“Just get comfy”

Tiffany leaned again on the bed, anxious and excited, just like the last time she was there. Taeyeon stood by her side with that cute grin Tiffany loved to see and grabbed her hand. It was nice seeing Taeyeon looking excited too.

“Let’s see how big it is now!” Sooyoung mentioned loudly gaining a few chuckles from the girls.

The tall girl did the usual stuff that Tiffany never paid attention to since her focus was always on the monitor, waiting for it to show the images of her baby. She tapped her fingers on the bed as she waited impatiently.

“There it is” Sooyoung mentioned with a smile on her face, “He is a boy, I told you”

Tiffany stared amazed at the monitor, she could see now that she was indeed going to have a baby boy. She smiled while biting softly her lips.

“This is so… amazing” Tiffany heard by her side. She turned to face Taeyeon and they looked at each other fondly. Taeyeon extended her free hand to touch Tiffany’s hair but just a few seconds after she did Sooyoung spoke making Taeyeon drop her arm.

“Uh-“ Sooyoung said while looking at them, “Everything is doing ok, but now you are in your 5^th month so you should be even more careful”

Tiffany nodded with a serious expression.

“Try to have a bathroom close to you because you’ll pee even more” Sooyoung said earning some laughs from her friend and Tiffany.

“The best part is that you might start feeling your baby. Kicks”, Sooyoung grinned and Tiffany couldn’t help but feel so excited about that. She deeply wanted for that to happen soon.

“You still look thin so you’re lucky but you might start gaining weight and your back is probably hurting you already… just have anyone close to you that can help you”

“Yes” Taeyeon said and that single word made Tiffany felt giddy inside. Taeyeon has been and continues being so caring towards her. She wanted to kiss her so bad but she controlled herself.

Sooyoung nodded and stayed quiet for a few seconds, “Umm…” she said after a while and Tiffany and Taeyeon stared at her, expectantly.

“Well that’s all, but I still need to talk you about some things. Privately” Sooyoung said while looking at Tiffany but then turned towards Taeyeon. She grabbed her own shoulder and frowned for some seconds.

“Yeah-“, She looked at Tiffany again, and crossed her arms smiling at her. She looked kind of awkward.

Tiffany frowned but nodded nonetheless, with a small smile.

“I’ll change then”

 

 

***

 

 

Tiffany sat on the same chair she sat the last time and waited for Sooyoung to speak but she was still busy writing some things. She looked at the pen she used; it was a Disney pen, Buddy from Toy Story to be specific. She had to smile at that. She looked around as she waited. Her office wasn’t decorated much and the smell was the typical smell from the place, but it looked comfy, maybe because it was Sooyoung’s.

“Well” Sooyoung finally started and Tiffany returned her attention towards her doctor’s face, a little nervous and curious, wondering why she wanted to talk to her alone.

“I know you and Taeyeon are uh-close, but this still something I always talk with my patients in private just to not make them feel embarrassed or anything” she smiled and Tiffany nodded and urged her to continue.

Sooyoung laughed a bit, “It’s about . I know you don’t have the father of your baby by your side but I still thought I could tell you this. I mean, it’s part of the routine”

“Oh” Tiffany said and Sooyoung smiled.

“You know… just in case”

Tiffany nodded and gave Sooyoung a small smile as a signal for her to continue.

“You can have , if you want to. Actually, some women just don’t want at all but others might crave for it so there are just some things you should know”

Tiffany listened to Sooyoung’s words, though it was a bit funny to hear her because, in front of Sooyoung, Tiffany was single and was going to be a single parent. It probably was a bit awkward for the tall girl.

“ won’t harm your baby or change the way you're carrying your state, so don’t worry. But there are a few positions that could be uncomfortable for you. You just need to look them up on google so you can have enjoy if you’re planning on having it”

Sooyoung chuckled a little.

Tiffany blushed at those words, she started to blush since she heard ‘positions’. Apart from the fact that it was awkward to have your doctor telling you about positions, Tiffany couldn’t stop linking everything to Taeyeon.

They had hot make out sessions, long ones sometimes but they always stopped, knowing that it would be too fast and because of her state.

“So… having wouldn’t be hard, right?” Tiffany asked a little embarrassed that Sooyoung could think she wants to have with someone she isn’t dating or something.

