Something cracked inside me as I watch you smile at her.

I know it is wrong of me to do this, but the jealousy burns like an untamed fire. I try so hard to put it out, suppress it within me but it's burning wild.

It's killing me from inside.

What happened to the well wishes?

I'm such a hypocrite.

Would have lived better and smiled brighter if I truly understood the meaning of letting go.

But you make it so hard for me to smile.

You're so hard to let go.

Stuck right inside me.

I'm trapped in a cocoon of webs.

The more I try to run away, the more tangled I get.

Why?

Just let go, Kim Himchan.

She's a better person than you.

Stop being a fool.

Happiness, isn't this happiness?

Security, something I've always yearned. Finally, I'm not the only one giving to a relationship.

I feel happy.

But everytime I hold her hand, those hands that are so much smaller, softer, those hands that obediently stay in mine, unlike you, always pulling away, running away-- everytime I hold her hand I think of you.

Happiness, why is it so burdened?

Are you watching me? Are you seeing this?

This is something you never gave me.

I hope you know.

I'm happy.

Happier than when I'm with you.