Arriving home was never so disappointing before  , the dorm was empty and it felt so  cold to be nside of it .

…. face darkening as if it new something bad happened , ears  trying to close themselves  to avoid hearing bad news again …

but somehow Kyungsoo knew what happened , he knew that this day would come after the accident , yes he calls it «  accident «  simply because it happened suddenly , without their knowledge and most importantly  left very very big damages …

 

He knew it would ruin his and his boyfriend’s careers , he did , but he didn’t expect this to happen so fast , especially because that means that Sooman didn’t put so much thoughts on the whole subject , how could he just Disband them when he could’ve thought more about it and found a solution ? why ?

 

Unanswered questions again , but this time Kyungsoo knew the answers , he did , deep inside of him although he would never admit it , because Do Kyungsoo never liked or would like being  the second choice , never .

 

But  he knew that Sooman is able to find other twelve people as talented as EXO , maybe more , why not ? since he has the fame and everything , people would sell their souls to be a trainee in that company of his

 

However he didn’t want to tell those bad news to his boyfriend Eyes filling with tears threatening to come out , clouds blocking his thoughts to go any further , throat tightening more  than ever  … Kyungsoo forgot about the  life is ruin the career he’and his bandmates have  worked so hard for ,

 

 

“ Hyuuuung  “ a whine is heard in his voice  , Kyungsoo was immediately awaken from his thoughts

 

“ I’m so sorry Jonggie , I  I was….uhm thinking , yes , just thinking about .. stuff “

 

“ what  were you … “

 

“ stuff that you don’t need to know , at least for now “

 

 

Waves of sadness crashing down his sore heart , Jongin felt something wrong . something bad must have happened .. he couldn’t look at his hyung holding back his tears but soon after he couldn’t handle him crying , because he simply can’t see his hyung sad … he doesn’t deserve this sadness he deserves all the happiness in this world ,

And at this point that’s all what  Jongin wants from GOD

 

 

“ Hyung , don’t cry “

 

Sobbing was the only answer he got , hiding his tears inside of his eyes , Jongin knew he couldn’t take it anymore , he can’t look at his Hyung ,  being this sad anymore , he would choose death over having to see that sight ..

 

 

“ Hyung don’t cry , I can’t … /sobbing/ I can’t look at you crying like this , it kills me ‘

 

“I ‘m so sorry ,Jongin ,  please ..“  

 

Both crying

 

“ will you be able to forgive me someday ? “

“What “re you saying hyung ? it  was never your fault , it ‘ll never be “

 

 

Scars deepening in his heart , Kyungsoo knew this , he knew it’ was neither of their faults ,  it was destiny . he was just feeling bad for his boyfriend , he wanted him happy , and  what made him feel even worse is  the fact that he knew that his boyfriend won’t be able of doing the thing that makes him the happiest , the thing he’s worked so hard and did it with all of his passion , and did his best in every single training he did …. The fact that Jongin won’t be able to achieve his dream as a professional dancer .