the morning hyuna wakes up , she finds herself in laying a foggy place , she gets up and looks arround to see hongki sitting , he was so sad she tries to touch him but she can't she's like a ghost he didn't even notice her , she tries to call him but she can't she has no voice , she tries to scream and she woke up , ah it was a nightmare , she woke up all sweaty and shoked ,it was 2 am  she took a breath  she saw  the thing she was most afraid of , and she was scared it might happen in reality.

" what i'm doing ? i'm fooling him ,  he just knows the funny and alive hyuna but it's not who i am , i'm a bad person and my life is so sad and depressing , he wouldn't like the real me , i act like a different person with him i just forget it all and have fun , i don't want to force a laugh , i want someone who loves me for who i am , someone who knows my pain and what i'm going throught and still accepts it and comforts me , we don't just laugh , but cry together but i don't want to let go of hongki and i don't want to keep him because my guilt is taking over me , i have to tell him "

the next day hyuna met hongki after work , she was going back home and saw him , he headed toward her and greeted her  , she looked very serious

" what's with your expression " he asked " you don't look fine "

" hongki , you don't have to come everyday "

" what is it ? you're not happy i came "

" i didn't mean that , but why do you always come here ?"

" i have to , i'm your boyfirend ! "

" don't be sarcastic just answer "

" i wanted to see you but you're obviously not in a good mood , so i should just go "

" wait , you .. Do you like me ? " hyuna asked

" yes i do , in fact i like you a lot , and i'm trying to make you feel the same "

" what do you like about me ? "

hongki laughed then said " well i like you because you're so shiny and beautiful and you have a funny personality , you always laugh at my jokes and be patient with me even if i act like a kid "

" just because of this ? what if i'm not who you think ? if i turn out to be dark , you wouldn't like me ? "

he was confused " what's wrong with you ? did something happen ? "

" Hongki , i'm sick " she barely said it

" you're sick again ? what do you have a fever ? a flu? " he touched her face

" No , i'm sick on the inside and i feel so bad  " she was nervous and couldn't say more

" what do you mean ? you're sad about something ? "

she reamined silent , she felt that she'll choke if she says another word

" oh , i understand , you mean that your heart is sick , you're damaged from something that has happened ? hyuna you can trust me and tell me all of your problems "

she shook her head , she was about to cry

" you want to tell me but you can't , because it's too difficult ? " he asked

she was surprised , it feels as if he really reads her mind

he added " you know what i do when i feel like this ? i run .. and scream alone , then i feel much better you should try it " he held her hand and took her to his favorite place , it has a road, a long road to the top of a hill , he looked at hyuna and said " ready , we'll run to the top over there , you'll feel much better when you reach it "

she wasn't  sure about the idea , because she's not a sports fan , but he managed to convince her , they started running , and racing against each other , when she gets tired he holds her and doesn't let her quit , so they reached the top , the view was amazing , hyuna was so excited , she yelled and let go of her anger  she really felt better but she was exhausted , she told him that she has no power to walk " you're the one who pushed me to come here , so figure out a way to take me back ! " she said

hongki without thinking lifted her on his back , she held him tight , he could hear her breathing in his ear ,

he talked to her but she didn't answer , he panicked and put her down , she has collapsed