"Even during my busy days, I smell your scent that became an afterimage" Super Junior: Mid-Seasons

Kyuhyun~

After the Skype call I sighed and closed my laptop. I planned on spending my weekend playing games as always. But this was about Hyukjae. 

Back in high school I met Donghae. Sungmin and I befriended him. Well more like I did since they both didn't really get along. We were good friends kind of best friends I guess but not like my relationship with Minnie where I could tell the latter everything and vice versa. We all entered the same college where I first met Hyukjae. It was cliche from my point of view I guess since the first time I saw him I was mesmerized. Yes it was love at first sight. I didn't believe in those type of stuff until I saw him. Everything changed. He made me feel stuff I never felt just by his mere presence even mention! 

Later I found out he was Donghae's roommate and so I told him about my crush on Hyukjae. I still think it was a mistake because I always had a feeling he went after Hyukjae just because I was interested in him. 

What hurt though was how Hyukjae quickly fell for him. I'd see the looks he'd send the other brunette. I'd see it all and when Donghae confessed he was starting to feel something for him as well (Ignoring my feelings in the process. Seriously how selfish.) I decided to back off because it was mutual love. All I wanted was for Hyukjae to be happy even if it wasn't with me. Luckily I wasn't there to witness them being all lovey dovey with each other since my father had me transfer into this college so I'd be closer to a new company he had built here. 

But I regret now not fighting for him. I regret also being selfish because if I had said no to my father I know I could've made Hyukjae happy and save him the pain he must be going through right now instead of just thinking about my pain. But I was a coward. I never had the guts to confess to him. 

Donghae and I ended on bad terms because he knew of my crush for Hyukjae yet he ignored it and went after him. I still remember that fight. 

"I can't believe you're saying that!" I yelled at my supposed best friend who was giving me a confused look. 

It was fake. I should've known. 

"What? That I like Hyukjae? So? It's not a sin! I didn't choose to fall in love with him it just happened!" He yelled back. 

Liar. You did choose though. 

"I told you I liked him since the moment I saw him. You even judged me about it and teased me about turning gay for him! Guess what? I would turn gay for him. Would you?!" I silenced him with my words. I watched as he bit his lip and looked at me. 

I should've known you weren't serious. 

"Yeah I would! He's my roommate so I have a better chance. Kyuhyun look at you! Hyukjae likes cool popular guys not nerds like you!" 

Yet I believed him. 

"You don't know him! Minnie does and he told me he-" 

"So that's why Minnie hangs out with Hyukjae a lot? For you? Wow Kyuhyun you don't even have the balls to talk to him yourself! What makes you think you'll win like that?" 

It was true though. I was a coward. 

"It's not like that! Win? Hyukjae is not a trophy Donghae!" I was beyond frustrated. I felt hurt and betrayed. 

"Hyukjae will be mine. He already likes me it's just a matter of asking him out at this point." 

He was right. 

"Lee Donghae from now on you're no longer my friend. If Hyukjae accepts you then I'll let him go. But I promise you if you hurt him and or break up I will not hesitate anymore. I will step up and make him mine." 

But I should've stayed and fought for him. That's what I regret the most. 

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Dismissing those thoughts for now I grabbed my coat and left my dorm heading out of campus. But what if they end up getting together again? I don't want to get my hopes up but I can't help it. My heart is beating fast again just like the first time I saw him. I knew then I wanted to be with him forever whether he was gay or not. His friendship would suffice. But not even his friendship I had because once I left I cut ties with him. I didn't want to hear about him and his boyfriend most importantly I wanted to forget him. That's what my flings where for but I never found the feelings only Hyukjae would give me in any of them. 

I got in my car and drove over to my father's company. I bowed to everyone inside and made my way to my father's office not bothering to knock. 

"Kyuhyun what have I told you about knocking?" My father scolded. I sighed and sat on a chair in front of him. "I came to talk to you about-"

"If it's about that silly dream of yours again then forget it!" I had to roll my eyes at that. Why was it so difficult to talk to this man? 

