"I'm sorry boys, but that's my final answer"

and with those words, out walked our manager. A man we had once called a friend, had now become our ruiner 

As soon as the door shut, my Hyukkie burst into a fit of sobs. His hands came up to cover his eyes and his body started to shake violently as each gasp of air left his mouth

"Hyukkie" the amount of sadness in my voice must've been enough to make him sit up and look at me

"Ravi" he gasps out my name and reaches forward. He clings onto my shirt an hides his face in my chest. 

This was worse, now I could actually feel his pain. I could feel him shaking against me and I wanted to burst out into tears and cry with him...but I couldn't. I had to be the strongest 

"We'll get through this" I whisper into his ear, my voice quivering with each syllable that left my mouth 

"How?" he asks, "Manager won't let us be together" he continues to sob. With each gasp he took, it made it that little bit harder for me to control myself and my emtions

"I'll find a way Hyukkie, I promise you I'll find a way. Don't you dare give up on me Sanghyuk"

I couldn't do it, I couldn't keep my tears in any longer and oh Lord did I cry Sanghyuk a river

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It had been three weeks since our manager told Sanghyuk and myself that we couldn't be together. 

It had been three weeks since the start of Sanghyuk's violent nightmares

It had been three weeks since I had felt alive. 

Our managers words rang in my ears every minute of every day and it had finally started to affect Hyuk and myself's performance as idols

"But manager! They're not concentrating on anything! Please can you reconsider-"

"I don't want to hear it Hakyeon"

I stop suddenly at the door to the practise room and eavesdrop on our leader and manager's conversation

"Don't listen to me then. Just don't go complaining when you finally realise that you just let the two most talented people I know slip between your fingers because they were in love with each other" Hakyeon hisses his words at the manager. I knew N could be sassy but never has he let his sassiness verflow with the manager.

I heard footsteps and I quickly rushed to make it look like I was only just walking in

"Oh! Ravi! Hello, how are you? Are you well? Do you need me to grab you anything?" N smothers me but I politely decline him

"No thank you. I just want to practise alone" he gives me an apologetic look before disappearing

I walk into the practise room, just as the manager walks out. He bows slightly but I make no effort to bow back. I could hear his gasp as the practise door closed and he was on the other side 

I went and sat down in the middle of the practise room, my chin resting on me knees as I slowly rocked myself back and forth

That's when everything that had happened finally took its toll of my sleepless body

I began to cry, and cry and cry. I sobbed harder than I've ever sobbed before, and gasped more breaths of air than any Olympic swimmer has had to gasp for in their whole life

To put it simply...I broke down 

I thrashed around and screamed like I had never screamed before. I hit myself countless times, pulled at my hair and called myself horrendous names

I don't know how long I had been down there, but I'm more than certain the members had realised I wasn't practising. When my body was red all over and my eyes were stinging from all the tears is when I heard the door to the practise room open

"Go away" I sob out, not bothering to look up and see who it was.

"Ravi hyung" I hear the desperation in Hongbin's voice but I didn't need him right now. I needed my Hyuk. I need to hold my Hyuk in my arms. I needed to know that my Hyuk still loved me, even after putting him through this

"Aniyo!" I hiss

I heard him leave, but didn't hear when someone else entered. Only when I felt a hand on my shoulder did I look up.

"Ravi baby"

My head shot up and through the mirror I could see Sanghyuk standing there, my Sanghyuk.

I started to sob again and he bent down to my level, engulfung me in a hug and kissing me wherever his lips could reach.

"Shh, you're ok. I'm here. I'll always be here"

"Oh how the tables had turned. It wasn't me looking after your Dad, but in fact it was he looking after me" I smile kissing the forehead of my five year old daughter. I hear a chuckle and look behind me to see Sanghyuk standing at the door, his arms crossed over his chest and he was leaning on the door

"That story again? I thought she'd be sick of it by now" he laughs slightly, walking in and sitting on the opposite side of our daughter's bed. SHe shakes her head frantically and a small giggle escapes her little, tired mouth

"I love hearing it! Maybe when I'm older I'll find someone who loves me like you love each other"

"You'll find someone babygirl" Hyuk smiles softly, bending down to kiss her forehead. She smiled up at her father and I wanted to snap a picture because they looked so adorable

"It's really time for bed now" I say and about five minutes later she was finally asleep. Hyuk and I tip-toed out of her room and closed the door, whispering thaat we loved her once more before walking down the hall to our own bedroom

"You know I was thinking" Hyuk starts off, throwing the doona back and sliding into bed. I chuckle and slide in next to him, turning the bedside light off

"Oh really?" I ask. He pouts and whacks my shoulder making me chuckle

"Maybe it was time we gave her a brother..." he trails off, obviously waiting for my answer. I look at him, my eyes filled with admiration for my husband.

"I think you're right...and we'll teach them both to always help each other get through things"

A/N: This was for bambamstar! I hoped it was good enough darl xx

P.S Not Edited

P.P.S DID THE ADORABLE HYUK GIF SHOW UP!?