tapped my foot on the concrete impatiently. The last text I got from him was over ten minutes ago. I'm not patient. Especially when it comes to seeing my Hyukkie. 

"Hellooooo!" I felt a tap on my shoulders and frowned at Sungmin. 

"Jeez I'm sorry I'm not who you expected but at least try to look happy to see me, your best friend who's known you since diapers!" I rolled my eyes at this diva. 

I smiled falsely just to piss him off "Minnie! I'm so super ing extra glad to see you!" I said pulling him into a hug. He hugged me back but then struggled once I tighten my grip harshly on him on purpose. 

"Yah! You were trying to kill me!" He accused but I just laughed. "Where's my baby?" I asked ignoring his glare. 

"He's helping Heechul. Apparently the weekend means a whole week worth of outfits for the diva." I chuckled obviously believing him. 

Heechul sure is a one of a kind er. 

I walked past him and to one of the black vans they had come in. 

"Baby!" I wrapped my arms around his waist and he turned around to face me. "Kyu! I missed you." He bit his lip shyly. 

"Aww I missed you too baby." I kissed his nose and blushing cheeks as he slid his hands inside my sweater's large trapezoid-like pocket on the belly part. 

I noticed he was wearing a gray pull on as well only without any pocket. 

"Hey we have matching sweaters. You know if you wanted to wear couple stuff you could've told me baby." I teased and grinned when I saw his face flush. 

"Y-yah! Help me take Heechul's stuff please! Hannie doesn't want to help him." He pleaded. Of course I'd help him and he doesn't even have to beg. 

"Why doesn't he want to help?" I asked not wanting to let go of my adorable blond. 

"I dunno. They've been acting weird lately. I think it's another fight but Kyu, this time it's been their longest one yet. I'm worried about them." I kissed his forehead as he nuzzled himself in my chest. 

"Don't worry baby it's between them I'm sure they'll solve it whatever it is." But really if my Hyukkie keeps on fretting over it then I'll have to intervene and snap at both for making him feel like this. 

"Mmkay. You're right. I just hope they solve it fast." I nodded and smiled when he looked up at me and kissed my chin. 

Aish Hyukjae you know I won't be able to let you go if you're this adorable? 

Unfortunately after a while we had to part as I was handed Heechul's bags. 

"Seriously hyung it's just two days. And what the is this anyways? It's so heavy!" I complained to Heechul who just rolled his eyes as if what I was holding should be the most obvious thing in the world. "That's Heebum's playhouse." 

I gaped at him. "You brought Heebum?" And sure enough my baby was holding the thing. Let's just say I'm not really fond of cats. And Heebum and I have history together. Not wrong! Just bad. The thing hates me! 

"Duh! I wasn't going to leave him alone at the dorms! Who knows what the other students might do to him." I scoffed at that. "It's a cat, hyung." 

"So? He's my loyal companion and he deserves vacations as well." He stubbornly defended and I decided I don't want to go on about a cat that hates me when I can just be with my Hyukkie. 

I walked next to my baby and immediately the thing hissed at me. So it still remembers me. I was hoping it really didn't. I think I still have that one scar on my leg. 

I hissed back playfully but the thing looked about ready to jump out of my baby's arms to attack me. 

"Kyu! Quit bothering him!" My baby scolded me playfully. 

"I am not! I just wanna be with you." I said softly while glaring at the thing comfortably laying on my Hyukkie's arms. 

The thing was taunting me! It nuzzled itself on my baby's arms! That evil little ing-

"Aww you're so cute aren't you? Hmm you like my chest? Look at you! I think you like me more than Heechul hyung huh?" My baby was cooing at the evil thing!

"Yah!" Heechul and I both yelled.  

"Heechul take that thing away from my baby!" I demanded. Well thanks to my tone I know Heechul will do the opposite. 

"No way! You can't tell me what to do. Besides Hyukjae is always taking care of Heebum who's to say he can't this weekend too?" Oh no you won't! 

"No! This weekend Hyukjae is all mine hyung!" I chuckled at my baby's flaming cheeks. I moved closer to peck them when the thing screeched at me. 

Aish I better get rid of this thing first. 

Luckily we arrived at our hotel rooms and even more luckily we got a suite with the Yewook couple. 

Hah! Heebum is no longer around. 

Before we go out adventuring we decided to rest a bit. It was still early in the morning after all. 