Sooyoung shook her head, “No, you just need to look for information. I could tell you about some positions-“

“No, its fine” Tiffany laughed embarrassed and Sooyoung followed along, “I can look that up-I mean, if needed” Tiffany nodded as she nervously played with her shirt making the tall doctor smile.

“Ok, Tiffany. That is all,” She wrote something in a small paper and gave it to Tiffany, “This is my number, from now on I think it’ll be better if we stay in contact. Just call me or send me a message if you have any questions about anything”

Tiffany grinned after Sooyoung said: “Let’s be more than doctor and patient, let’s be friends!”

Sooyoung was a professional and her easygoing attitude always eased Tiffany’s feelings. She thanked her and grabbed the small paper, took out her phone and saved her number. Sooyoung helped her stand up and walked her to the door. Tiffany thought of Taeyeon, waiting for her like a bored puppy outside when then a sudden thought made her stop.

She turned around, “Actually, Sooyoung. There’s something I kinda want to tell you…” she said, a little unsure.

Sooyoung smiled at her and Tiffany bit her lips as she thought of telling her the truth. The tall girl, waited with that friendly stare of her and Tiffany knew she could tell her but…

Taeyeon and her talked about this in the morning. Telling Sooyoung about Jiwoong. But the older girl looked apprehensive at the thought of telling her, even though Tiffany suggested doing it together. Taeyeon only wanted to ignore the issue for now but that only was going to make it harder for her, them, later.

But Taeyeon had to be there, definitely.

Tiffany shook her head, “Nothing… it’s nothing important” she almost sighed at her lie.

Sooyoung frowned as Tiffany played with the strap of her purse.

Sooyoung stared at her with a curious expression but after some seconds she patted Tiffany’s shoulder. Tiffany relaxed and Sooyoung nodded saying it was ok.

 

***

 

Outside of the room waited Taeyeon, with her mind on the conversation she had with Tiffany in the morning. Her hands went through her hair as a sing of frustration. Keeping secrets was something she is used to do, but she hated the fact that with time there were more and more secrets. She knew, that this was not only going to affect her relationship with some friends but also stress her forever. She didn’t have many friends, or people that she considered real friends and she was never someone who expressed with words how much she cared about them. But she did, a lot. Sooyoung was not only a great friend, but one of her dearest friends.

The door besides Taeyeon opened startling the girl, she cleared while trying to not look uncomfortable or strange. She smiled at Tiffany before and then at Sooyoung.

“So, may I know what were you talking about?” Taeyeon asked to both of them and Sooyoung grinned, Taeyeon turned to look at Tiffany, waiting.

“Uhm- yeah. I tell you later” Tiffany gave small pats on Taeyeon’s shoulder and the older girl felt a bit confused at Tiffany’s expression.

Sooyoung’s laugh took her attention and Taeyeon looked at her, remembering her thoughts from a minute ago.

“I’m leaving now” Sooyoung started, “Call me if you need anything. Both of you” She looked at them but her stare lingered a little longer on Taeyeon.

Tiffany thanked Sooyoung and exchanged smiles while Taeyeon frowned, looking at the floor. Her friend said goodbye to them, to her and then she turned around. Taeyeon grabbed her shirt while looking at Sooyoung’s back.

 

“Wait, Soo”

Taeyeon was a little loud, but she didn’t shout. Sooyoung turned around, eyebrows raised.

“Can… we talk? Just a few minutes”

It took some seconds before Sooyoung nodded with a smile and Taeyeon looked at Tiffany. She was about to say something when Tiffany spoke.

“Talk. I’ll go get the ultrasounds” she smiled at Taeyeon and left them alone. Taeyeon stared at Tiffany’s back until she felt someone closer to her, she dropped her gaze to the floor and sighed.

She walked to the large window on the opposite wall and rested her back on the glass, Sooyoung followed her as Taeyeon looked outside. There were nurses helping old people and parents carrying their kids. Feeling the summer breeze on her face she sighed once again, knowing her tall friend was still looking at her. Waiting for her to say something.

