*Jimin*
 
 
By 3 the press conference was over and all the reporters left at 5 after filming us for a bit.
 
After they left we still practiced. The next day we have a full busy schedule. Fun.
 
During practice I noticed it felt different, I know there is a new member but the atmosphere just feels off. It feels awkward and tense. I noticed Heejoo very quiet, when they spoke to her she just listened and took it in and did as she was asked, she didn't speak. I know I said I wouldn't care but something in me is making me care, something is telling me to protect her. Why am I feeling like this?
 
 
We went on to practice till 7 and took an hour break. As we all sat together we saw Heejoo go sit on the opposite corner and talk to the translator, he then left and she just sat there alone eating some snacks.
 
I still can't believe that she got bullied almost all her life.
 
After her confession at the conference she disappeared and didn't show up until we were about to start practice. She doesn't look like the type that would get bullied. She has such a rough attitude and she might look small but she looks strong. Then again she did get into fights and all that. Hmm I guess I did underestimate her.
 
 
 
Suddenly Taehyung got up and pulled Namjoon with him and they walked over to her. He started to speak and Namjoon translated. I don't know why but I feel like I should be there. Why do I feel jealous? Why is Taehyung so close to her, should I tell him to back off? I mean I'm just looking out for him because he shouldn't be so close to her people might think wrong you know.
 
 
All of a sudden the instructor came and told us to get in our spots to practice. I got up and went to my spot. All of a sudden I see Taehyung put his hand out at her. She just stared at it as if it were something she has never seen. She wouldn't take his hand right? It’s a guy it seems like she hates all guys so she wouldn’t right? Wait why am I worrying? She's nobody to me, why do I care?
 
Taehyung said something and she grabbed his hand! What the hell why did she do that. All of a sudden a huge wave of anger rose up in me.
 
"Yah Kim Taehyung! What do you think you’re doing!?" I yelled without knowing it.
What's wrong with me why am I angry? Taehyung ad Heejoo just stared at me. As I looked around I saw the rest of the members looking at me, my hands in a fist and all.
What did I just do? I felt embarrassed but most of all angry, not only at myself but with Taehyung. All I could do was walk out.
I didn't know where to go but I just did.
 
 
I walked for an hour just around the building and all. I needed time to cool myself down. Why did I do that? I have never acted like this and mostly to Taehyung. He's my best friend, why did I do that? I just couldn't stand that scene though, her hand in his. I felt this weird pain in my chest. And my outburst I didn't mean to it just came out of my mouth. Ughh I'm an idiot.
 
 
I walked a little bit more and decided to go back to the studio. I'm not ready to go but I have to or else my punishment will be much more bigger. I mean I know I'm going to get in trouble for leaving for an hour without permission and also during practice. Ughh I'm so screwed.
 
 
As I walking into the building I greeted everyone and headed towards the elevator. As I got on and hit the button for the basement I noticed my hands were shaking. Great just what I needed, to look weak in front of her.
 
 
As the doors opened I hesitated on going out, I could just say I got a really bad stomach ache and went to the dorm or that I got super sick or something. They won't believe that. Come on Jimin be a man.
 
 
As I opened the door, everyone's eyes just went to me. The guys were running through the choreo and Heejoo was with them. They stopped and looked at me. As I walked on I went straight to the managers.
 
"Yah, Park Jimin where were you?" Manager hyung asked.
"I wasn't feeling good and decided to go out for a walk. Sorry I didn't tell you hyung." I answered back plainly.
"Well are you better now or do you want to go to the dorm?" Manager hyung asked.
"I'm fine. The fresh air helped out. I'm better now." I said
"Okay well go practice, we have a full schedule tomorrow and the choreo got changed again so hurry up." Hyung said.
I bowed and walked towards the guys.
This is going to be fun.......
 
 
"So what did you guys learn, did any of my parts change?" I asked.
"Ummm well you and Heejoo are going to share some parts for this promo. She learned the parts and she has them set." Hoseok said.
"Oh okay, well let’s get a run through" I said with a shy smile.
They all went to their spots and I just in a big breath.
"Jimin are you okay?" Namjoon hyung said as he passed by me
"Yea I'm fine I just needed some fresh air" I said
"No I mean the outburst." He said with a serious tone.
"Let’s just talk about this later Hyung. And I'm sorry." I answered back
"I'm not the one you need to apologize to. Just think about that." He said and walked away to his spot.
Why is he always right? I need to apologize to both.
 
We ran through the choreography all night long. We only got 10 minute breaks and a small snack hour which was more like 5 minutes.
 
"Okay guys that's a rap. Good work today and good luck tomorrow." The instructor said.
We all bowed and started to get our things.
"So what should we go eat?" Namjoon asked us as we were waiting outside for the van.
"Hmmmm I don't know. Let’s have some fried chicken yea?!" Hoseok said
"Okay. You guys want some chicken?" Namjoon asked.
We all nodded and decided to have that for dinner.
 
We ate and then went back home. Everyone was asleep in the car ride except me and Heejoo. I want to talk to her but we don't speak the same language. Maybe I should just say sorry and then she will understand right?
 
"Uh Heejoo." I said in a shaky voice
She looked up at me and gave this serious glare.
Well here goes my best English.
"Uhhhh I want to sorry for today." Ughh I'm such an idiot I should have just waited till tomorrow so that the translator could say it to her. Ughh why Jimin why?!
I then heard a laugh and looked up and she was laughing at me. Wait does this mean she's forgiving me?
"It’s okay" she said In Korean. So she did understand me. I just looked at her and smiled and looked forward. Turns out to be a good night
The rest of the car ride we both stayed quite. I don't think I've smiled as much as I have today.