I Already Told You I'm Okay.

Alone?

Dongwoo woke frightened again form another frightening dream. It was the same as last time and the sight of blood was every were. Dongwoo woke up again feeling sick to his stomach and was sweating like crazy. He was also shacking and his body felt paralyzed as his heart felt as though it was beating out of control. He went down stairs to the kitchen and got a glass of water and drank it refreshingly.

He heard the light sound of foot steps and turned to see who it was and was surprised to see Woohyun walking into the slightly lit kitchen. They hadn't had the chance to talk yet so the atmosphere was strange.

"Oh, Dongwoo I didn't know you were up. I thought you wasn't going to see Hoya until later on." Woohyun said as he walked over to the fridge and took out a bottle of water.

"I couldn't sleep and I thought that some water would help." Dongwoo said with a shaky voice as he move closer to the door. He was still shaken form the nightmare that he just had and didn't feel like talking. He just wanted to go back to his room and take a nice long shower.

"Dongwoo are you okay?" Woohyun asked with his voice full of concern. Dongwoo sounded weird and he was sure he could see him shaking.

"I'm fine I'm just tired. All I need to do is sleep and I'm sure I would be fine." Dongwoo said trying to make his voice sound as normal as possible, but failed.

"Are you sure that's all it is. You kind of look pale and your voice is shaking." Woohyun asked feather. He was sure something was wrong.

"I said that I am fine. I'm okay. So just leave me alone, please." Dongwoo shouted. He didn't mean to but it just came out like that.

"Fine. But I'm only worried about you Dongwoo. If you need to talk I'm always here with open ears ready to listen to what ever you have to say. I've know you for what seems like my whole life so I'm only worried." Woohyun said as he moved closed to Dongwoo who now had his back to him. Something was definitely wrong. Dongwoo wasn't the type to shout or raise his voice.

Now that he was closer to Dongwoo he could see it more clearly and he was right. Dongwoo was shaking and it looked as thought he was sweating.

"Woohyun help me." Dongwoo said as his legs finally caved in and he started to fall but Woohyun was there just in time to stop him from falling.

"Of course." Woohyun said as he held Dongwoo in his arms wiping away the tears that fell from his eyes as he rubbed the side of Dongwoo arm in hopes of comforting the boy that was now shaking in fear.  

 

Hoya woke up with worry. Something was wrong he could feel it. He didn't know what it was but it made him restless. He started to breath faster and he could fell his heart beating out of control the only thing that he could think about was Dongwoo. He needed to see him to make sure everything was okay so he could put his worries to rest.

He looked at the time and after seeing that it was only four in the morning he started to feel frustrated. He had no choice but to try and go back to sleep hoping that the time would go by quickly and he would see a smiling Dongwoo by his side again.

 

Woohyun sat there on the floor of the kitchen with a scared Dongwoo in his arms. Dongwoo rested and buried his face in to Woohyun's chest as he continued to shake and cry.

"Shh, everything is going to be alright. I'm here Dongwoo." Woohyun said rubbing his back tying to calm him down. And it seemed to work because the next thing he knew, Dongwoo had stopped shaking and a light snore could be heard coming from Dongwoo.

Woohyun managed to pick Dongwoo up and carry him to his room placing him onto the bed. He was about to turn and leave when Dongwoo hand tightened his grip. Woohyun gave in quickly and sat on the chair at the side of Dongwoo's bed and watched as the older slept. Worry was still present in his heart as he watched Dongwoo tossed and turn.

"Dongwoo, what on earth is wrong with you?" Woohyun whispered as he leaned on to the side of Dongwoo's bed hoping to get some sleep. He need to be at school in a few hours and he was tiered.

Dongwoo woke up again the second time that morning this time he didn't shake but fear was still present in his heart. He saw Woohyun at the side of his bed and remembered what happened a few hours ago. With a sigh he got out of the bed and started to head to the bathroom he was in dire need of a nice long shower. As he walked to the bathroom a voice stopped him.

"Your awake? Are you okay?" Woohyun asked with a sleepy voice already knowing that Dongwoo was not okay. In fact he was far from it. Dongwoo needed help and Woohyun knew that he was not the person that could give him the help he needed. 

"I'll be fine after an nice refreshing shower. I think that it would be best if you start getting ready for school." Dongwoo said as he stood in the middle of the room.

"Okay. If you are sure. We can always talk later. And we are going to talk." Woohyun said as he slowly got up and headed to the door.

"Woohyun, t-thanks for earlier. I really mean it thank you." Dongwoo thanked before quickly walking into the bathroom, quickly shutting the door behind him. Woohyun just smiled a little and walked out of the room and toward his and Sungkyu's shared room.

