It was a chilly winter night. Sehun lay on his bed, his eyes set solely on the ceiling. He was getting sick of it all. Life, death and all that lay in between.

People called him crazy: he called them haters.

They told him Luhan was gone, he screamed 'no'. And yet, deep down, he already knew well that he had lost the only person in his life that he had ever treasured enough to fall for.

His days and night consisted of an endless circle of pretending that nothing was wrong, that he was happy as he could be with his precious blond in his arms and realizing that the gods had been cruel to him: he was alone, and not for the first time in his eyes.

Strangely, he rarely shed tears. It wasn't like he had anything to cry for...

Roaring in anger, he slowly sat up, glaring out the window. The dim light of the full moon seeped through the dark curtains, causing great discomfort as the boy could only fall asleep in complete darkness.

He let out a sigh, shoulders slumping as he tried his hardest to just forget about everything. In the morning, he would be back to thinking that life was perfect, anyway.

It was insane, and he knew it very well.

But Sehun was bound, bound by memories, thoughts and guilt.

He could have said his goodbye. He could have and yet, he was sleeping peacefully because a doctor had knocked him out for acting angry.

People - the fans of his videos said he had done nothing wrong.. Luhan was watching over him in peace. And yet, he could trust no one, for he had nothing but enemies in this cruel world.

The morning sun found Sehun curled up, still in a sitting position. His head was lolled to the side and his back now against the wall, his legs resting on his pillows and a small box of tiny pills clutched tightly in his hand. With them, he could sleep peacefully. But he hated them as they made his nights long and morning shorts.

"Hunnie?" was the word that slowly pulled him out of his ponderings, making his eyes flutter shut. A lazy grin stretched across his face as he reached out to cup the face of the gorgeous blond in front of him."Morning sweetie," Luhan said cutely, his eyes filled with glee.

"Oh baby, you're up before me again." Sehun grinned from ear to ear, pulling the older boy down so he could press their lips together."Hmm~ you taste like strawberries already. How do you do that?" he chuckled a little, just inhaling the scent of his lover  for a few minutes.

"Magic, Hunnie. Magic." Luhan giggled softly."So, what do you have in store for us today?" His question was curious as he brushed their noses together lightly."Walk in the park,