Kim Shin Hye thought and speaks her mind;

So, he is my second cousin that i used to admire him since i was high school, we were classmate, no one mentioned him to me, I saw that his father talked to my father, i thought they were only friend. But it is more than that. 

I was shock, when my parent told me that i have to married with second cousin, i thought it was forbidden, they said no, if with first cousin, yes. I rarely met him, cause he was studying oversea, so we didn't meet often. 

The most shock, that my friend, Shin kyung likes him and they likes toward each other, knowing me getting married with him. Our friendship separated. I didn't contact her since then, it is awkward. There was once i called her, it was deep silence, we didn't talked. Its feel like i am betrayal.

Hyuk, yes, his name is Hyuk, my husband. We already married. 

About my marriage, it didn't work. We stayed in one roof, sleep separated rooms and we still being awkward toward each other.

 We didn't quite often talked or have conversation. What kind of marriage is that?

It feels awkward and strange. 

Before our marriage event started, I had conversation with him. 

I asked him to get married with Shin kyung instead me, he said he can't do that because he already signed the agreement and marriage registration. 

Looking at him, watching television alone, i feel wanted to accompany him, if i do sudden act, what would he react. So i decided not to. 

He quite often holding his phone on his hand keeps texting. 

I found out that he was texting with Shin kyung, i am bit heart-broken. But i understand that he still likes her.

At the same time, i am a bit disappointed that he ever tried to likes me. So, I confront him once again,

I asked him again, to married Shin kyung, to be his second wife, he broke into smile, i am relief to see he is smiling again. He thanked me. 

I gave weak smile, whether this choice was right choice, i hope it can help him to happy again. He is the happiest person after he got married with Shin kyung. They spent their time together, and me, left out. 

They go out; date...and they do everything without me.

I spent most of my time stayed at home; clean the kitchen, wipes the dishes, do laundry and do everything that housewife do.

My life will be okay without husband, it's better to be single.  I asked him for divorce, so, he can enjoy his life with Shin kyung. 

I am just interrupting their life. But, he refused to divorce with me. 

Please divorce me! I couldn't handle it anymore, please!"

Han SangHyuk

 She is your first wife, is your second cousin?

-Yes, she is.

Did you love her?

-.....................

She is my second cousin and my first wife, Kim Shin Hye, she seemed nice and also has kind-hearted when we first met. 

I have to married her due to inheritance. After 3 months, our marriage, i married with Shin Kyung. 

I was happy with Shin Kyung, we spent together until I left Shin Hye alone.

Look Kim Shin Hye does most of the works at home. It left me feel guilty.

Is not that I didn't care about her, we had conversation more as friend like buddy, she was good listener and she is carefree. 

I looked at her as friend, even though knowing she is my wife. I had thought to try to like her or spend my time with her. 

Once I decided to have talked with her, Shin Kyung keep interrupted our conversation.

The plan didn't work. 

 When people asked me whether I love Shin Hye, I couldn't answer. My heart mixed up. 

I didn't know about my feeling toward her, whether is love or friend.

I become indecisive.