SUNGMIN POV

 

That studio room too suffocated  me. I can feel him everywhere. I run to the toilet. I splashed some water on my face.

 

Urghh.

 

I rubbed my face hard.

 

Can you stop thinking about him , Lee Sungmin.

 

Can you stop searching for his smile?

 

You are too addicted to him.

 

Someone knocked at the door.

 

“Someone in here. I will go out now!” I yelled back. I tidied back my hair.

 

When I opened the door someone push me back inside the toilet.

 

Cho Kyuhyun.

 

“I heard you are crying. What happen?” He pushed me to the wall. He rubbed my cheek softly.

 

Why you keep making my feelings swaying. I wanna forget you.

 

I avoide his hands from touching my face. We are so close. It’s only two of us in here.

 

“I’m not crying.Sleepy. So I wash my face.”I didn’t dare to look into his eyes.

 

I walk to the door. He is too quick. He grabbed my waist and hugged me.

 

He hug me for quite a long time but I feel relaxed in his hug.

 

“Hyung, can you hear my heart beat?”

 

I nodded. It’s beating so fast. I swear it will come out soon.

 

“That heart is beating your name.”

 

He tightens his hugs. I bumped my face on his chest. I’m not a crybaby but his words touch me deep down inside my heart. I sobbed in

his hugs.

 

“You are crying,hyung.” He my hair. “Why? Did I hurt you?”

 

Yes. You hurt me so much.

 

I shaked my head. “No.”

 

“What can I do to stop you from crying?” He pulled me from his hug and look down at me.

 

 

“Stop making me falls hard on you. I’m afraid you can’t catch me.”

 

 

 

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Easiest way to avoid him. Always hangout with Shindong and Donghae.

 

Return to my room during midnight when he already asleep.

 

Fills my free time in gym with Shindong hyung. Drama practice!

 

But still no one can feel our relationship becoming worst accept one person. Lee Donghae.

 

“You can stop avoiding him,hyung.” He came into the kitchen when I’m cutting some salad for Shindong.

 

“It’s too obvious?”

 

“For me,yes. Others?” he shrugged. “Better stop acting cold towards him. He pass a message for you.”

 

“Hurm..?”

 

“He said, if one day you can see his true feelings about you. He will never hurt you again.”

 

Damn.

 

“Ahh.. I cut my fingers.” My fingers are bleeding. I run to my room.

 

Where did I put my plasters? It’s hurt so much!!

 

A hand grabs my bleeding fingers and wipe the blood softly as if it’s never hurt. I didn't hear he walks in the room.

He blew at my bleeding part. He put some ointment and bandaged it. That 5 minutes act feels like forever for me.

 

I miss his touch.

 

My eyes glued at his face.

 

I miss looking at his face like this.

 

I didn’t pull of my hand. It’s naturally giving him to do what he wants to me.

 

“I hope I can do that to your heart.” he pointed at my chest.

 

There is no smile. Just a plain voice.

 

“Take care, hyung.” He wanna touch my cheek but instead he pulls off and walk slowly from the room.

 

 

 

CHO KYUHYUN. I miss you. Every single thing you do to me.