Sooyoung was the one to start, “Hey Tae” she touched the smaller girls arm making her stop looking outside and finally look at her, “Come on. You can tell me everything”

She smiled at her and it did seem like she could tell everything to her. There was something in Sooyoung’s expression, with that sincere smile and the friendly eyes, it almost felt like Sooyoung already knew and she was just waiting for her to say it.

“I think it’s about Tiffany” Sooyoung kept her smile and added, “Trust me”. She seemed content for them to be talking so Taeyeon finally spoke.

“I’ve been meaning to tell you but it’s definitely not something easy to do” She frowned a little, “I think Tiffany would have liked to be here but I- it’s just easier if we are alone”

Sooyoung gazed to the floor shortly before looking back to Taeyeon.

“It’s tiring… it’s so tiring to say this so that’s why it took me a while” Sooyoung looked at her confused, it was her turn to frown.

“Tiffany…” The smile returned to Sooyoung’s face as Taeyeon talked.

“Tiffany was Jiwoong’s girlfriend and-“

Sooyoung dropped the hand she had on Taeyeon. The smile on her face changed to a mix of surprise, horror, shock.

“Wait, I…” Sooyoung said a little agitated, “No, just- the baby, tell me, the baby…?”

Taeyeon nodded after exhaling, “Yes… Tiffany’s baby is going to be my nephew” she smiled at the thought.

Sooyoung looked so serious, somewhat scared. She was staring at nothing in particular, probably deep in thought. Sooyoung looked at her and it wasn’t the kind of reaction she expected from Sooyoung, more than pity she saw confusion.

“I thought…” Sooyoung said with a low voice, she gulped and continued, “I’m shocked” the sincerity in her words made Taeyeon chuckle a bit.

Sooyoung closed the distance between them and hugged her a bit awkwardly at first but then when Taeyeon returned the hug it felt a lot more warm and comfortable.

“I wish you’d told me sooner”

She let out a short groan, “I just- I’d had liked to be there for you, you know”

“I know”

Taeyeon lowered her head, knowing that she might have hurt her friend, “But you understand me. You know me” she stated as a fact, because Sooyoung truly knows her. Talking about her feelings, fears, anything was just something that Taeyeon didn’t usually do.

Sooyoung nodded and tighten her arms around her. She patted Taeyeon’s head and the shorter girl leaned her head on the doctor’s shoulder. She’s so much taller than her so she felt like a kid in her arms.

Sooyoung dropped her arms and stared at her, “Shorty, it’s good…” she stopped for a moment like she was organizing her thoughts, “it’s great that you’re helping Tiffany and taking care of her”

Hearing that made Taeyeon feel happy. She couldn’t control the grin that appeared on her face.

“I think… I think your brother is proud of you” The grin on Taeyeon’s faces slowly faded away. Proud of her…

“Thanks, Soo”, she smiled while gazing somewhere else, not daring to meet her eyes for a moment.

Sooyoung looked outside of the window, with a sad expression, “This must be really hard for Tiffany”

“I’m there for her” Taeyeon said with a secure tone in her voice and Sooyoung raised her brows while looking at her, she smiled and lowered her eyes. Taeyeon wondered if her friend didn’t think she was enough for Tiffany.  That thought was annoying to her but it was normal for Sooyoung to think that.

She gripped her shirt.

“I just thought…” Sooyoung said in a whisper, barely audible. Almost like she was talking to herself.

“What?” Taeyeon asked and Sooyoung shook her head, smiling again.

 

“Anyway Taeyeon, Tiffany is waiting for you. Let’s talk anytime, ok? I want to ask you more about how you met Tiffany and stuff… but I don’t need the details now”

Taeyeon nodded and thanked her for not asking much. She followed Sooyoung along the hospital corridor and saw Tiffany in the distance, sitting beside an old woman and talking to her animatedly. Taeyeon couldn’t help but to smile. Tiffany was so talkative and made everyone feel better. No one could believe or think what she might be going through.

Falling harder for her was easy.

It seemed like Tiffany sensed them getting close to her because she stopped talking for a moment and looked at them. At Taeyeon. She had this nervous look… she was probably wondering why they took so long and what kind of conversation they had.

 “Hey…” she said in a sweet voice to Taeyeon and the older girl wanted to hold her hand but again, she couldn’t do that. Tiffany showed her the folder of the ultrasound pics with that pretty eyesmile of her, insisting for her to look at them.

