Years had passed, but you're still not looking at me.

You are still giving me that cold looks. I know you hate me that much.

I know that. I've always know that.

I've always remember those words from you.

You never look at me like you used to.

You never talk to me like you used to.

You never come to my room every night to put the blanket on me like you used to.

You never hold my hand tightly, pat my back and hug me when I am crying.

You never laugh, even smile at me anymore.

If only you know what am I feeling inside.

I am too afraid to talk to you. I am not easily afraid of anything but with you..

It's just that I am too scared. 

I don't want to hurt you. I'd rather stay away, eventhough it's hurting.

As long as you're happy, then I am fine watching from far.

If only you know how I feel.

I was too happy seeing you laughing with other members.

You always laugh with all your heart, that is what I've always adore from you.

It makes me feel calm when seeing you laugh and smile everyday with them.

It makes me know that you're always fine. 

Simple words like,

'How are you doing today?'

'Are you okay?'

'Have you eaten?'

It's just hard to say. 

How I wish you can laugh with me again, even once.

Why I even dare to wish something like that from you?

How I wish you know what I feel. If only you know that I miss our old time together.

I miss your warm hug, your looks, your smile.

I miss your shoulder where I used to lean on a long time ago.

I miss your lap where I used to sleep on it when I feel tired

I miss to see you're the one who sleep on the couch when I came home late at night.

I miss everything about you.

It's just that, I miss you so much..

My bestfriend..

Taeyeon ahhh.

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Author's note : Annyeong! Haha, I'm new here.. and okay, represent to you my first fanfic ever! Woohoo! Enjoy the read and, please drop some of your words in the box below. ^^