Chapter eleven

“…I love you” Siwon finally felt the courage to tell him, those three magic words that Kyu had always dreamt to hear from the only one person who shook his entire world, his Siwon. He dreamt many times with this moment, with Siwon loving him back and saying ‘I love you’ to him. In his dreams, he never lost hope to win Siwon´s heart but when he woke up in the morning everything came back to reality for him…a very sad one…the one in which he was lonely and hopeless, the one in which Siwon was far away and married. That thought always made him sad and weak even though he tried to do his best to forget him he never could because somehow he never gave up to the idea of being with the love of his life. That´s why he never looked for someone else, that´s why he remained still …nobody could replace Siwon´s love in his heart, he said he´d wait patiently for him and he did somehow. Was he expecting that Siwon fulfill the promise he did to him when he confessed to him at the age of eighteen? Maybe…so deep in his heart he never gave up.

So when he heard those three words from the man he loves, he couldn´t help but cry, if hearing Siwon said that he liked him too was enough to make him happy…now hearing him to confess him that he loves him as well, was too much to bear for a day. His tears rolled over his cheeks and his heart was beating faster than usual. He stared at Siwon with teary eyes and he could just say ‘thank you’. Then he could just feel Siwon´s lips on him, this was the first time that Siwon took the initiative for kissing him. The kiss was not soft at all not even tender, Siwon felt the urge to kiss him hard and passionately…to hell with suppressing his feelings anymore. Both closed his eyes and got carried away with the hot sensation, kissing each other like no tomorrow, their tongues were dancing beautifully in their hot caverns enjoying every position they found to have better access to heaven. They were wet and lousy kisses that started to arouse them both.

They were still in Siwon´s car and somehow it was not so comfortable to get their bodies together. After what it seemed an eternity, they broke the kiss to gain some air and with their foreheads touching, Kyuhyun said “I love you too…I love you so much…I will say it every day to you, and thanks for loving me back…I can´t be happier than this…you are amazing Wonnie”, still panting and trembling with the overwhelming sensation of the passionate kiss they shared.

On the other hand, Siwon after confessing to Kyu felt relief. He realized he had loved Kyu from their first kiss in USA or maybe earlier, he was just a coward in not admitting it when it was the time. This is all new for him and he needed to get rid of the stigma of being gay. He loves Kyuhyun and nobody will change that if he has to fight for their relationship in front of others he will, he will challenge the world if he can. Seeing Kyu again and somehow feeling jealous helped him to realize about his true feelings towards Kyu and he was very happy and thankful, first to God for placing Kyu in his life, for being loved by the most caring and sweet person in the world and for never let Kyuhyun forget him. What he was experiencing with Kyu was amazing like a dream for him and was not willing to let him go.

“Let´s go Kyu, I want to take you to a special place, let´s continue this there” Siwon said winking at Kyu. Holding hands through the whole way.

Both went to have dinner to a very elegant restaurant and of course as Siwon owned the place, he got the whole place for the two of them only. Kyu was astonished when Siwon told him that this restaurant was of his property, one of the many properties he had as a rich business man. Kyu could not help but admire even more about the successful life his boyfriend had. The time there seemed to spend slowly by his side, both were happy and their smiles spoke by themselves, and both stealing glances while they ate delicious food and drinking the best wine. Siwon filled a cup of wine for Kyu and then one for him and said:

“Kyu this is a very precious moment for me and for us, for me because this is so new but magical. I feel so happy and excited when I´m by your side, I have never felt so alive before not even with my ex-wife. After realizing and accepting my true feelings towards you has made me the happiest man alive. I didn´t know that being with you and feel your love for  me could feel so good, my heart beats like crazy for you Kyu…come to think of it, I must have loved you before I met you in USA. The only thing I regret now is not having realized on time, call me a coward or blind…I´m just so pissed off with that because we have lost so many years since then…sorry Kyuhyun…I really am…sometimes I think I don´t deserve your love…that´s why thanks for never forgetting me and being so stubborn with me hehehe…I always felt flattered with your love to me…Oh God!      I feel so good now!...I promise that I won´t hide my love for you anymore,  if I could I´d scream it to the world now, thanks for making me loving you…but please be patient with me ok…I´m so happy but at the same time a little bit scared, I´ll learn how to make you happy I promise Kyu…I love you…please will you