A/N:so here is chapter 19! I hope you like and comment and subscribe upvote and everything else!:) well enjoy:)                                                             ~*~                                 Kris pov   "What are you doing here?" Tao said as he got up to walk toward me stopping a good distance between us. "I guess I should ask you the same question." He rolled his eyes in annoyment. "You know I come out here at night..." "Well I do too so it looks like it a coincidence." "Yeah I'm sure it is because no way you would intentionally want to run into me right?" "Tao-." "Listen kris have you been looking for me?" He said crossing his arms tilting his head to the side. He was teasing me.  "No I haven't, what would make you think that." "Oh I don't know I guess those.. How many was it? About 50 texts now was it?" I looked at him in disbelief. This little prick had been ignoring me.   "So you have been getting my texts...you've just been ignoring me?" Tao started to turn around from me so I rushed over to him grabbing his wrist and pulling him to look at me. "Tao why are you ignoring me?" He continued to look at me but jerked his hand away from my grasp making my hand retract into fist from the loss of his hand.  "I told you not to text back. We would go back to how we were before we met eachother." "You really can just let go that easily." "Why not? It seems very clear that you already had given up that easily." "Things were just complicated for me at the time... I didn't know at the time what I wanted what I needed but now I do-" "You what?? You realized how much of an you were and that you love me now? You thinks that's going to make it better?!" "Tao-" I said stepping closer to him.  "Tao I know I messed up and I'm sorry I just needed time to think and now I have and I'm sorry I've tried to forget you but I can't I love you...." He stepped to me eyes darting to mine. "What did you just say?" "I said that I'm sorry and I love you.." the next thing that happened it happened so fast it was like it didn't even happen but the sting on my cheek followed by the after shock pain proved it indeed happened.  "What the was that for?" I said cupping my cheek with my hand. Tao just slaped me dead in the face and I was still shocked. I know he was mad and maybe I deserved that but still it hurt like a .  "Do you seriously think you can just come out here say your sorry I love you and then everything will be fine!" "But tao I really am really and truely sorry!" "SORRY WONT HELP THE SCAR YOU LEFT IN MY HEART!" I stared at Tao as tears were starting to form. I tried my best not to start crying. I needed to be strong for the both of us.  "Tao I never ment to hurt you-" "well you did and just saying sorry won't help." "Well then maybe this will." And pulling tao I kissed him hard and passionate. He didn't respond at the kiss until my hands rest on his lower back squeezing tightly showing that I wasn't letting him go and he relaxed into my embrace his hands naturally moving up to intertwine with my hair. As our lips moved perfectly together.  After a few moments of that breath taking kiss Tao broke away to look at me. "You really hurt me kris...I was ready to forget about you.." "You can't just wash away your memory of someone you Love that quick, which is why I decided to keep you in my memory." "Why?" "Because I love you to much to let you go again." He let out a sigh and moved away from my grasp.  "Stop kris please your just making things harder for me." "You told me that love never goes by the rules. I'm done going by the rules. For years I've thought only about the treaty about needing to stick to tradition. but you changed everything. You freakin turned my world upside down. I realized there is just no getting rid of you. There's just no me without you." "Kris I don't want to be with you anymore..." "What?" "When you told me that you couldn't love me and that we could never be together I accepted it in my heart. Even though it crushed my heart I accepted it because I thought that's what you wanted. I was hoping that you would realize my love for you but now that I feel this way...I don't think I can be with you." "But I realized my mistakes just give me one more chance to prove it to you." "I-I can't I just don't want to be hurt and with you now all I feel is pain." Each of Taos words were like stabbing a new stake into my heart each time.  "Tao just-" "NO KRIS! I can't anymore.!" "Stop acting this way it's not you tao I know you don't mean any of it!" "You don't know anything or you would of never broke my heart and stomped all over it!" "I never ment to! I never ment to hurt you ! I just didn't know how to show my love! But I do love you and I will show you I'm sincere!" Tao dropped his head and was now sobbing into his hands. I walked to him and wrapped my arms around him not caring if he wanted me to or not.  "Tao can't you give me a chance to make things right." "If I do that I'll just be hurt again and I don't need that."  I tilted his chin up so that he was looking at me. "You won't know until you give me another chance." "i- I don't know..." And with what see