KYUHYUN   Another week had past and Super Junior-M’s promotions at Taiwan have officially ended. Just a few more days and we’ll all be back to Seoul. Well, except for Siwon hyung and Donghae hyung, who are still busy filming their drama. They will finish after a month, I think, just in time before we start promoting our 5jib. It’s been a year now since we did our last promotions for our 4jib, Miinah.   Right now, we’re also wrapping up our 3rd Super Show Asia Tour, with Vietnam being our last stop. There’s only 3 hours left before the concert starts, and we just finished with the rehearsals. With the tour going on for many months now, I’ve already gotten used to the flow of the show. Since we have a different venue now, and though they have transformed the stadium to the usual Super Show designed stage, we still had to get a feel of the new place, as our stage director had put it.   We were all crowded at the dressing room, taking some rest and chilling out before the show starts. Leeteuk hyung and Heechul hyung were seated on a couch in one corner, having their usual exclusive 83-line talk. Oldies. Nyahaha! Henry was busy stacking up those cards and cans on the table while Donghae hyung, Shindong hyung and Eunhyuk hyung were intently watching him. I don’t know what they’re going to build, but mind you, playing computer games are way better than that. Zhou Mi, Ryeowook-sshi and Yesung hyung were busy nibbling on some chips in one corner.   Meanwhile, I’m seated all by myself in one corner, with one earphone plugged on my right ear as I listened to my song again and again. Actually, I’ve already mastered “Temporarily I Lived By Your Side” since I’ve been singing it at the beginning of the tour and I just have this ritual of listening to my song again and again before going on stage.   From the corner of my eye, I noticed Zee and Siwon hyung entering the room, from the corner of my eye, chattering about something. I didn’t mind them though as I was busy immersing myself to the song.   I closed my eyes to get a better feel of the song until I heard Zee’s cheerful voice saying, “Heechul-ah! I was just telling Siwon Oppa about the date Angela and Jonghyun had the other night.”   I saw Siwon hyung nearly missed sitting on his chair when my head snapped towards their direction but I instantly jerked it away and stared right back at the white wall infront of me. I hope no one noticed.   “Oh yeah! Which one was it again? The one where he took her to Lotte World or was it Namsan Tower?” Heechul hyung replied casually.   My earplug remained on my ear and I pretended to be still be humming along, though my song just actually stopped playing on my iTouch.   I played the song again and tried to focus but I couldn’t even bring myself to hum again. I literally feel the song entering from one ear and immediately going out of the other. All I could hear were their voices but I tried not to mind them and remained unmoved on my post.   “I’m sure it was the time he took her to the ice skating rink, wasn’t it?” I heard Leeteuk hyung pipe in.   My grip on my iTouch was involuntarily tightening and I could the beat of my heart quickening its pace. What on effing earth is happening to me?!   “It’s all of the above!” Yesung hyung exclaimed.   “Angela just always had a smiling face on every time she got back.” Zee said while getting some stray hairs off her face.   “Looks like Jonghyun is pretty close in getting the girl.” Heechul hyung added with a snicker.   I just feel like my gut had been kicked. There’s that sinking feeling inside again that I don’t understand.   “Well, I guess being nice has its perks.” I heard Eunhyuk hyung say.   “See, Kyuhyun-ah?” I jerked my head towards their direction at the sound of Donghae hyung’s voice. “If you just treated Angela nicely, the way Jonghyun does, then you could have gotten her.” He added as he threw a towel at me, which I easily caught.   “Psh! He can have her, if he wants.” I spat out as I yanked the earphone out of my ear and threw the iTouch on top of my bag. “What’s he doing skipping his schedules just to date, anyway. He’s getting irresponsible because of a girl, if you ask me.”   “Well, you know what they say, hyung. If the heart really wants it, the heart will definitely find a way. ” Henry said with a satisfied smile as soon as he finished placing a can on top of whatever crap they were trying to build.   There goes the chipmunk with his hopeless romantic lines again.   “Oh shut up!” It was all I said as I threw the towel on top of Henry’s head out of annoyance, and its light breeze caused their crap tower to disintegrate right away.   “KYUHYUN!!” They all shouted at me but psh! Like I care.   I stormed out of the room and slammed the door shut. Meh, I’ll deal with them later.   I was walking along the hall, passing by all the busy staff and crew. JungHoon hyung, one of our managers, saw me and asked where I was going. I told him I was looking for another washroom because another member was taking so long in using the one in the dressing room.   He directed me to another vacant washroom and told me to come back right away. I locked myself in there for a couple of minutes and washed my face. After which, I stared back at my reflection on the mirror.   Lotte World, Namsan Tower, and ice skating rink, eh?   