"Kyu there's only one bed." I turned to my baby. "I can sleep on the couch outside don't worry baby." I said but he just shook his head. 

"No I don't mind sharing a bed with you." He shyly admitted. I had to bite my lip to prevent the grin from surfacing. 

"Alright then no going back you just said so." I said. He nodded and pulled me to the bed. I sighed once my back hit the soft mattress. 

Surprisingly he laid on top of me and I smiled pecking his forehead. 

"I don't know why I wrote bungee jumping. I'm kind of scared now." He spoke softly. 

"Don't worry baby I'll be here with you. We can both jump at the same time. I'll hold your hand okay?" I said pecking his lips and tightening my arms around his waist. 

"Okay." He smiled at me. I couldn't help but kiss his lips softly. I missed this. He sighed into the kiss and pulled away staring at me. 

"Kyu." 

"Yes?" I asked staring back. 

"I really really do like you." I smiled as my heart beat increased. It always does when he's around. So cliche but I felt like butterflies were floating around in my stomach. I gazed at my Hyukjae lovingly as he stared back at me and I found no trace of doubt or fear in those beautiful orbs. 

I really needed to hear that. Those words are so close to the stronger meaning. 

"I love you Hyukjae." I watched his gummy smile appear and his cheeks flush. I couldn't help but love the sight. So mesmerizing. So adorable. So mine. 

I kissed him passionately this time. 

My lips moved against his in a slow manner as I tasted his lips again. My teeth grazed his bottom lip slightly pulling on it gently as he my upper lip. His hands running through my hair slowly massaging the scalp making me groan. 

I began to rub his back up and down and then set my hand on his nape my fingers drawing invisible circles on it. He on my lip gently asking for entrance which I gave him. Our tongues danced with each other before I took control hearing him whine which brought up a smile on my face. 

I on his tongue slowly emitting a moan from my baby who was busying himself with my hair. He gently pulled on it making me gasp and he took it as an opportunity to slide his tongue inside my mouth. I knew where he was going with this. 

"Che-cheater." I struggled to say between his tongue. He only smiled and proceeded to my roof earning a moan from me. 

That's what he wanted to hear hmm. 

He knows I'm sensitive there so he kept it slowly making me a mess. 

"Hyuk." I breathed out against his tongue. 

"Hmm?" He pulled away finding it hard to breathe. 

"I love you." I pressed my forehead against his watching him smile gummyly at me. I love that smile too. 

I silenced his lips once again. I can wait. I'll wait for you Hyukjae. 

"Kyu!" He whined cutely when I started pecking his face all over while he was trying to sleep. 

I chuckled and hugged him tighter. He eventually fell asleep on me. 

I ran my hands through his blond locks lovingly as I stared at him. 

Even when he sleeps he's so cute with that pout grazing his lips. I kissed those pouting lips and smiled as I pulled him closer and tighter. 

I don't know for how long we slept when a harsh knock along with yells woke us up. 

"Kyu.." My baby whined. 

"It's nine we should go eat breakfast baby." I said. He nodded not lifting his head from my chest. "Baby, c'mon lets go." I cooed. 

He slowly stood up yawning cutely as I stood up as well. 

We both put our shoes on and walked out hand in hand. 

"About time! I've been knocking for the past ten minutes now!" Heechul complained as we walked into the suite's living room and out into the hall. 

"Where's Yewook?" My baby asked looking around. 

"They've been exploring around the hotel." Heechul said. 

We walked into the hotel's restaurant and ordered our breakfast. On the table I glanced at Hangeng sitting next to Yesung with Ryeowook in between turtle man and Heechul. 

So Yewook is the unfortunate couple that got dragged in between their fight. I looked at Hangeng then to Heechul and again. Hmm Hangeng looks nervous..? Or worried and Heechul of course is acting as if nothing has happened ignoring his troubled boyfriend. 

So deducing this I'm guessing Heechul started whatever it is and Hangeng once again tried to get him out of whatever the diva wants to do and Heechul snapped at him causing this silent treatment courtesy of the stubborn diva because I know Hangeng. When it comes to his beloved Heechul he's always the one trying to fix everything and if he hasn't yet it's because Heechul is being stubborn as . 

I sighed looking down at my breakfast which I didn't know had arrived. 

"Kyu?" I turned to my baby who was staring at me worriedly. 

"Huh?" I asked. He just grabbed my hand and gripped it from under the table. "You're not eating." He said. 

