Why am I regretting now? You are so precious to me; I hoped that I would remain as a good memory to you   B.A.P’s manager cancels the group’s schedule for today, telling them that they need a break for all the tension and stress surrounds them. They all stay in their dorm except Himchan, he said that he’s going somewhere and they know where, in your apartment. Todays is your last day staying at Seoul before your flight back to New York, Himchan pleading for you to stay but no matter what he says, your decision is final. After parking his car, He made his way to lobby. When the guard saw him, he immediately stood from his spot and run to him. “Sir, You know Miss. Rina right?” he asks “You’re her Boyfriend” himchan frown when he saw the panic on the older man’s face “Yes. Why?” “We’ve been calling you since this morning! Miss Rina , She’s in Seoul Hospital. We rushed her there when we saw her unconscious on the hallway” The guard breathes out “You need to her, because I think her condition is very serious” “What?!?” He gasps; eyes grow wide, without second thought he ran and Jump inside his car and drove away     It’s okay baby please don’t cry, this long journey is about to end. But someday, we will meet again in the next life; we will see each other again   Himchan sat beside you, holding your hands as you cried on his chest. Hearing you cry brought his own tears fall from his eyes. He can’t believe this happening, you said that you survive but why this Illness keeps hunting you? Getting your life from you? All your struggles to fight this Illness became worthless, is god is angry at you? Did you do anything really bad that cause him to punish you like this? Why he let you fight and win when he will punish you again, and give you all these pain again. “You’re going to fight it, again” Himchan said quietly, He feel your head shakes as your cries became loudly again “You need to, don’t give up” he said “Give me reason why would I fight it, you heard him the chances for me to survive is very small. It’s just a waste of time, I will just fool myself that I’m will survive again and besides, there’s no reason for me to live and stay here. Maybe dying is the best for me” You said still crying You are tired, Very tired of trying and fighting. Your heart is too damage, you can’t take any pain again. You don’t have any reason to fight for, you’re alone. Alone in your own misery.   Himchan carefully push you from his chest, His hands cupped your face, thumbs wiping your tears dry. “You need to fight. You need to survive” He said “You already did, that’s why I Believe that you can win this battle again, and you are a strong woman. I’m here, don’t forget that I’m here for you” he said, you cried even more shaking your head “I don’t know--- I---“   Even if I regret, it’s too late- I can’t see you anymore, the tears of the shadows of my memories are watching over that place   Everyone jumps in their spot when they heard the door open with a loud thud, when it hit