My grip on the sink was tightening. I don’t understand! ARGH!! I mean, so what if Angela wants to date Jonghyun? It’s her life. She’s just a girl I’m helping out anyway, with no other commitments apart from the agreement we have settled a month ago, and clearly, that did not involve any form of emotional attachment. Why am I even acting this way? Why do I feel like ripping someone apart?   “Kyuhyun-ah, what’s happening to you?” I muttered softly to myself.   The Next Day 10PM Incehon Airport     Our 3rd Asia Tour has officially wrapped up and we have made our touchdown at the Incheon airport. Our flight wasn’t until after dinner time that’s why we only got back now. Last night’s show was a total blast, if you’d ask me. Apart from the success of the tour, part of the blast was the stint that Heechul hyung decided to pull off last night, which not only surprised the fans but as well all of us backstage. Apparently, he nearly exposed the truth about his relationship status!   During his solo stage, he went towards Zee, who was pretty well-known to the fans just as the mysterious violinist because of the mask she always wears whenever she’s performing onstage, and actually tried to kiss her infront of the thousands of ELF watching. Knowing how Zee hated being in the limelight, she wasn’t totally pleased with hyung’s surprise act. They actually had a brawl once they reached backstage. Zee yelled at Heechul hyung, and knowing hyung’s personality, he wasn’t pleased either. They discussed things over in one of the waiting rooms and we seriously thought hell was going to break loose, until we heard them making sweet talks. Yes, we were listening by the door and with Heechul hyung’s sharp instincts, he knew about it but he didn’t go after us for doing so. Kekeke.   Even if things were already okay between hyung and Zee, it wouldn’t stop articles about last night’s incident popping out from here and there. I bet thousands of fan accounts from the concert have already spread like wildfire since last night as well. It was good that Zee’s identity is still hidden from the public, and to avoid adding more fuel to the controversy and suspicions, Zee got off the plane ahead of us though I think she and hyung will meet again in the van, which will directly bring us back to our respective dorms.   “Aish! You just got back! Can’t that wait until tomorrow?” I heard Heechul hyung say in an irritable yet at the same time, concerned manner the moment I boarded the van.   “Well, what do you expect? I’ve been gone for days, Heechul-ah. I have to check how it’s doing. I may be going on tour with you guys but this family business is also my priority. And tomorrow’s a Monday, which means it’s my day off. So I’m not really “overworking” myself, as you had put it.” Zee said making air quotations in the air.   “Aish! Fine! But I’m coming with you.” Heechul hyung said with finality in his tone. “And I’ve got myself well-disguised.” He added right away when he noticed Zee was about to protest when she groaned.   “Fine.” Zee finally agreed as she lied back on her seat and heaved a deep sigh. “Oh yea, Kyuhyun, don’t you have any plans to pick Angela up tonight?”   “No.” I replied flatly as I placed a neck pillow on me.   “Ah, still bitter I see.” Eunhyuk hyung muttered softly, accompanied by a light chuckle, which was shortly joined by the others.   “Ya!” I scowled at them. “Ever thought she might be sleeping already?”   Or might be out on a date with Jonghyun. I was tempted to add but that for sure will cause a stir.   “She can go back by herself tomorrow morning.” I added as I comfortably laid back and closed my eyes, so they’d stop talking about it.   Normally, I could just die trying in making them stop but since we were all tired, well, that wasn’t so hard was it? Kekeke.   We first dropped Zee and Heechul hyung down at the pet hotel since we passed by it first. The next stop was at the dorm. So everyone else went down, leaving me, Ryeowook-ssi and Zhou Mi on board. The trip to my apartment didn’t really take long since it was just a 20-minute drive from the members’ dorm.   “Aigoo! Zee left her cellphone and music sheet folder!”  Ryeowook-sshi exclaimed as soon as he got inside.   “Why didn’t you give it to Manager hyung so he could’ve dropped it back at the other dorm?” Zhou Mi asked as he sat plopped down the sofa.   “Eh, it kind of slipped my mind. And well, maybe it would be better if we’re the ones to hand it back to her personally. Plus these things are pretty essential for her. I think she needs to have it back right away.” Ryeowook-ssi explained.   “But it’s pretty late already and we’re all beaten up from exhaustion. Can’t it wait until tomorrow?” Zhou Mi asked while yawning. “Unless one of us would be willing to drive all the way back there, and actually, no, don’t count me in. So that’s just one of you two.”   Ryeowook-ssi and I both looked at one another, waiting for one another to get the bait. And for some reasons…   “Fine. I’ll do it.” I said casually and placed my luggage beside the staircase.   “Jinja?” Ryeowook-ssi and the now awaken Zhou Mi asked brightly.   “Only if you carry my luggage for me back up in my room.”   “Deal!” Ryeowook-ssi exclaimed as he handed me over Zee’s stuff.   “Zee’s lucky she’s my best friend.” I muttered under my breath as I walked out the door.   And I don’t know if it’s just me but right before the door closed behind me, I thought I heard Ryeowook-ssi and Zhou Mi high fiving one another. Tsh. How typical of them!     