Chapter nine

"Kyu?" Siwon said very gently, he was smiling at him but feeling really nervous at the same time. Finally after a long long time Siwon had the chance to see Kyuhyun again... in his apartment the same that both experienced many sensations.

Siwon was catching a cold because yesterday after the meeting with his ex-classmates he got wet by the intense rain geting a high fever, he didn´t feel well in the morning so he decided to stay at home in order to rest and take some medicines, his company could wait…his health was first.  

That early morning he got off from bed feeling dizzy, and walked to the kitchen for some water, he wasn´t feeling well so he planned to stay in bed all day if possible. Suddenly he hears the doorbell and turns on the screen to see who that person was and by his surprise it was no other but Kyuhyun…in body and soul, the person he wanted to see the most through all this time. Siwon always felt guilty for leaving him at the hotel years ago in USA and never being able to contact him again. He owned him a good answer. He knew sooner or later he would face him and clarify the things like adults now. So when he saw Kyu in his apartment he couldn´t help but chuckle and smile softly. His heart started to beat so fast and he felt warmer than ever and not because of his fever, there was another kind of heat, he had no explanation for that but he was so happy to see him again, Kyu looking for him one more time. He was happy but curious because he thought Kyu had already forgotten all about him.

“Kyu…you found me” Siwon muttered nervously, he felt dizzy and was unable to say anymore. Kyu couldn´t believe it was Siwon, the real one …it was true he was here and looking more gorgeous than ever, mature and converted in a Greek God…wearing a pajamas. He never got sick of admiring Siwon´s beauty. Kyu wanted to hug him so badly but he could just say “H..hi…may I come in?” Siwon let him come in and both stayed quiet for a moment just staring at each other tenderly, Kyu´s eyes were blurry with tears, he could feel something different in Siwon´s eyes this time…it seems that both were struggling with their own mutual feelings.

“It´s been a long time, h..how have you been Siwon?” said Kyu breaking the silence, feeling thousands of butterflies in his stomach, seeing Siwon always caused so much impact on him. He was struggling with many sensations at that moment. Siwon was going to answer when he started to cough, feeling very dizzy; he was barefoot on the cold floor. Kyu approached to him and could see his blushed cheeks because of the fever, he then touched Siwon´s forehead and could feel the high fever. “Omg! Siwon you have fever! let me help you to come back to bed now…are you sick?” Siwon just nodded so Kyu took him to his bedroom and placed him on the bed, he went for some water and a towel to put on his forehead. Luckily nothing had changed in Siwon´s apartment so he could remember exactly where the things were. Siwon felt dizzy he closed his eyes while Kyu was taking care of him. Siwon felt warm and protected with Kyu´s care.

He was feeling shivers all over his body and a strong headache so Kyu gave him some medicine for that. After putting the cold towel on the forehead and warming him up with the covers, Kyu felt his hand being hold by Siwon, Kyu felt goose bumps all over his body and his heart was beating like crazy. That was the touch he missed so much, his soft hand on him. Slowly Siwon opened his eyes and staring at him said “stay here, we need to talk” and closed his eyes again for resting. Kyu felt the urge to entwine their fingers, their hands were made to each other, Kyu could feel how Siwon tightened his fingers as if he didn´t want Kyu to leave. Kyu couldn´t help but smile and giggle when seeing both hands perfectly entwined, he didn´t know how he ended lying on bed by Siwon. He felt the urge to take care of him, he didn´t care anything else but Siwon now…he even forgot to come back to work. He stayed with Siwon holding his hand while he was falling asleep. Kyu admired every inch of his beautiful face and he never got tired of admiring him. He spent all the time watching him while Siwon slept, like devouring him with the gaze. He wondered how it would be to wake up every morning in Siwon´s arms feeling his hard chest and listening to his heart beats… Sleep my Siwon…      it´s so good to see you again, please rest well and recover yourself soon we need to talk…don´t worry I won´t go anywhere…you are the most important for me now…I´m so excited to hear what you have to tell me…

After a couple of hours Siwon opened his eyes slowly and blinked a couple of times, he was feeling much better after taking medicines and a good rest, above all because of Kyu´s care… then he turned his head to see Kyuhyun who was still staring at him with a sweet smile, when he saw their fingers entwined perfectly, he started to smile showing his deep dimples. Something was changing in him, a warm and weird feeling for Kyu, and it´s not a feeling you have for a friend definitely; somehow he wanted to know more about it…discover what it means…

“Thanks for not leaving, I appreciate you have taken care of me I feel much better now thanks to you…listen firstly I want to apologize to you for leaving and never come back to you after our last meeting in USA, I panicked and ran away… I carried away for the kiss and the guilt was heavier than ever because I was married. After that time I felt very sad and was in pain for struggling with my own feelings, I told you before I never imagine I could be able to accept another man´s kiss, I´m not into men. I liked the kiss and that scared me a lot, while kissing you I forgot everything else in my life and I wanted to know what was happening to me…I couldn´t continue having intimacy with my wife because of you, I don´t know how to explain this Kyu…I feel weird saying this to you but my wife and I reached the point that we should get divorced because my attitude towards her changed drastically. You brought only confusion in my life since then and I felt bad staying by my wife feeling like this, after that I decided to come back here with my family, they asked me to manage our enterprises and here I am. Sorry I thought I had no right to look for you, I never meant to hurt you ..    I´m so sorry if I did but sooner or later I was sure you would understand my new life and would forget me completely… I didn´t want to interfere with your life that´s why I didn´t look for you when I arrived from USA…by the way… why are you here Kyu?”