SUNGMIN POV

 

I miss every part of him. Pretending not being affected with his affection. I can’t!

 

“Minnie, why are you here?” Shindong ask me. I was randomly looking at his stuff in his room.

 

“Let’s eat together if you are not busy.”

 

“Samgyupsal?” His eyes widened.

 

“My treat!” I shout happily.

 

“Aren’t you tired with the practices? It’s midnight now. You should get some rest.” Shindong ask me. He pushed a meat into his mouth.

 

“Yes but it’s worth it.”

 

“You should eat with Kyuhyun instead of me, Minnie.”

 

Don’t try to dig me,hyung.

 

“But I choose you instead of him.” I sighed.

 

“What happen between the both of you? Mind to tell me.” He asks politely.

 

“Our confusing relationship.”

 

“Don’t tell me you sleep with him?”

 

“Yes..every night..” I rubbed my face.

 

“WHAT!!” he shouted. “YOU SLEEP WITH HIM!!” I closed Shindong’s mouth.

 

“Ohh..gosh. What a miscommunication. Not that kind of‘sleep’. Hyung, stop thinking ert!”

 

“Opps. Sorry!”

 

“I think I love him in the wrong way.”

 

“Donghae told me that before. He can see from both of you.”

 

“Huh! Donghae know I love Kyuhyun too?” I asked.

 

Donghae has this kind of charm. Reading people’s mind.

 

“I think he knows almost everything. In a short way,Minnie.. I think you and Kyuhyun need to talk.”

 

“But I can’t face him. If I keep looking at him..My feeling will get deeper and deeper.”

 

“Just confess to him. He loves you, right? Maybe both of you can work on it.”

 

Confess? It’s a 7alphabet that bring a lot of meaning.

 

 

 

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I opened the door silently. He was already asleep. I sit on his bed.I touch his face.

 

“I’m not able to say a single word because…I can’t even breathe right. Maybe one day I will confess. I hope our feeling is mutual that

time.” I whisper and kissed his cheek.

 

My tears keeps rolling. I wanna keep this friendship but I keep betraying it. Shindong words keep

repeating in my mind. Is this call a silent love?

 

I layed my head softly on my bed. Try to get some sleep.I close my eyes.

 

I feel a warm hand wrapped me from behind.

 

“Don’t ever cry in your sleep. I heard all your words. I can wait for it.”

 

“You heard all of that?”

 

“Yes. I’m not asleep yet. I’m waiting for you every night.”

 

“Why do you wait for me?” 

 

“I already wait for you for 2 years. I can always wait more.”

 

“I can’t love you the way you love me. I’m sorry.”

 

This is heartbreaking. I'm lying again.

 

“It’s okay. Loving you is the greatest thing ever happen to me.”

 

“You shouldn’t say nice word to me. I’m a bad person.”

 

He tightens his hug.

 

“Yes you are. A bad person who steal my heart.” He burry his face on my broad shoulder.