*Italics will be thoughts and flashbacks*

I locked myself up in my room for a few days. 

"Amber," Krystal called out from the other side of the door, "Please let me in." I stared at the wall wearing a blank expression. 

"Why did you...why?" I mumbled.

"She left," She said in a hushed tone. My breath caught in my throat. 

"W-where to?" I asked with quivering lips. She looked up at me, her eyes filled with despair and misery. 

"She left this world and went on to a better place." I couldn't believe what I was hearing. 

"No...no...s-she...she." Tears spilled onto my cheeks. "She can't be gone. W-why didn't she say anything?" 

"She made us promise not to tell you."

I was speechless. "I...I understand," I whispered.

"Amber open the damn door. You haven't eaten or done anything in days...please."

Suzy, why did you do this to yourself?

"Is she still not coming out?" I heard my older brother, Jonghyun, ask. He pounded on the door. 

"Amber open up we're worried about you right now."

I closed my eyes and blocked everything out.

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"Baby," A soft voice cooed. I looked up and saw her standing in front of me. 

"S-Suzy," I said standing quickly. I pulled her into a tight hug. She softly laughed at my action. 

I looked at her once more. 

"You...you're." She smiled brightly at me. "You're here." I kissed her. 

"I thought you left me," I said. She looked at me with sad eyes. 

"What's wrong?" She shook her head. 

"I'm sorry," She said with teary eyes. I was confused. 

"Why are you apologizing?" A few tears slipped down her cheeks. 

"I'm sorry for leaving you even when I promised you." 

This...she's not real.

"Amber, I'll always be watching you and loving you from where I am," She said cupping my cheek