Yunho lost jaejoong grip from his body.   “what are you doing..you have no pride!”   “this is not her fault, may be i’m not the right one for her..   “you’re crazy”   “may be”   Jaejoong lowered his head,he want to hide his tears from yunho,he feel so ashamed to himself, he is a man with no pride, yunho was right, he couldn’t do anything, his relationship has to end this way,suddenly he remember he was kiss yunho before, he look at yunho.   yunho touch his lips,he still could felt jaejoong lips on his.   “i’m sorry....”   yunho startled, he look to his car to avoid jaejoong eyes,he feel so angry and shy.   “sorry for WHAT?”   “for kissing you”   “ahahaha....i didn’t understand you.."
"don't try...you'll never understand me"   "you just broke up with your girls and then already play with my feeling"
"play what?"
"why you always play with me...you think i’m your toy?”
“i’m sorry..really...”
“don’t play with my feeling anymore”
“that’s just a kiss for god sake yunho”   “for you may be,that’s just a kiss...but for me..........”   ‘that’s mean everything...’   “what?”   “you stole my first kiss....”   “that’s your first kiss??..hahahaha”   Even he’s sad, but yunho innocent statement made him really want to laugh, how could this is his first kiss,he look at yunho,but yunho seems serious with his statement, he stop his laugh,he’s scared with yunho serious face.   “that’s not funny...and i HATE you because you did that to me...i’m a human...and i’m not your tester place....you can do anything to me...just don’t play with my feeling”   Yunho couldn’t said clearly what he mean. He was wait for this kiss like whole his life, but jaejoong just kiss him easily and asked his assumtion like this is nothing,beside that jaejoong just let his girlfriend cheat on him like he’s not value enough to has that girl, for him jaejoong is everything.jaejoong like a treasure, but now, jaejoong was positioned himself like a trash in front of that girl, just by doing that thing It was make yunho heart bleeding.why everything look so easy in his eyes,he can’t hold it anymore.   “feeling? What did you mean?”   “just...ah.................you won’t understand....a blind like you couldn’t understand about it”   Yunho leave him alone, he enter his car and drive right away, the jealous feeling and angry from he’s don’t know why, burnin’ him inside.he has to calm himself first.   “yunho-ah....i’m sorry!”   ‘what was i done..why everything become like this....just in second’   He chasing yunho car, but yunho seems really mad at him,he confused, what was happend, he just arrived and he was got this kind of welcome party, he step his feet slowly back to the club,he know jessica was left.he drink many glass of beer, he don’t know how much he was drunk it.   “umma!!!”   He knocked his door half concious, he didn’t knew how he was arrived at his home.he just hear the taxi sound before.    “umma!”   He knocked his door again.the door open slowly.   “omo!..jaejoong-ah”   His mother help him to stand rightly and lead him in the house.   “what’s wrong baby..are you drunk?”   Jaejoong sit on the couch. He feel so dizzy, his mother open his shoes and unbottom his t-shirt.   “where is yunho? He said he will pick you”   Jaejoong couldn’t speak, he feel something weird on his stomach, and then the feeling trailed to his throat, he push his mother hand from his forehead and run to the bathroom.he’s vomit.the beer he was drunk before come out from his mouth, his mother following him.   Mrs.kim patted jaejoong back softly.   “what’s wrong baby?”   Jaejoong mother rubbed his back gentely,jaejoong just puke,when he feel he don’t have anything left to let it out from his mouth he facing his mother.he sit in front the bathroom,jaejoong mother leave him,she walk to the kitchen and bring one glass mineral water to jaejoong, jaejoong take it and drink it,the tears rolling down from his cheek.mrs.kim take a sit beside her son.she caress jaejoong back again.jaejoong didn’t speak anything,he look at his mother worried face,he hug his mother and cry in her embrace.   “it’s ok...”   “why everyone hate me..”   Jaejoong start to blurt out.   “no...umma never hate you”   “why everyone left me?.(sob)..yunho leave me, jessica leave me,appa leave us..(sob)”   He feel so weak and hurt,his heart is chilled.he snuggle on his mother chest.   “am i a bad person..? (sob)..a bad friend? A bad boyfriend? A bad child?why appa have to leave us?”   “you’re not jaejoongie...don’t said those words again”   Mrs.kim shed a tears too.when she look at his fragile son, her heart ache suddenly.   they never discuss about jaejoong father leave thing, they found the answer by themselves, they found the reason by themselves,hard to believe, hard to handle,this family was being like this, no more future between his parents,just when they talk about it, the broken part of his heart about this weird family make his soul hurt.   “yes i’m umma..appa’s leave because of me, he hate me, that’s why he want to have another child, the perfect one,i’m just a failure”   The thing what was happend this night bring jaejoong back to his childhood time, when his father leave him, the wound from his past open again, eventhough he was tried to forgive, he was tried to live in this kind of family,but deep in his heart he’s still have a hope to have a perfect family, have a father and mother.   “no....!hussshh.....that’s wrong...umma have to be blame about all of this....(sob)...this’s umma fault”   “umma....please don’t cry..”   His mother shaking body made Jaejoong lifted up his head to facing his mother, he look at his mother red eyes, he feel so guilty, why he’s become so childish,he wipe his mother tears with his sleeve.   “you too....(sob)...don’t cry...if you sad i’ll be sad...if you cry ..i’ll crying more than you..”   Mrs.kim forced a smile,she cupped jaejoong face and caress his cheek,jaejoong noded and smile too.jaejoong help his mother to stand.   “umma ...biyannae”   Jaejoong mother help jaejoong to come to his bedroom.   “you have to rest jae...”   Mrs.kim put the blanket on jaejoong body,she caress jaejoong hair.   “umma..”   “shhhhtt....rest...... sleep..”   Jaejoong closed his eyes.he feel so dizzy and his body so heavy ,his throat also sore, but he’s too weak to said anything to his mother,his mothers caress on his hair send him to his slumber.   ++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++