Oh. Ohhh. Guess I was too engrossed with Hanchul. 

I leaned in to kiss my baby's forehead "I'm sorry baby I'll eat now." I whispered and watched as his gummy smile appeared making me smile back. 

I began eating when "Whipped!" I turned to the voice and rolled my eyes of course it'd be Heechul. 

I heard the rest snicker and tease. I laughed flipping Heechul off then turned to Hyukjae who was blushing and staring at me.

"Baby?" I asked but he just turned away continuing to eat his food quietly. 

"Oh lawd you both are so cute!" Henry beamed grinning widely proceeding to pucker up his lips at Zhou Mi who gave in to his lover's demands. 

Tch at least I'm not the only whipped one. And even so I don't care because it's only my baby Hyukkie. 

"Aish I need a lover too." The rabbit spoke up stabbing his pancakes.

"I'll hook you up Min," I smirked "Actually Changmin here said you're his type." 

"Yah! Kyuhyun that was secrecy!" We all laughed at the rabbits flushing face and Changmin's embarrassed state trying to avoid Sungmin's gaze. 

"Kyuhyun I'll kill you!" I kept on laughing ignoring the fact that Changmin kept pointing a fork at my face. "I'll kill you I swear! Once back the first thing we'll do is xbox time!" 

I nodded accepting his challenge still trying to suppress my laughter. Ah Changmin looks so funny right now. 

"Minnie say something!" Heechul encouraged patting his back harshly almost making my poor rabbit choke. 

"Hyung!" He said gulping down his orange juice but I knew he was just stalling to not answer. 

I watched Sungmin glance at Changmin. Wouldn't this be great? My two best friends going out. It'd be perfect! 

"OMO! It'd be Min squared!" Ryeowook squealed. Leave it to the crazy shipper to come up with a name for them. "Or Min-Min!" 

"Y-yah!" Minnie glared at Ryeowook but it really didn't look as threatening as he wanted it to. 

I looked over to Changmin who was eating quietly still blushing. 

I laughed encircling my arms around my baby who was cutely absorbed in his own world as he ate his strawberry pancakes quietly. 

I chuckled at the cute sight and kissed his cheeks bringing him back to our world. 

"Well Minnie does like manly guys." He added still engrossed on his food. So he was listening. We all laughed again at the way he said it and Sungmin's reaction. 

"Hyukjae!" He yelled embarrassed. 

"What? You told me that's why you don't like girls because you consider yourself one therefor you need a manly man." Another wave of laughter. 

Aish my baby is just too cute. 

"I'm sorry Changmin guess you're not his type." I laughed but flinched when he stab my lap with his fork. 

"I'm manly and you know it!" He half whispered but I knew they had heard it. 

So that's how breakfast was spent. Teasing and laughter here and there. 

We were now roaming around the town using Kibum and Henry occasionally to translate stuff. Sure I know English but I'm not influenced in it like them plus I have the accent. 

"How about this ma'am?" I asked pulling up a red string braided looking bracelet with a small blue glass eyeball looking bead in the middle surrounded by three other beads on its side forming a pattern of black, white, black, the eyeball then again black, white, black. 

"That," She said grabbing it and staring at it. "Is the evil eye bead. It shoos away negativity and used as protection against evil eyes, people who envy it's owner; covetous feelings of people, strangers and even friends. It also gives happiness to the owner and their beloved ones. You know what the red bracelet stands for right?" 

I nodded "Yes." She handed it back to me and I stared at it. I like things that have a meaning to it. 

We were in a part of the town with stands around and I stood in front of a small bracelet/amulet stand. I kept pestering the old woman about almost every amulet here none really catching my attention until I saw this one. 

"I'll take two." I said grabbing another one just like the one on my hand. The woman smiled at me and I paid thanking her. 

I searched for my baby and spotted him with Sungmin indulging in sweets. I chuckled. That was so like them. 

"Yah! I told you to get gummy worms if you wanted. You'll finish mine!" Sungmin whined to my baby slapping his hand away from his candy bag. 

"Aish! Then you stop eating from my chocolate bites!" I shook my head chuckling at my baby's pouting face. 

"Not until you admit plain skittles are better than sugar coated skittles." Sungmin said grabbing another chocolate bite from his bag. 

"Never!" He gasped "Sugar coated skittles are way better. Their sour and fun." I wrapped my arms around his waist and kissed his cheeks. 