Taeyeon looked at them amazed, she grabbed the folder with one hand and with the other she grazed the pictures gently.  She looked at Tiffany and feeling speechless she just grinned and laughed happily.

“It’s so beautiful” Tiffany said with a proud tone and a lovely gaze, while staring at the pictures again. This time Taeyeon stared at her. Controlling the urge to touch her, kiss her, hold her. She was always so beautiful. But the expression she gets every time she talks or looks at her baby it’s just so…radiant.

“I-“

 Sooyoung’s voice brought her back to reality and Taeyeon cleared , feeling a bit self-conscious. She forgot for a while they were in public and with Sooyoung besides them.

“I actually have to get ready for my next appointment” Sooyoung smiled at them and Tiffany thanked her once again with that pretty smile of hers. Sooyoung nodded and stared at Tiffany without saying anything, she squeezed her arm.

“Write me if you need anything, ok?” She told Tiffany and said goodbye to both girls. Taeyeon sighed and looked at Tiffany who was definitely expecting to hear what happened.

 

***

 

 

Taeyeon sat on the couch, besides Tiffany who has been quiet for a while. She was a little afraid of upsetting the girl in some way.

In their way back home, she told her about her conversation with Sooyoung and Tiffany seemed a little annoyed at the fact that Taeyeon didn’t want to tell her together, after all it was something that involved both of them.

She touched Tiffany’s shoulder, making her turn and look at her. She put a silly face to make her laugh and it seemed like it worked. Tiffany let out a short laugh, pushing Taeyeon without much force.

“What are you? A kid?” Tiffany joked.

“I can be your baby” She said with a playful tone making Tiffany laugh again. They weren’t tense anymore and that relaxed Taeyeon.

“Is that a pick up line? It’s awful” Tiffany smiled and Taeyeon followed along for a few seconds until she stopped avoiding the topic.

“I’m sorry, please don’t be angry at me. I want us to be ok” Taeyeon grabbed the younger girl’s hand and interlocked their fingers. She softly rubbed Tiffany’s hand with her thumb as she waited for her to speak.

Tiffany let out a sigh, “I’m not angry… maybe just a little. I’m a little disappointed that I was left out” Tiffany looked at her and it hurt Taeyeon to see a glint of sadness in her eyes.

“It was going to be harder, Tiffany. Telling Sooyoung something I’ve been keeping a secret, with you being by my side when we- when we are keeping another secret together”

Silence overtook the room for a while, it was like a brief reminder of what they are doing and the reasons to why they are keeping it a secret.

 

“I know” Tiffany looked at Taeyeon and with her free hand, she touched Taeyeon’s cheek. They both sighed at the same time and laughed a bit at that. Staring at each other’s eyes, Taeyeon leaned in and kissed Tiffany. It was just a tender kiss, not a passionate one but it still brought some many emotions. They separated their lips but still kept their faces close.

Taeyeon stared at Tiffany’s eyes, and hated the fact that they could only be like this in secret. Hiding.

She hugged Tiffany and asked, “Are we fine?” she felt Tiffany nod before giving Taeyeon a peck on her cheek. The older girl decided to change the topic since she didn’t want Tiffany to feel down anymore.

Taeyeon let go of Tiffany and suddenly remembered the conversation the younger had with Sooyoung alone.

“Hey. I forgot to ask but what did you and Sooyoung talk about?” Taeyeon asked.

Tiffany raised her brows and seemed to be thinking of something. Taeyeon wondered why she was acting weird. Tiffany laughed nervously and Taeyeon felt curiosity invading her.

“Nothing?” Tiffany bit her lips.

“Are you asking me?” Taeyeon laughed, “I’ll call Sooyoung”

She earned a playful slap on her shoulder but she loved playing like this with Tiffany.

“Yah!” Tiffany chuckled, “It’s a bit embarrassing”

Taeyeon nodded her head as sign for Tiffany to continue and after some seconds of seeing Tiffany doubt, she finally listened her speak.

“She talked to me about … she mentioned there were better positions for-“

Tiffany was cut by a loud weird laugh coming from Taeyeon and she laughed along too. It was really contagious.

“She even told me I could ask her about these positions” Tiffany grinned and Taeyeon laughed harder earning a playful punch from Tiffany.

