Chapter 31: Begging

Christmas and New Year has been fun and busy for me. I had a chance to meet up with my relatives, old friends. My brothers are so busy lately, so I didn't bother them because of their busy schedule. Even on New year's Eve they're working in China for NYE celebration concert. While they're on overseas schedule, I was with my family, spending time with them while still working on my older sister's wedding.

Lately, I haven't talked to Andrei until now. I'm so worried that something bad might happen to him. I kept calling to his phone, but he is not answering. Ever since he told me that he had a client from Japan and he was touring his client in the city. I was not thinking of anything at that moment. I mean, business is business. But something has been bothering me. I don't know why... I don't what to think that he is cheating on me. I should be scared of what I did before Christmas...

No.. I shouldn't be thinking that again.

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"Ms.Heebyul, Its nice to cover us for tonight. Our guest DJ suddenly had an emergency. Good thing you had visited us." the assistant coordinator of Sukira

"It was a pleasure. I missed doing this and its been years since my last visit here in the studio."

Just paying a visit with my highschool friend, Soojong. She's currently working here at KBS studio and unexpectedly I ran into my favorite PDnim, who is the producer of Kiss the Radio or Sukira. They're in need of DJ temporarily for this they and luckly I got it again. If I were'nt working overseas, I would be a DJ. I think im good at it. 

I was waiting for a cab and I saw Kyuhyun walking towards me. Don't know what to do so I walked into different direction to avoid him. But man he was so fast he grabbed my arm. 

"WHAT'S YOUR PROBLEM?" I said.

"WHY ARE YOU AVOIDING ME?"

 "We're catching attention."  Without saying anything he dragged me near at the bench.

"You just gonna run away from me? I know that you're confused and I am too.. No.. I mean what I did to you.. That night.. the ki-"

"Did we just talked about this in California? I thought everything was clear?"

"I tried.. I tried to get away from this feelings. I just can't." He hugged me tightly. I couldn't breathe so I push him

"STOP IT OKAY?!" 

"TELL ME, WHAT'S SO GOOD ABOUT HIM?!" 

"what the hell are you talking about!" 

"Heebyul, can't you see? Im in love you!" he said that made me speechless even though I heard it years ago.

"just please... Just love me again." he said. 

"w-what do you mean?"

"just love me the way you loved me before..." he paused.

"How can you be so sure that I loved you before?" I answered.

"I felt it. I knew that you still love me..." I looked on to his eyes. He was crying. He was begging me to love him back...but I can't... I just can't

"J-just..." he tried to say something but-. "could you just...." 

"what?" 

"Could you just break up with him?" 

"What?" 

"BREAK UP WITH HIM! PLEASE..p-please.." He was holding my hands looking at me

"Ky-kyuhyun"

"Please.." His head was now leaning on my shoulders

"I..I c-can't" I told him an