"No father. It's about the internship. I don't think it's fair you give it to me just because I'm your son. Do you honestly think I'm that conceited to take up your offer when there's other students out there who would be willing to do anything for this opportunity?" I looked at him seriously and he narrowed his eyes at me. "So you're rejecting it?" 

"I am father. I'll intern somewhere else. Now please excuse me." I left his office before he could stop me and once again bowed at the people that make my father's life easier. At least I had the decency to bow and smile at them. 

I drove back to school just in time for my first period to start. I typed down the notes on my laptop and what the teacher was saying but my mind was somewhere else. Hyukjae. 

Sure I've dated before but it's all ended before they could mutter the three words to me because I had a knack for knowing right away who's interested in my money rather than me. But then I met Hyukjae and since then I haven't dated just flings trying to find someone like Hyukjae (not that we had ) feeling wise. But no one came close. 

I turned towards the window on my left and saw some students from the council hanging up Halloween decorations. Ah the only time you're safe to throw any cruel prank you want without getting caught thanks to the many costumes out there. Well at least in my case I've never been caught. 

I looked over at the front desk and noticed the teacher was going over the next unit which I already forced myself to learn about during my free time which is a lot lately. 

Pulling out my phone I hid it between my fingers and sleeves then began to play games on it while clicking from time to time random keys on my computer to fool the teacher. 

Minutes later I received a new text message and deciding I was bored enough and could use the bunny as entertainment, I opened it. 

'Don't forget the party in two days!' I rolled my eyes. 

'As if I could forget. You keep reminding me about it every hour now.' 

'Well sorry for not trusting you. Last time you said you'd come and you ditched me for your games again!' Aish this guy. 

'That was long ago Minnie. Let it go.' 

'Never! Anyways don't forget to take the subway early so you can make it on time!'

'Sungmin it's a party not an appointment.' I sighed. I looked up and clicked a few keys on my laptop again pretending to be deep in thought about the unit when the teacher turned to the back row where I was seated. 

'I don't care! I demand you be here on time!' 

'Please bunny, I still have yet to meet the one to tame me.' Though I already knew I had met him already. 

'Oh you will alright. You'll be whipped!' And I knew he knew as well. 

'Riiiight! Did you forget? I'm Cho Kyuhyun.' I smirked not because of my name but because I knew I had pushed his buttons. 

'Yah! And I'm Lee Sungmin and I'll kick your arse if you don't come. Do you read me Cho Kyuhyuk?!' I was about to smirk again (because I simply loved annoying this bunny) but the last word had me raising my eyebrows in amusement instead. I'm pretty sure it's a typo. I get it a lot sometimes.  

'Kyuhyuk? Anyways this conversation is leading nowhere. I'm bored now goodbye!' 

'Yah! CHO KYUHYUN! YOU BETTER MAKE IT ON TIME OR I SWEAR THIS TIME I WON'T HESITATE TO DRAG YOU HERE MYSELF! FYI no it wasn't a typo.' I laughed earning the attention of my classmates. Thankfully the teacher was too busy explaining whatever it was he was writing down. I sighed and turned my phone off dreadfully waiting for classes to end so I could finish all my assignments (because I have a feeling Sungmin will keep me there until Sunday night) and get some sleep. I haven't been sleeping well due to my new addiction which can't be helped since I'm a game addict after all. Though this time it wasn't the games keeping me up. Damnit Hyukjae was invading my thoughts all over again and I'm afraid of getting my hopes up for nothing again. 

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Now early Saturday I woke up and got ready to go buy some coffee before I hopped on the subway. I hitched my bag's shoulder strap on my shoulder as I stood up and offered my seat to an old lady who smiled and thanked me. I smiled back and held on to the rail above my head. 

"What a nice handsome young man. There's not many your age now adays that offer their seats to us elders anymore." I raised my eyebrows at that. Was my generation really that selfish? No I believe she thinks I'm younger because I've seen the teenagers now a days with their swag on thinking their too cool to even give up a simple seat. 