After they calmed down, Taeyeon looked at Tiffany and she had to grin at her cute expression. She didn’t know Tiffany could get embarrassed about stuff like this.

She smirked at her and put an arm behind Tiffany, “And what are these positions?”

“I haven’t searched about them. And I wouldn’t ask Sooyoung” She giggled and Taeyeon too.

“So…” Taeyeon started while looking at Tiffany up and down, the talk has just reminded her of how much she desired Tiffany. She looked at her with her eyes showing a glint of hunger in them. She put on Tiffany’s neck and whispered there.

“She told you its fine to have ” Taeyeon kissed the skin and felt one of Tiffany’s hand go through her hair while the other one caressed her back.

“Yes”

Tiffany opened her legs allowing Taeyeon to put a leg in between. She softly pushed Tiffany until her back touched the couch and continued kissing and nibbling on Tiffany’s neck and collarbone, feeling thankful that Tiffany was wearing a shirt that made it easier for her to do it. She felt the skin of Tiffany’s legs rubbing her own legs. Taeyeon was wearing shorts and Tiffany a skirt.

Tiffany’s hands roamed Taeyeon’s back until she reached the last part of her white shirt. She put her hands inside of it, finally touching Taeyeon’s . She felt her arch under her touch.

Taeyeon left Tiffany’s neck and stared at the girl under her. She was sure her eyes reflected her own, there was lust and love. Tiffany was sweating a little but it made it hotter. She moved slowly, making her leg press and rub against Tiffany. She looked at her while doing it, seeing Tiffany’s expression just turned her on. One of Tiffany’s hand left her back and touched her cheek, urging her to kiss her. The younger girl shoved her tongue inside Taeyeon making her let out a stiffed moan.

They continued kissing as Taeyeon pressed her whole body on Tiffany, grinding on her. Their breath hitched.

“Ah Taeyeon…” Tiffany let out when she broke the kiss.

Taeyeon’s hands went inside Tiffany’s shirt this time and touched her tummy, she smiled at the touch. She looked at Tiffany, wanting to go further and it seemed like Tiffany wanted it too. There was something so alluring in Tiffany’s face, Taeyeon swore she was about to moan at the sight.

But it was still too fast for them to do this, at least according to Taeyeon. She wanted to wait. She wanted it to be more romantic, because she was in love.

She sat up straight, holding Tiffany’s hand and making her sat up too.

“I want this to be more romantic” Taeyeon said sincerely and Tiffany giggled.

“You’re cute” Tiffany smiled happily and hugged the older girl, who was blushing a little. Tiffany pecked Taeyeon’s ear before putting her head on the crook of her neck.

“I like you way too much, Tae…” she said in a low voice and Taeyeon grinned.

“And I like you way more”

 

 

***

 

 

Taeyeon got inside her work place with sleepy eyes. She saw that Seohyun was already there, taking her things out of her purse. Taeyeon smiled.

She tapped Seohyun’s desk, gaining her attention and greeted her silently. Seohyun chuckled.

“Too sleepy again, unnie?” She joked but Taeyeon didn’t have the energy to retort.

Taeyeon sat on her chair and sighed knowing that today was going to be a long day. She received a message from Seohyun telling her they had to stay today until late to work on the next project of the company. Were Mondays always meant to be horrible?

“So how was your weekend?” Seohyun started small talk but Taeyeon was still tired so her reply didn’t come out instantly.

She remembered her weekend. She spent time at home with Tiffany, just them watching Netflix and falling sleep on the couch while hugging each other. It seemed like that couch was their favorite spot. She grinned. They were supposed to go to the house of Taeyeon’s parents but Tiffany was a little tired. They decided to postpone it to the next Sunday.

“At home with Tiffany. You?” She looked at Seohyun.

“Sooyoung called me last night” Seohyun suddenly said as she adjusted her chair and started up her computer.

“Oh?” Taeyeon said, a little curious.

Seohyun took a while to continue; as she was busy looking for some papers Taeyeon didn’t even care about. She kept her eyes on her young friend, not wanting to start working yet.

“She asked me about how it happened. The whole baby stuff. I guess, she didn’t want to stress you with the topic”

Taeyeon nodded slowly, understanding her actions. Actually, she was glad that Sooyoung asked Seohyun instead of her.