In less than 20 minutes, I finally arrived at our dorm. Well, I can still say ‘our’ since technically, I still live there. I just moved out temporarily, remember? Oh how I miss this place! I miss being around my hyungs, but somehow, I couldn’t help but be reminded of that painful night yet again. I guess I can never forget but to be honest, my chest doesn’t seem to feel that suffocating, stinging pain anymore at the sudden memory.   Well, the pain hasn’t really completely gone away yet but…I’m confident enough to say that it’s not as bad as before anymore.   I just couldn’t help but think of Victoria though. None of us have heard from her ever since she left, not even the f(x) members. There hasn’t been much news about Nichkhun as well. I guess they’re really making all those wedding preparation details as private as possible…Or maybe they already got married in secret.   Ouch.   I suddenly heard the elevator rang and when I looked up at the sign, I realized I’m already at Zee’s floor, the 10th floor.    Well, that was fast! I walked towards Zee’s door and punched in the code I used to know. Yea, there’s no such thing as knocking or ringing the doorbell here. Why use them when you know what the code is? Kekeke.   I heard two consecutive beeps, signalling that the code I had inputted was correct. Looks like she still hasn’t changed the code since we left for Taiwan. And I thought she changes her code everyday. Oh well.   I entered the place, my head peeking first, checking to see if Zee was already around but I guess not since the place looks deserted. Only the lamp shade was , so it’s quite dim-lighted.  I don’t see any signs of EunHee and Kim Shin, not even that bratty princess. I won’t be surprised if she’s out on another date with Jonghyun. I wonder where he took her this time…   I ignored the uneasy feelings at the pit of my stomach as I roamed around the place. I stopped by infront of the guest room’s door. I suppose this is where Angela must be sleeping.   Maybe she’s not out with Jonghyun, after all. She’s probably just asleep already. I heard my inner voice saying. Why the hell am I thinking of such thing?!   I tried to shake my head but my hands had already found its way on the doorknob, ready to twist it around while I’m still having an intense mental debate.   Why am I feeling nervous to see if she’s really there or not? Why am I having that sinking feeling again at thought of not seeing her there?   ARGH! I might as well just get this over with. I really am curious about how that brat is doing anyway.   Before I could change my decision again in a span of seconds, I opened the door slowly so as to avoid making any sounds or shocking the hell out of Angela, knowing how jumpy she can be at times. Ignoring the loud thudding sound inside my chest, I took a peek on the small opening, only to find the bed neatly made-up and empty.   Well, there’s my answer.   My hands suddenly felt cold and my insides uneasy yet again. I closed the door. I went to coffee table and left Zee’s stuff on top of it. When I looked down to my feet, I almost jumped in surprise when I saw Zee’s dog, Hyung, lying under the table. His bored eyes were just staring at me for a few seconds and then I heard him huff before he left his spot.   He’s always like that to me, well except for the first few times that we met. He would always growl at me, especially when I came here in secret to play my games. We managed to get along eventually though. And by getting along, I meant not minding one another’s businesses. He ignores me with a huff, and I’m happy playing my games. He didn’t even attack me or whatsoever. I guess he sensed that I’m a very good friend of his master. Kekeke.   I was getting thirsty so I thought I’d get some water at the kitchen. I was just about to open the refrigerator when I suddenly heard a loud female squeal.   I’m not really sure where it came from. For a second, I thought it was from here but then I remembered that no one else was in here, apart from me.   My eyes widened in sudden realization. Me. All alone. Loud female squeal. I felt all of the hairs on my arms stand in horror.   “AHHH!” There’s the squeal again!   Without having any second thoughts, I hurriedly rushed out of the kitchen and walked as briskly as I could. I kept my head down, afraid that I might see something I didn’t want to see. I just kept walking and walking until I felt something bump on me really hard that we both fell down. I thought I crashed onto a lamp post or some furniture until I heard a scream coming from beneath me. My eyes widened yet again in surprise. Apparently, it’s that same scream I’ve been hearing from earlier, only this time it was clearer and more audible. It came from none other than Angela, who was dripping wet as and just wrapped in a short piece of towel.   So she’s been here all along after all! But wait, what on earth happened to her? Why was she running around with just a towel?   She had her eyes squeezed shut and when she opened it, I could say that her eyes were as wide as mine. By the looks of her face, I could tell that she wanted to scream at the sight of me.   “Kyuhyun?!” It was all she said in between her heavy breathing. Her eyebrows furrowed though as if she also wanted to ask me what I was doing there, specifically on top of her.   I was just about to speak when we heard the door open, revealing Zee and Heechul hyung’s figures. They suddenly stopped on their tracks once they caught sight of us. Their jaws dropped as soon as the door beh