1456   To celebrate the end of our project, Jay decided to throw a little celebration dinner for us.        Why am I feeling this way? He has Krystal. And at least I would have Weirdo with me.        Eversince the last interview, my heart and head had been in a mess. I couldn't go a day without trying to remember exactly what happened to me. The memory that came to my head was so intense.      A beautiful apartment building. Mini lamps forming a pathway dimly lit the room. A balcony overseeing the gorgeous night landscape of Seoul. And a silhouette of a guy, I suppose. That's the mystery, I just couldn't seem to remember his face.        "Now Miss Kim Hye Won, are you ready to be mesmerised?"       Urgh, the pain came back. I quickly sat against the headrest of my bed frame and hug my pillow tight.        "I tried baking it myself. I don't know how well or how bad I'll fare but I hope you'll like the beef lasagne."        Ah , it really hurts. I gritted my teeth and shut my eyes tight. No, I won't scream. I don't want oppas to be worried about me.        He led me to another part of the apartment. There stood a guitar against the wall, a leather indoor bench and a stool with a mic that stood beside it. , what is this?! I dug my nails into the pillow I was holding. He gestured me to sit at the other stool while he took his seat at the stool with the mic stand. Why can't I see his face? What's the meaning of this? He started tuning the guitar (probably to look charming or something), and started strumming a beautiful melody. I couldn't take it anymore, I screamed. I grabbed my hair and started rocking. I tried to psycho myself into thinking that it was painless but it was a futile attempt.        I started hitting my head to numb it. I don't know if it works or not but right now, trying that is better than just wallowing in the pain. I could sense one of my oppas entering the room. I was pulled into a hug and he started my back to calm me down. My tears wouldn't stop streaming down my face. The ringing in my ears won't stop. The piercing pain wouldn't stop. WHAT DID I DO TO DESERVE THIS PAIN?        1738       The damp towel on my head was cold so I threw it on the ground. I used the back of my hand and covered my eyes. I jolted up to look at the time, only to cause me to momentarily see stars.     It was already 5:38? Oh I was running late. The dinner is supposed to be at 6:30 and it's an hour's journey. I took out my phone and started reading my messages.      From: Weirdo Oppa   Hey, I have a family emergency. I'm so sorry for abandoning you Hye Won-ah. But I promise that I will make it up to you soon!      What. The. Cheeseballs. Does that mean I'll be having dinner with the power couple? That's some awkward right there. And it's not like I could blame Weirdo though. Urghhhhh      I got up and started getting ready. I donned a blue striped oversized knitted sweater with ripped shorts. I let my hair loose and grabbed my purple handbag since my stuff were already inside.      Alright, that looks okay. It's not like they said it was a formal event anyways right? But there was this annoyig voice at the back of my head that taunted me to change into something less casual.      I decided on just wearing a pair of light blue skinnies and a light pink baby doll top. Well that looks better right? But nooooo, I still felt like it wasn't appropriate enough.        Alright no more changing. I went ahead and paired my white button up with a black skirt. Its sort of formal-ish and yet still kinda casual? I changed to a smaller brown handbag and only put the things I really needed.        1804        I've been trying my best to flag a cab but there wasn't any. At this rate, might as well I just come up with an excuse to cancel as well.      I dropped Jay a text.      To: Jay Park   Hey, I'm so sorry but some things cropped up so I'm running late. I think it'll be better if you just continue with the dinner without me. I apologise once again for any inconvenience caused.      Well it wasn't like I was lying. But I would rather just stay home and laze. It had been an exhausting day and going out didn't really serve a purpose for/to me.      Almost immediately, I received a call from Jay. Oh dang it, it's not like I could reject the call.        "Hello?" I answered.   "Good evening Hye Won-ssi. How far are you? I could just cancel the reservation and we could go somewhere that's near you?" He asked.    How do I say no politely? I really don't want to go out.    "Oh what about Ms Jung? Won't she-"   "It's okay. I'll come by and pick you up then. Text me your address." And he hung up on me.        Wait, what just happened? Did he just.. Woah. That's annoying.    I begrudgingly sent him my address and waited.  This is going to be so awkward. Krystal and Jay are like complete opposites. One's like an angel while the other's like the devil. She-devil i mean. Oh why does that sound so familiar? Ahh whatever I'm not going to think anymore.      Okay just think about it this way, I might get to witness or hear some super secret plan or something. HAHA who am I kidding?      A car honk brought me out of my daydream. A matte black convertible was parked in front of me. Wait it's just the two of us?    He rolled down the window and gestured me to get in and I obediently complied. I wore the seatbelt and started fidgeting with my fingers during the drive.        "Krystal had some last minute things to do so she won't be joining us." He answered my thought.    "Ah okay