Boyfriends?

This is awkward. What do I say to him? Should we video call? No way. I don't want it to get more awkward. Oh well, here goes nothing.

s.u.h.o : how's it going?

K-ris_90 : good. How are u?

s.u.h.o : I'm fine. U got time?

K-ris_90 : yeah. What's up?

s.u.h.o : it's about what u said before u left

K-ris_90 : oh. Right

s.u.h.o : do u really mean it when u said u love me?

K-ris_90 : … yes

K-ris_90 : but I understand if u don't feel the same way

K-ris_90 : and if u're gonna reject me now

s.u.h.o : no

s.u.h.o : that's not it

s.u.h.o : I still don't know whether to accept or reject

s.u.h.o : I just need to ask u something

K-ris_90 : what is it?

s.u.h.o : how long have u liked me?

s.u.h.o : I know that feeling doesn't come overnight

s.u.h.o : u can't possibly turn nothing to love in a split second

K-ris_90 : well

K-ris_90 : I didn't notice it myself

K-ris_90 : but when I think about it

K-ris_90 : I might have liked you since we first met

K-ris_90 : we met each other when we were already dating other people. I never really told you the reason why I broke up with Kai. He suspected something going on between us, bcos we spent lots of time together and he caught me looking at u several times. That's why he left me.

K-ris_90 : then when I first kissed u at ur old apartment, it wasn't bcos I missed Kai or to proof who's boss. I just wanted to kiss u, to feel how it is to be Chen, and to convince myself that I don't like u. I did feel something from that, but I just dismissed it as nothing. I mean, even if I did like u, u were with Chen and I know how much u guys love each other. And I don't want Luhan to kill me if he knew that I like u. I told myself that's just a phase, a rebound after Kai

K-ris_90 : then when we met again at the airport, I was really happy to see u, esp when u told me u and Chen broke up. I really thought u guys would stick to each other. I started to get more curious about u. I mean, u broke up with Chen bcos u didn’t want commitment, then u became best friends with him like nothing happened. I was actually glad that u were single bcos I could finally do it with u. I wouldn't do that or ask u to be my FWB if u already have someone else

K-ris_90 : I was happy that u accepted that. I guess at first I thought I was happy bcos I have a buddy and I don't have to try hard to score anymore. But when I thought about it, I was glad we did that bcos I finally have u. I mean, if I only wanted I could just ask anybody near me to be my FWB. But I chose u even tho I know we would be separated

K-ris_90 : I guess I broke all of my rules, huh?

K-ris_90 : I fell in love with u and I wanted more from u

K-ris_90 : I'm sorry things turn out this way

Wow. I could never have guessed. He was never obvious.

s.u.h.o : don't be sorry

s.u.h.o : when u confessed to me

s.u.h.o : weren't u afraid that I'd reject u?

s.u.h.o : u knew I don't want any commitment and I only accepted the deal bcos it's convenient for us

K-ris_90 : I was aware of that. I knew if u rejected me I'd lose u forever. I thought about it a lot

K-ris_90 : but as we spent more time together, it became harder for me to shut my feelings down. It became harder for me to leave your bed at night. It became harder to pretend nothing happened

K-ris_90 : the further we go with this deal, the more hurt I'd get

K-ris_90 : that's y I confessed. It's all or nothing

s.u.h.o : hmm

s.u.h.o : I understand now

s.u.h.o : but I have to say, this is all too sudden for me

s.u.h.o : To accept u straightaway is weird

s.u.h.o : I've never seen u as more than friends

s.u.h.o : but I couldn't just reject u, that'd be unfair for you

s.u.h.o : that's why I took 3 weeks to think

s.u.h.o : so

s.u.h.o : can u give me some time to get used to this transition

s.u.h.o : and to accept u in my heart?

No reply. Did he not like this idea?

K-ris_90 : oh God! Yes yes yes yes

K-ris_90 : of course Suho

K-ris_90 : you can take all the time u need

K-ris_90 : I was really afraid u'll reject me tonight

K-ris_90 : thank you thank you

K-ris_90 : I would really kiss u if u're here right now

K-ris_90 : u have no idea how much u made me happy Suho

LOL. I wish I could see his face right now. He must be beaming and grinning like an idiot.