Stuck in Reverse
Right here where we startedI watch him.
How he carries on with life easily.
And I look at myself.
I’m a pathetic wreck.
Only know did I realize how dependent I am on him.
It hurts even more to know that he never needed me.
He gives me everything.
But he never needed me in the first place.
It’s hard to concentrate when work and a broken love stays in the same place.
I don’t care if they call me names for I am truly what they say of me.
Everyday, I come to remind myself painfully how the somebody who I never wanted to call back is the somebody I would die without.
Stuck in reverse. I’m stuck in reverse.
I miss you so much. I hope you think about me even though I know I no longer live inside you.
Each day,
I delve deeper and deeper back into our shared memories,
watching the silent movie in an empty theatre alone.
I’m the only audience.
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Stop looking at me.
Don’t think I don’t know.
I feel your eyes on me each day.
They give me pain.
I never want to go back again.
But your eyes,
They are tearing me apart.
I hope I was an unfeeling man.
That way, love wouldn’t give me so much pain.
And you would always stay the precious thing I held so dear.
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