“I’m excited to meet your man. First love, huh?”

“Neh”

Min is already partying with her new friend. And here I am, with umma, talking and talking over things.

“Do I look okay?”

“Dear, look at me. Do I look okay?”

“Umma, you have an extraordinary beauty”

Hey, I’m being sincere. She really has that.

“Then, you too. Since I’m your mom”

“But I don’t look exa—“

“You’re pretty, Lu Han. Pretty”

Min. ‘Pretty’

A car stops outside my door and the sound of the doorbell follows.

Before opening the door, umma holds my wrist.

“Tell him before someone else does”

I nod.

She’s completely right.

I open the door and hug BIBS tightly.

Who knows? This might be the last time.

“BIBS, I love you, ok? Remember that.”

“I love you too, LIL”

Umma claps her hands joyfully.

“Such a nice couple”

“Oh, umma. This is my namja chingu, Oh Sehun. BIBS, this is my mom”

“Annyeonghasaeyo, ahmunim” He bows 90 degrees and kisses umma’s hand.

“Sweet man. Lu Han is so lucky to have you”

“I’’m luckier to have Lu Han with me”

Umma smiles widely.

***

I put my gift for all of them under the Christmas tree.

“Lu Han, Merry Christmas” his mom sings.

“Hi, umma,” I greet back.  “Merry Christmas”

“Oh my! She called me umma!”

“Anyway, this is my mom, Kyungsoo”

“Oh, annyeonghasaeyo Kyungsoo-ssi. I’m Sehun’s mom, Baekhyun. Yeobo~ Come over here”

His dad comes out of the kitchen.

“Merry Christmas” –his dad

“Same to you” – me

“This is my husband, Chanyeol. This is Lu Han’s mom, Kyungsoo-ssi”

“Merry Christmas, Kyungsoo-ssi”

“Same to you”

We all head to the kitchen.

“Let me help you with things, umma”

“No. It’s ok. Sehun! Entertain our guests!”

Sehun leads us to their living room.

So spacious. And wow. Just wow.

He motions his fingers to the TV and it goes to the USB folder that contains a lot of instrumentals.

He sits beside me.

“What song is your favorite?”

“It’s actually an English song.”

“Tell me, I have lots.”

“Sinatra’s?”

He glares at me.

“Ok, I’m kidding. Just So You Know by McCartney”

He searches it on the USB.

“Oh, see. There it is”

He passes the microphone to me.

“Let’s hear your voice”

And this song is everything I wanna say to him.

The music starts.

“I shouldn’t love you

But I want to

I just can’t turn away

I shouldn’t see you

But I can’t move

I can’t look away”

Ok, now I look away from him. I can’t say it. Even through this.

“I shouldn’t love you

But I want to

I just can’t turn away

I shouldn’t see you

But I can’t move

I can’t look away

And I don’t know

How to be fine when I’m not

‘Cause I don’t know

How to make a feeling stop”

So I continue.

I can’t say it directly to him.

I’d rather die.

It’s so hard, you know?

As the song finishes, they all clap.

Those is the kitchen were already here.

“You’re good!” BIBS compliments.

“Thanks”

Anyway, I don’t know why they’re helping. Despite the fact that they have a lot of maids.

***

“Kyungsoo-ssi, where’s your husband?” his dad asks.

“He died. Plane crash.”

Riding one of their planes, actually.

“I’m so sorry to hear that. Are you aware that we own an airline?”

“I’m completely aware.” She says it harshly.

Err… Mom.

Ahmunim clears .

“In 5, 4, 3, 2, 1! Merry Christmas!”

We exchange pecks on the cheeks. But of course, BIBS doesn’t approve that, so he pulls me in for a sweet kiss.

We go to the dining room to eat. What else?

I think it’s time.

I look at umma with a worried face and she answers me with a reassuring smile

“BIBS,” I whisper.

“Yes, LIL?”

“I… I… I… I love you”

“Why are you stuttering?”

“N-Nothing. But I love you. Promise. If I have one thing I’m sure of, that’s surely my love for you.”

“Sweet. Love you too, LIL”

***

Christmas gifts!

Umma gave me a music player.

Ahmunim and ahbujji gave me an ATM card.

And BIBS… he gave me a car!! An Audi!

Of course, I also gave them presents that I won’t mention since it’s not as luxurious as theirs.

A/N: The end is near :'(