Woohyun walked it to the room and saw that Sungkyu was already up getting ready for school. So he followed suit and headed to the bathroom to brush his teeth and to have a shower. After getting ready he sat on his a Sungkyu's shared bed with his head rested in his hands with a sigh. 

"Woohyunie, what's wrong? And where were you this morning. Do you know how scary it is to wake up and not have my woo teddy bear next to me." Sungkyu said pouting as he sat next to Woohyun.

"I think Dongwoo needs to see a doctor." Woohyun said as he turned to Sungkyu with worry over his face. Smiling in side at the sound of the nicknames that Sungkyu had called him.

"Why what's wrong with him is he okay?" Sungkyu said with worry.

"I don't think he is. I'm not completely sure what it is but I know that he needs to talk to some one. Maybe I'm just over reacting but I need to make sure that he is okay." Woohyun said with worry in his voice Sungkyu could tell Woohyun was worried just by the sound of his voice.

"Let's go down stairs and get some thing to eat. There is not use trying to think on an empty stomach." Sungkyu said as he grabbed hold of Woohyun's hand and lead him out of the room and down stair to the dinning room where Dongwoo was sat.

"Morning you two. What took you so long to get down here. I almost got tempted to eat you food." Dongwoo said with a smile on his face. It almost seemed like he was his own old self again.

"Good morning Dongwoo are you feeling alright?" Sungkyu asked as he move to sit down at the table.

"Yes, why do you ask?" Dongwoo questioned.

"Oh it's nothing. So where are you heading so eerily in the morning. You are not wearing you uniform so I know that you're not going to school." Sungkyu questioned.

"I have to go some where and do something before I go and see Hoya and the place that I need to be is close by the school. So I thought to catch a ride with you guys since we are going in the same direction." Dongwoo said with a smile on his face.

They ate breakfast and left. The car journey was silent and Woohyun started to worry. Dongwoo was different and he didn't like it. They reached the school and Woohyun and Sungkyu got out and headed in to the school as Dongwoo went on his way.

The place that he needed to go wasn't that far away and he was there in no time. The car pulled up to a house. The house look normal with nothing out of the ordinary standing out.

Dongwoo felt nervous. He was finally going to meet Hoya's mum or dad for the first time. It made him nervous just thinking about it.

He got out of the car and made his way towards the house and rang the bell his heart beat increasing with ever second he stood there.

The door opened and a lady with long black hair stood at the door. She had light make up on and wore a smile that could be told that it was fake.

"Good morning, I am sorry to bother you but I was just wondering if I could get some of Hoya's clothes. He is going to be released from hospital this afternoon and I thought that I should get him something to wear." Dongwoo said as he watch Hoya's mum's smile drop and the mention of his name.

"So you came here and disturbed me just for that? His room is the last room at the end of the hall. Take what you want, but make it quick I do have things to do." She said with a emotionless face as she move opening the door wider allowing Dongwoo to enter.

"I'll try not to take long. Thank you for you time." Dongwoo said bowing before entering the house.

He took his shoes off then climbed up the stair and walked down the hall towards Hoya's room. Most of the hall was bright. But Dongwoo found that as he got further down the hall to Hoya's room darkness took over and it creeper him out a little bit. He entered the room and allowed his eyes to wonder around the room taking in his surrounding. The room was dark due to the curtains that was blocking out the light. Stopping the sun light from freely flow thought the window and in to the room.

Using the little light that he had he made his way over to the window and draw the curtains finally allowing the light to make it's way thought into the room.  

 Now Dongwoo could get a better look at the room. The room a was painted a dark blue which gave the room a dark feel to it. There was a double bed that was bedded with purple bedding. There was a desk that had a computer and a desk lamp on top of it. There was also something that court Dongwoo's eye. On the desk sat a music box. It had flowers over it. Dongwoo didn't know why but it took his attention. But it did.

Brining his focuses back to what he came there for, he picked up one of Hoya's bag that was empty. He went into the closet and took out two sets of clothes and some other things that he thought that Hoya would need. Once he was done he headed out of the room looking back at the room one last time. Before heading down the stairs. He made his way to the what he thought was the living room following the sound of the tv. He knocked on the door and entered upon promotion.   

"Thanks again for letting me get Hoya's stuff. I'll be leaving now." Dongwoo said bowing. He wanted to inform her that Hoya would be stay at his house for the night but for some reason he was scared of mentioning it.

"If you are done then go." She said with annoyance in her voice as Dongwoo interrupted her program once again. Dongwoo bowed one last time before leaving the house and making his way back to the car which then made it's way to the hospital. He was dying to see Hoya.