"Why thank you," I smiled "I've noticed as well and I hope the ones you've encountered are just one fifth of the population of teenagers now adays because that's simply rude of them." She chuckled and waved it off. 

"I can tell you're such a gentleman. Are you perhaps taken? My granddaughter just turned eighteen." Now I chuckled at that. How many parents and grandparents tried to hook me up with their daughters again? Oh right too many to count. But I never gave it any thought because I want to find love not have it thrown at me. But really it was mainly because I'm not into girls plus my heart yearned for someone already. Yes I'm aware I'm cheesy though I don't show it. 

"No ma'am I'm not taken but I am-" she raised he eyebrows and smiled. "Oh I see!" She said realizing what I was about to say. She's smart and I don't mind revealing my ual preference though sadly I'm a Cho and have a reputation to withhold but this woman gave me the feeling I could trust her. 

"Well I hope you find the one, son." I couldn't help but ask "How will I know it's him though?" I leaned in when she waved me to and she smiled as if she was going to reveal the biggest secret ever. "Your heart and mind will know." Well all my heart does is beat at it's normal rate (not around a certain someone) and my mind constantly wanders off to game land or study subjects. 

Yes I'm in denial. 

I smiled and thanked her even though it wasn't really needed according to her but still I was raised to be polite (well outside the circle of my friends that is). She soon got off and patted my shoulder. "Good luck, son." She got off and waved with a smile though she gave me a feeling that she knew something I don't. 

I sighed and pushed those thoughts out of my mind. 

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After a few more hours of sitting down then getting up again going back and forth like that, it was finally my stop. I got off and inhaled the polluted city scent. Not. Fresh air filled my lungs and I made my way into the busy streets and successfully hailed a cab. I gave him the address to the bunny's house because he decided to make a bigger party this time. 

I knew I had arrived an hour late but I didn't care. And I knew I'd probably get lectured but I also didn't care because that bunny should be grateful I even made it here in the first place. I knocked on the door and someone I did not recognize opened the door. He greeted me and ushered me to come inside. 

I really didn't feel like partying after the hours of being in the subway I was so tired I just wanted to sleep. But I was also nervous. I was about to be face to face with my first crush. I still remember the promise I made to Donghae but I was furious at that moment I'm not saying I'm backing out but I am afraid those two might make up. 

"Oh my god you actually came!" I heard a squeal after that and sure enough the bunny was running up to me and hugging me too tight for my comfort. I patted his back awkwardly "Yeah yeah can you let go now?" I asked a little annoyed not by him but by the blasting music that buzzed in my ears. 

"My gosh I still can't believe I'm face to face with you again! It's been so long!" I laughed "We just Skyped remember? Two days has been so long? Glad to know I'm still missed." I smirked and he punched my arm lightly. I groaned as he smiled. "You know what I mean anyways make yourself comfortable and I don't mean go up to my room and sleep like last time!" He scolded as he got dragged away by a few guys. 

As he went to play host I made my way to the refreshment table and indulged on some chips, red wine (I made him get my favorite) and other junk food he set up. I grabbed a cookie and afterwards grabbed a plate and served myself some more because wow they were the best chocolate chip cookies I had ever tasted. And that's saying something because I usually don't like sweets. 

Right then I knew Ryeowook was responsible for these delicious cookies. He always made the best desserts after all. And speaking of the devil, he was coming over to the table and when he did he looked at me then his eyes widened and I found myself on yet another tight hug. 

"Oh my god! Kyuhyun! You're here! Oh em gee!" I noted he had been hanging out with Heechul a lot lately. He squealed and released me. "I can't believe it! You always rejected Sungmin's party invites and now you're here! I'm sooo happy!" He squealed again and I saw someone behind him glaring at me. His eyes went wide and broke into a smile and I realized it was Yesung. He came up to me and hugged me patting my back in the process. 

"Yo Kyuhyun it's been a while." He said and made his way behind Ryeowook to wrap his arms around the smaller one. As if saying he's taken. Pfft I can't see Ryeowook as a potential partner even if I wanted to. 

