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I've been ignoring messages from Jay and Weirdo. I've been ignoring my oppas. I've isolated myself from everyone, Eun Hee, Jina and Junhong included.

Okay I admit, I do miss talking to my oppas but my pride won't let me be the one to break this excruciating silent treatment.

It's been 6 days and honestly, I never thought that I would appreciate these 6 days like I would. It gave me time to think, to breathe. What do I want in my life right now? Where do I see myself a couple of years from now? Until when do I want to wallow in self-pity?

It may seem like it's too short of a time to reflect but the result of cutting yourself from others and distractions can really surprise you.

I got dressed and went down. I could feel a few pairs of eyes on me as I walked down the stairs. From the corner of my eyes, I could see Youngbae oppa's mouth opening and closing before words could come out. I felt bad for treating my oppas the way I did the past few days but it felt necessary. I came down the last step and was face to face with Jiyong oppa.

"Where are you going?" His voice was a soft whisper.

And I honestly didn't know. All I had in mind was to get out of the house. I hadn't thought about where to or with who yet.

I took a look at each of my oppas and calmed myself down before I would burst into tears.

Taking a deep breath I said, "I'm really sorry for the way I acted the past few days. I um, had a lot of things on my mind and the best way to clear it was really to be by myself. I didn't mean to worry any of you. I'm heading out to um take a breather and think a couple of things through."

"I can drive you." Jiyong oppa offered.

"It's fine oppa, I really want to be by myself. If it'll make all of you feel better, I'll give a call when I'm coming home. But don't wait up for me, I don't know what time that'll be." I bowed and headed out.

I walked along the shops and stopped outside Amour Cafe. Memories came flooding back into my mind. I remembered being nervous when Jay asked me to meet him here for a last minute tuition session. I vaguely remembered my heart skipped a beat when I saw him sitting down in the corner, looking serious while solving some questions.

I turned to look at the opposite shops. Radeon Boutique. I saw a replay of the past, Soojung dragged Jay into the boutique as I looked on from inside the cafe. I remembered feeling angry and confused when it was happening.

I continued walking, passing by an apparel shop. I remembered my how erratic my heart was beating when I encountered Jay again a couple of months ago in that very shop.

A deep sigh escaped my lips. What's all this supposed to mean? Why is this happening now? He's someone who's getting married in less than a month!  I bit my lip and continued walking.

The pizzeria was around the corner. It was my favourite place in the area but somehow now it has become a place that I never want to take a step into.

I took a step towards the road and started to flag for a cab. A few passed me by but they were all hired. A motorcycle pulled up in front of me. I recognised the motorcycle. He pulled up his visor and took out another helmet in his possession and put it on me.

"Get on." Weirdo said.

Yippie. How did he know I was here? It's fine I guess, there were a lot of things I wanted to ask him as well.

I got on and took a deep breath as he started his engine.

1057

He stopped at Seokchon Lake. After parking his motorcycle, he led the way to a bench.

We kept quiet, neither tried to break the silence until he cleared his throat.

"Jay said you've been avoiding him and well, you've been avoiding me too. I dropped by your place and saw you leaving so I trailed after you. What happened Hye Won-ah?"

"Why am I not surprised? I just needed some time to myself."

"Was it about that day? What happened between you and Jay? Did he do something or say something to you?" His eyes were intense as he enquired me.

I stared into his eyes and questioned him instead, "How well do you know Jay? How close were the two of you?"

"You're not answering my questions."

"And you're not answering mine."

"We've been friends a long time and we had only recently reconnected with each other. We were close enough to have fallen out with each other. We are close enough for me to know whatever he's been through the last couple of years." He relented and answered.

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