She rested her back on the chair and gave her friend a short but pleased smile as a signal that she preferred that.

Taeyeon stretched on her seat, getting ready to work. She started her computer and looked at the screen. She should probably get a coffee; she shouldn’t have stayed until late watching Breaking bad with Tiffany.

From the corner of her eyes, she saw Seohyun staring at her and she wondered what she wanted.

She was about to speak but Seohyun beat her to it.

“She asked me about Tiffany” Her young friend mentioned and it took some seconds for Taeyeon to process she was talking about Sooyoung.

She furrowed her brows, “Uh? That’s weird. She has Tiffany’s number”

Well maybe she didn’t want to bother her? Taeyeon asked herself.

Seohyun’s head turned to her computer screen and she started typing, but Taeyeon still had her eyes on her.

“She just asked me if I’ve met her. She mentioned you looked like pretty good friends” Seohyun took one second to smile at Taeyeon and then her attention went back to her screen.

Taeyeon got quiet, a little confused. She returned the smile to Seohyun but she suddenly felt watched. She moved her attention to her own screen and started working but her mind was still on the short conversation she had with Seohyun.

She thought it was a little weird. She looked at her from the corner of her eyes again and noticed the girl was acting like she usually does.

Could Sooyoung be suspecting? Taeyeon stopped typing, her fingers hanging on the keyword. She felt herself shiver a little.

 No way. She was just probably worried about Tiffany, she wanted to be her friend.

She smiled at herself and continued working. There was no need to get paranoid.

 

 

***
 

 

Tiffany was waiting for Taeyeon to get back home from work but it was already 11 pm and she wanted to sleep. She changed channels until she found one about babies. She grinned at seeing them, feeling giddy inside. Knowing that soon she was going to be like those moms on the tv. She felt the need to see the ultrasound pics and she stood up from the couch. She went inside her room, room that she hasn’t been using now because she is sleeping at Taeyeon’s, but she still kept her stuff there.

She grabbed the folder on the nightstand and sat on the bed to look at them.

It brought so many feelings just to stare at them. She already longed to have it on her arms. Her baby boy. She remembered she always wanted to have a little girl first, but right now she couldn’t care. She already loved it and it hasn’t even born yet.

She wondered if her mother felt the same as she grazed her pictures with her fingers. Tears were already forming her eyes. One of them fell on the pictures but she wasn’t crying of sadness. Even though her tears reflected a mix of feelings, she knew happiness was more intense.

She heard the door open and close and she knew Taeyeon was home, she cleaned her tears and waited for Taeyeon to get there.

“Tiffany?” Taeyeon asked her in the dark, as she got close and sat beside her, “Are you ok?”

Tiffany nodded, “Yes. I just got a little emotional” she showed her the folder and Taeyeon smiled, understanding.

“Are you happy?” Taeyeon asked her softly.

Tiffany stared into her eyes, into her lovely and expressive eyes. There was something there that always made Tiffany want to look into them forever. She saw love. Tiffany felt in love. She touched Taeyeon’s cheek like it was fragile.

“I’am”

She leaned on Taeyeon and they kissed in the dark. They put their hands around each other, feelings overtaking them when Tiffany felt something hit her tummy.

She separated from Taeyeon and realized what it was. She widened her eyes going back and forth between her belly and Taeyeon.

“He’s kicking!” She said excitedly and with the biggest grin on her face she grabbed Taeyeon’s hand to put it on her belly.

Taeyeon looked at it and then she widened her eyes too, “I can feel! I can feel it Tiffany, he’s kicking!” She looked like a kid, showing her dimple for the grin she also had on her face.

Tiffany nodded, “He is!” They both laughed happily and looked at her belly. Taeyeon gave it a kiss before cleaning one tear that fell on Tiffany’s face a few moments ago.

With Tiffany’s hand on top of the hand Taeyeon still had on her belly, they kissed again.

Tiffany hugged the older girl, feeling too happy to ever let go.

 

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I'm sorry... I feel guilty for taking this long to upload this chapter. I should have let you know I was just taking a hiatus. Anyway, I'm not dropping this fic, so don't worry about that. I hope you liked this chapter, and please forgive me for taking so long ;~;