"It has. I'm glad to see you both again. I see you finally got together. The was too much." I laughed when they blushed. 

"Yah! Have you seen the rest?" Yesung asked recovering himself from his blushing episode. I shook my head. 

"You look different. In a good way though." Ryeowook said smiling. "Yah! You're saying that about everyone lately!" Yesung jealously added and I laughed again. "No, only him and Hyukjae. No need to be jealous Sunggie!" I froze at the mention of him. My eyes immediately scanned the place for him but he wasn't around. 

As if on cue I heard the diva's voice (Heechul not Jaejoong) and then I heard his. 

"Hyung! I'd rather be sleeping though!" 

"No! I said you'd come and you'll stay here! Hannie say something!" 

"If Hyukjae doesn't want to then- Ow! Fine! Hyukjae just stay it'll be fun!" 

"Hyung!" He whined and I couldn't help but smile. Heechul was trying to get him inside but the blond had a firm grip on the door but then Heechul whispered something to Hangeng and immediately the Chinese man pulled Hyukjae inside successfully. I laughed at the scene. He's so adorable. 

"Wahh I can't believe you just said that!" Ryeowook squealed. did I say that out loud? 

Thankfully someone saved me from Ryeowook's questioning. It was the squirrel stuffing himself next to me on the table. "Mochi!" I yelled happily. He turned to me and beamed hugging me tightly until Zhou Mi pulled him back because I'm sure I was turning blue. 

"Kyu! I'm so happy to see you!" He grinned widely and I could see some chocolate stuck to his front teeth. Zhou Mi laughed and grabbed a napkin to wipe it off before turning to me. "Welcome back Kyuhyun. You've been missed." I smirked "I have or my computer skills have?" I asked and he rolled his eyes patting my shoulder.  

"Oh em gee!" No! Dammit Heechul not yet! I'm not ready- "Look what the cat dragged in! Wow you look good! Aren't you going to give your favorite hyung a hug?" I looked up at him and sure enough both boys with him were staring at me in surprise. 

"How rude making me go over to you! I see you haven't changed you evil brat." Heechul walked over to me and hugged me tightly but my eyes were on Hyukjae. He was smiling nervously at me. "Hi hyung it's nice to see you all again." I said my eyes still not leaving the blond. I noticed he looked way different. His hair was downwards to the side instead of upwards like it used to. The dark eyeliner made his eyes pop even more it was alluring but not as alluring as his pink plump lips. Those lips I dreamt about kissing so much. My thoughts were interrupted by Hangeng who hugged me next. 

"Good to see you as well Kyu." He smiled and I grinned knowing who was next. Hyukjae made his way to me and we both stood there awkwardly and I don't know if we were even going to hug but Sungmin had other plans. He popped out of nowhere and pushed Hyukjae towards me. He stumbled and was about to fall but I caught him on time and pulled him into a tight hug. 

I don't know how long we were like that but eventually he hugged me back. I buried my face in his neck and noted he was close to hyperventilating. I couldn't help myself. He was intoxicating me again. Those feelings I once buried away were rising again. Would it be too much if I said I wanted his heart to beat as fast as mine was right now? It's not possible I think that's my own heart I'm feeling not his. 

I heard some of them sighed dreamily others whistling at us and I felt Hyukjae stiffen. I immediately let him go but his arms still lingered on me. It wasn't until I looked him in the eye that he composed himself. 

"Kyuhyun I'm really happy to see you again." I knew he hesitated before because he probably thought I had ended on bad terms with him as well because I cut ties with him but it wasn't like that. He smiled at me and I smiled back. 

"I'm really happy to see you as well. You have no idea how much I missed you- I mean all of you." I mentally slapped myself. It was too soon I know but even so I wanted to get my hopes up because being here in front of him right now I decided I don't care if I end up getting hurt in the end. If it means I can have a chance with him. 

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Double update! Because I felt the second one wasn't enough. I hope I'm not disappointing any of you! Again Happy Valentine's day! See you soon! ^.^