 

Hoya woke up yet again to the brightness of the hospital. Yet again he felt irritated by the light. He quickly sat up hopping that Dongwoo was there by his side. But a deep frown quickly made it's way onto his face when there was no sight of Dongwoo. He wished he was there by his side. But there was nothing but emptiness.

He sighed as he remembered Dongwoo mentioning that he had something to do so he wouldn't be there in the morning. He couldn't help but wonder what Dongwoo could be doing. He hoped that it wouldn't take long and that he would be there back by his side soon.

He didn't know what this feeling was but he just knew that he wanted Dongwoo by his side. His mind began to wonder how things would be with out Dongwoo. He thought about if he would still be there breathing in the earth's air as he is doing now. And it hit him just how much his life had changed since Dongwoo has been by his side. How Dongwoo had given up everything just to stay there by his side. He wasn't sure if he could call it fate or luck. But he didn't want it to end. He didn't want Dongwoo to leave him. He kind of felt selfish how Dongwoo had done so much for him yet he hadn't done any thing for Dongwoo. He just caused him nothing but trouble. Dongwoo had shared his past with him yet he couldn't even bring himself to show Dongwoo his smile.

He lay back in his bed wondering what he could do to past the time when he heard a knock at the door causing him to sit forward in his bed at the hope of Dongwoo to be the one that would walk trough the door. But he was disappointed when Sungjong was the one to walk through the door.

"Morning." He smiled as he walked through the door with a bag in his hand.

"M-Morning." Hoya said taking a breath before answering. Sungjong was surprised and his smile became bigger then it already was.

"I don't suppose that you have eaten yet. So I bought you something to eat. Well actually. Dongwoo told me that he had something to do, and had asked me to bring you some rice porridge. He said that you are to eat everything." Sungjong said as he took out the container and put some into a bowl giving it to Hoya.

"You were hoping that it would have been Dongwoo to walk through the door. Weren't you?" Sungjong questioned as he watched Hoya eat. Hoya didn't say anything and kept eating his food.

"You don't have to answer but you know I am worried about him. He is the type of person who puts others first. He is the type of person who doesn't want to burden others with his problems so he keeps it to himself. I know that Dongwoo has a past that he hasn't told any. The only person I know who knows his past is Woohyun. An I think that that's because he has been by Dongwoo side the longest. He has probably been there to wittiness it. To tell you the truth I don't really know what their relationship is. I would have said that they were brothers but they have different family names. So I'm sure that they are not. 

I have a feeling that some time in the near future Dongwoo is going to need some one and that person will be you. You mean a lot to Dongwoo. But I know that if there is anything bothering him he would not go you because of the fear of burdening you. You just need to let him know that it's okay for him to rely on you." Sungjong said as he thought about Dongwoo. Although Dongwoo hid it so well. In the few day Sungjong noticed that there was something wrong.

Hoya started to worry about Dongwoo. If someone that knew Dongwoo for longer then he did is worried about him the he should definitely be worried about him. He also wondered about Woohyun too. He didn't know Woohyun that well but the closeness that Woohyun had with Dongwoo made him feel anxious. Thinking about it made Hoya feel discomfort.

"Sungjong, h-how did you and Dongwoo meet." Hoya asked he was curious to know more about Sungjong's and Dongwoo's relationship.

"Well, we meet when I was in middle school. It was around the time my grandma past away. I love my grandma a lot, she was like the world to me. She was there for me as long as I can remember. My parents were always busy with the company that they own so my grandma acted like a mother to me. So when she passed away when I was young it upset me. You could say that I went out of control. My parents still cared about their company more them me. After school I would always hang around not wanting to go home.

One day after school I diced to stay in the park until dark. I sat on the swing and looked up at the lonely sky. I felt alone in the world with out my grandma there was no one at home to worry where I was. I wasn't even sure if my parents even noticed if I was even there or not. As I sat on the swing tears stated to fall but I didn't care. But then I hear a voice and looked up to see Dongwoo standing there with a smile on his face. He offered my a lemon candy and told me to smile.Woohyun was there at the time too.

I remember him telling Dongwoo that they had to be home. And that his mum and dad would get angry if they were late home. But he didn't care and offered to walk me home. He noticed from my uniform that we went to the same school. And said that he would come to my house in the morning and that we could go to school together the three of us.

I remember think that he wouldn't show, but there he was. Standing there with a smile on his face. And ever since then we went to school together and I would go around their house after school. We have been friends ever since. But I feel that it's more then that like were brothers maybe." Sungjong explain to Hoya. And Hoya's heart warmed. Dongwoo was just amazing. He really was an angel.