"What's fun?" I asked feigning confusion. "Nothing Kyu!" Hyukkie smiled. 

I was about to give him the amulet as a gift but we heard Hangeng yelling a few stands away. 

"Stop it Heechul! You can't just do whatever you please! Would you like it if people meddled between us too?" He asked and placed his hands on the diva's shoulders. 

"It's because I just want to see them happy Hangeng. You don't understand at all!" Heechul said shoving his hands away. 

"That's not the way though! You might just make it worse please stop." He pleaded. Heechul resorted to whispering as I moved closer but I heard the name. My Hyukkie's name. 

Yesung sighed as Ryeowook tried to calm Heechul down. 

"What's going on?" I asked. Heechul gulped when he looked at me while Hangeng's eyes widened. 

"I need to talk with you both alone." I motioned them to follow me. "I heard Hyukjae's name and if it has to do with him it ing has to do with me too." Both quickly followed knowing I was dead serious. 

We walked a few blocks away ending up in front of the beach. We sat in a table overlooking the waves and hearing the clash. 

"Spill." I said staring at both. 

"Kyuhyun you have to move back!" Heechul demanded with a hint of plead on his tone. 

"It's about Donghae." Hangeng simply stated making me avert my eyes to him silently asking him to go on. 

"Hangeng don't." Heechul started. 

"Siwon broke up with Donghae. He's still in love with Hyukjae and he's willing to do anything to get him back." I felt my breath hitch. 

So he's now single and thinks he can take my baby away from me? 

No. He can't. Hyukjae is close to loving me I can feel it. But what if once he finds out about it he decides to give him another chance? What if he still loves him? 

"Hangeng!" Heechul screeched "I told you not to tell him! I was going to keep Donghae away and-"

"Kyuhyun please tell him not to meddle! He has these crazy ideas against Donghae and-"

"No. I don't want you to do anything Heechul." I said looking at him seriously. 

"But Kyuhyun you don't even know the real reason why Donghae even left Hyukjae. It may change things." Heechul bit his lip his eyes going softer. 

"I'll fight for Hyukjae if I have to. But I'll do it on my own hyung." I felt my heart clench at the thought of loosing my baby. 

But if the reason is good enough to melt Hyukjae's heart then I don't know what to do. He might really end up going back to him. 

As if reading my mind Heechul spoke again. "Donghae has anger management issues. He once was so close to hurting Hyukjae physically that he decided to leave him as protection against himself. But then Siwon came along and it complicated things. He became aggressive again and his confusion wasn't helping. Siwon was helping him and he realized Siwon was the only who could control him because he was the only one there for him. He decided since Siwon knew he was going to give him a chance." 

"So basically he chose who he can't hurt over who he loves because of it?" I pity him but I am also angry. That's no reason enough to leave him! 

"Yes. He thought he could learn to love Siwon but he could never get over Hyukkie." I bit my lip. Surely this might change things. I know that. Hyukjae is too nice and I know he'll end up forgiving him. Will I loose him once he finds out though? 

I felt like crying. I didn't want to think of that but even so our relationship is still new. It can't beat a year with Donghae. 

"Kyuhyun." Hangeng stood up and sat next to me embracing me. He was just like a father but I'd never admit that. I didn't even realize I was crying until I tasted the hot bitter liquid on my lips.

If so, I'll have to tear myself away it's just up to Hyukjae now. 

---------

Donghae~ 

I cried myself to sleep last night once again. I hate my life even more feeling this void only one person can fill. 

All my life I was always being compared to my cousins my father constantly berating me for being useless. Ever since my brother, the perfect son, died I had to carry the burden of our family's succession. 

My father and his cousin compete for the company. My grandfather said the company would be inherited by the best grandsons. That left me alone since Donghwa died. 

He was far better and much nicer than our older cousin who was only money and power hungry. My hyung died and along died my happiness. 

I always knew I was never my father's favorite he didn't even treat me as his son. 

He even had me transferred into my cousin's high school just to study my opponent and find his weakness points to destroy him. All he wants is the company I don't really care about. But I'm willing to satisfy him just to gain his approval one day. 

I befriended my distant cousin inwardly hating him. He was also perfect. Just like his brother. Just like mine too. But he was also different. Just like me he too wasn't interested in our family's company. 

We soon entered college and on the very first day I watched as Kyuhyun for the first time fell in love. I felt disgusted. It was a boy for gosh sakes! 

