Both were  panting hard after their activity in bed ,jaejoong kept his head in the other's chest since both were still connected.He didn't want to look towards other's eyes after what ever he had done.

"look here love"ordered yunho to his mate,he didn't think he would ever get the chance to talk with his mate like this after whatever he had done to other,he was desperate to erase each and every  pain he had given to other .

"love ?"asked jaejoong still keeping his eyes level down

"Yes love , you are my love,my mate only mine  "said yunho lovingly to his mate

"But you had never loved me only wanted my body and when i refused  then you forced me ,was that love?"asked jaejoong

"I am so sorry for whatever i have done "apolosized yunho

When his mate didn't replied ,he explained more

"I was 10 years old when i used to visit jungle  alone which was very far from palace ,yes the same jungle where i met you first time "

"I loved the greenary and peaceful environment there ,i felt it home so i used to go there everyday but one day a group of young vampires surrounded me"

"They started to mock me ,telling i was incapable to be prince of vampire,they used to tease me,beat me but i was unable to defend myself "

"But that didn't made me stop to visit jungle ,daily i used to go there at same time until one day i met with beautiful girl ,she was sitting alone and sobbing"

"I went near her in the  intension of getting some information about her  ,but when i reached in front of her i was dumpbounded with her beauty  "

"Hi , i am yunho ,i always come here "said yunho to the girl but he didn't get any reply

Deciding to try one more time he asked "what is your name ?"

But no progress so with the heavy sigh he turned around to leave the place but the beautiful voice  made him halt his movement.

"I am suzy "yunho heard low tone voice but it was enought to bring smile in his face

He turned around and asked again "Why are you here?"

"The bad guys are there at my home ,there are blood everywhere "sobbed suzy hardly

"Why are there blood?"asked yunho raising his voice

"They bite my parents and blood from them  "replied suzy rubbing her eyes

"When they were from my parents i ran away from there  "said suzy again

"Are they alive ?"asked yunho doubting himself

"I don't know"replied her sobbing more loudly

"Let's go and find out ,i think those bad guys already left and may be your parents are still alive .Now you have to  lead the way so we will reach sooner  "said yunho

Yunho followed her until they reached to the edge of the jungle where there was beautiful wooden house with beautiful garden.They opened the door but the strong smell of the blood made yunho unconfortable.

Suzy ran towards her parents  who were lying lifelessly on the floor ,she started to cry loudly but yunho he was feeling uneasy ,something hot  was increasing inside him which made his vision blur and before he could control himself he found himself infront of the girl.

Suzy was shocked to see the red eyes and long fang of yunho,he was behaving as some furious animal .He slammed the girl on the floor and before she could shout for help she felt sharp pain in her neck and flow of blood from her veins .

Yunho was feeling pleasure in  his body ,the flow of blood inside his throat was giving him satisfaction which he never ever felt in his life .He was so busy in blood that he didn't realized he was taking the  life of the innocent girl and when he withdrew his fang it was too late,he killed the girl.

From that day i lived alone in the jungle in my home far from the human world so that i couldn't let the devil took over me again.I did meditation so that i could control him  so that i wouldn't repeat same mistakes again even i didn't contact with  my parents or my friends from palace but all my efforts went to futile my years of meditation was useless because he broke all the chains and became free in that day.

"That day?"asked jaejoong staring in the  eyes of other.

"Yes that day when he saw you in jungle "replied yunho

Jaejoong was speechless,he didn't know what to reply but one thing he understood that whatever happened to him was not done by yunho but by his monster

"So you can't control him?"asked jaejoong again 

"I couldn't control him when its about you"replied yunho

Jaejoong was still staring in other's eyes but this time  creasing his forehead in confusion

"I couldn't control himself if you would ran away from him"said yunho

"May be if you  would stay near him then he would be in control "uttered yunho one more time