"Let's be friends." Hoya said with a nod.

"Yes, I would like that." Sungjong said with a smile on his face. Hoya had changed a lot form when he first came out of the coma. He liked this change, it gave him the hope that he needed to see that Dongwoo could shine again. He also approved any sort of relationship that Hoya and Dongwoo was slowly developing. He thought of Dongwoo as family so he wanted only the best for Dongwoo and Sungjong approved of Hoya. As long as he didn't hurt Dongwoo. Which he couldn't imagine Hoya doing.

 

Dongwoo finally reached the hospital and was glade to be seeing it for the last time. He walked through the hall for what he hoped to be the second to late time as he made his way to Hoya's room that would be soon empty.

He walked in to the room and was pleasantly surprised with what he saw and it made him smile. He watched as Hoya freely talked to Sungjong as thought his muteness didn't exist.

"Dongwoo you're here." Sungjong said smiling at Dongwoo.

"Yep, thanks for coming And after I pack up the few of my things every thing is ready to go. Will you be joining us?" Dongwoo asked with a smile. He just couldn't help but to smile.

"No can do. My uncle scolded me for not going to school and has taken away my free time. I just about managed to be able to get out of the house to come here. There was no use going to school to day seeing that it's already the end of the school week. But as soon as I get home I have a load of studying to do. But I would have loved to come round." Sungjong said with a face full of disappointment.

"I guess I'll see you at school Monday. If I don't get the chance to see you this weekend." Dongwoo said as he had began to pack the few books and papers that was still in the room. 

"I'll guess that I will take my leave then. Bye." Sungjong said leaving the room.

"Here. I got some clothes for you to wear. There is also some shoes for you to wear too. I still have some papers to fill out so I will meet you down stairs once you are done." Dongwoo said as he picked up the last of his things. He also picked up the few things that Hoya had and took them to the car that was waiting for them down stairs. He then went to the desk and signed a few documents that he needed to fill out.

Hoya got dress and felt comfort in his own clothes. He wonder how Dongwoo got the clothes. They looked exactly the same as what he had at home. Even the shoes where onces that he could have sworn that he had at home. He hoped that he didn't go to his house he didn't think that he would do that. But he was happy that Dongwoo had thought to get him some clothes though.

He looked back at the room for one last time making sure that he had everything. He took a deep breath and walked out of the room and in to the elevator bowing to the nurses as he pasted, he was thankful that they took such great care of him.

He walked to the desk were Dongwoo, who had just finished signing some papers, was standing.

"We're all set so lets go. Mr and Mrs Nam are dying to meet you they took the day off work to see you." Dongwoo said with a smile.

They sat in the car in silence as they dove to the house. The rid felt comfortable and Hoya loved that he was out the the hospital, he had been there for to long. Dongwoo deiced to make a quick and much needed detour. Hoya didn't mind as he just wanted to spend as much time with Dongwoo as possible any way.

 


Here is another capture for you all. I am going to try and move the story on a bit more. But nether the less I hope you liked this chapter. I have read the chapter over so hopefully there is no mistakes but there is always the some that I miss. So sorry if there is any mistakes. 

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namisuju
#1
Chapter 39: When i read chapter 39 and saw the "2 years latter" i started to cry :'( but the story evolved so good!!It was a relief for both Hoya and Dongwoo that they debuted in the same group <3 And the story from the begging it was so nice :D Congrats Dongsaeng <3 I wish you the same "victory" in the other stories !!! Kisses :*
burdenheart #2
Chapter 39: ah my typos .. i meant 'to the point where' and 'to write more stories'
burdenheart #3
Chapter 39: hmm i couldn't have guessed that this story would end in the point were they formed infinite but now that i think about it it actually is clever thought and the plot was nice. i liked this story. thanks for writing it! :-)
i hope you will continue to write stories. hwaiting!
singsongsungjong #4
Interesting!!~
namisuju
#5
Chapter 37: What a sad and also a beautifil chapter!!!!That was the reallity of life because it's not always pink and fluffy..... :'( Hoya try his best not to bother anymore Dongwoo and instead of that,he leaving.... decision from a boy who loves deep the other half of him...!!!! keep going dongsaeng <3
namisuju
#6
Chapter 36: No goodbyes no goodbyes pleaseeeeeeee T.T I almost cry reading this chapter !!!Life is cruel.... Kyaaaaaaa Jung Soryong ^_^ I hope with this job that Soryong gave it to Hoya,to rethink the possibility to stay there !!!!!