But he didn't care. I proceeded to and even get him out of pursuing him. He was smitten with him always stalking him and going to the cafe he worked in just to see him. 

My father had then told me Kyuhyun's brother, Kangin had gained the position my own brother was aiming so hard for. And Kyuhyun graduating on top of the class and being valedictorian was also being evaluated by our grandfather. 

He yelled at me and even wished it was me at that accident who died and not Donghwa. It hurt it really did. 

He even said he'd rather have Kyuhyun or even Kangin as his second son but never me. He disowned me and now I only have my mother supporting me. 

That triggered my hatred towards them once again and I decided to hurt Kyuhyun first. He was closer after all. 

Hyukjae was my target. I later found out he'd be my roommate because there was a mix up and he ended up being with Sungmin instead. I took that to my advantage and started being nice to him to get closer. Of course Kyuhyun was clueless and Sungmin never really liked me anyways. 

One day I snapped at Kyuhyun admitting (falsely) that I liked Hyukjae as well. I saw the hurt in his eyes when I told him he wasn't Hyukjae's type. I enjoyed the sight and provoked him even more. 

I asked Hyukjae out a few days later during a fight and he obviously said yes. At first I felt disgusted but when Kyuhyun found out I nearly laughed at his expression. He then transferred to another college so I felt no need to continue on with Hyukjae. 

But I couldn't leave him. I found it hard to leave him. I felt sad at the thought of being without him. I decided to stick with him just in case Kyuhyun came back. 

He never did though and slowly I ended up falling for Hyukjae. His sweetness, kindness, even his strawberry addiction. Everything about him had me crazy.  

Soon my actions weren't forced anymore. My feelings weren't of disgust anymore. 

I loved Hyukjae and I still do. 

My anger issues hadn't resurfaced that is until I saw him hugging Junsu and another boy I hadn't seen before. 

I pulled him out of his embrace and dragged him back to our dorm. He kept on pleading me to let him go since my tight grip was bruising him. But I didn't. I slammed the door and shoved him inside. He fell on his bed and I hovered above him pinning both his arms harshly on the mattress threatening him and glaring at him. Claiming him. 

I realized I still needed therapy. I was still not fine. And I was hurting Hyukjae. 

I couldn't even look at him in the eye only kissing his bruises and apologizing over and over again. He explained that was Junsu with his new boyfriend and he was just congratulating them. 

I felt guilty. 

Siwon came along and he confused the hell out of me. That triggered my anger again because I was torn between both. Siwon treated me really great he pampered me and took care of me instead of me doing that. 

The first kiss I shared with Siwon was great because he actually gave me a battle unlike Hyukjae who was submissive. Siwon was manlier than me and I craved his protection and the way he would treat me. 

But one day I snapped at him because I was tired of him making me jealous. I almost hit him but he stopped me just in time. He took me to a therapist. I started my therapies again. He was the only one there because he had found out. I couldn't tell Hyukjae or else he'd want to help me and he would clash with Siwon. 

I was starting to feel love for Siwon. I loved both. I was selfish for being with both. Until they found out and dumped me. 

Siwon was the only one who knew my secret and I chose him because he could handle me. Hyukjae was too sensitive. 

I decided I'd only love Siwon and dedicate myself to him. I did. I really did. I treasured our relationship and I showed him I loved him and only him. 

But I guess it didn't work out because Hyukjae kept haunting me. He was still here in my heart. And it hurts because I really do want to move on but I can't. I might've loved Siwon but my love for Hyukjae is way stronger. 

I stared at our pictures as I cried once again not bothering to get out of bed at all. I dug into the box I had stored our memories in. Pulling out a plushie hugging it close to me and sprawled all the pictures on my bed staring at them. 

I miss you Hyukkie. 

I'm so sorry for being selfish.

I'm so sorry for not choosing you. 

I never meant to hurt you but you're as sensitive as I am. I needed someone stronger. 

I was blind right? If our love was as grand as we once claimed it to be then I should've told you so we both could've passed through this together. 

I still love you Lee Hyukjae and I always will. 

-----------------

A/N: Argh I don't know what I just wrote. I was writing what came to mind :P 

Please tell me if it's confusing! 

Also should Kyuhyuk have y time? (; hahahah or is it too soon? I've been thinking whether they should or not what do you all think?? 

Comment my lovelies~ ^^