Chapter 32
Too Close to Love You
I hadn’t slept more than an hour in the course of two days, but sleep was the furthest thing from my mind. I watched Kyuhyun carefully, it seemed doubtful that he would wake up anytime soon, but I kept my eyes trained on him.
The doctor had returned after a few hours, but when he saw no change in Kyuhyun he asked me to stay. He left a bottle of brown liquid next to the untouched pitcher of water, telling me it was the pain medication.
I nodded, but I hoped Kyuhyun wouldn’t need it. I wished that Kyuhyun would simply sleep away the pain. However, I knew it was selfish to desire such a thing. I knew everyone was anxiously waiting for Kyuhyun to rise, the kingdom needed him desperately.
My eyes re-focused as Kyuhyun stirred slightly, letting out small grunts of discomfort. My breath caught in my throat as I watched, with a mix of fear and relief, his eyes finally flutter open.
I sat frozen as I watched him blink slowly, obviously trying to fight off the desire to fall back into unconsciousness. I saw him wince in pain, and his eyes shot open, most likely remembering the attack. I heard his labored breath and watched as he struggled to sit up, face contorting with the force of his effort.
I made no moves to help him, and he remained unaware of my presence. Eventually, he managed to prop himself up and his hands gingerly touched the wrappings that sealed in his wounds. He cursed softly, no doubt realizing that his injuries were serious.
His eyes shot upwards, his brows furrowed as he proceeded to glare at the ceiling with unrestrained malice.
“!” he cursed, “, , !”
He squeezed his eyes closed and his hands grabbed at his wrappings. I finally spoke up, concerned that he would hurt himself further.
“S-stop, don’t pull”
His eyes darted in my direction and his hands slowly fell from his bandages. I hesitantly looked up, but hurriedly averted my gaze when his wide eyes bored into mine.
“R-ryeowook?” he mumbled in a barely audible voice.
I didn’t bother to answer him and instead stood and made my way over to the small bedside table. I opened the pain medicine with shaky hands, doing my best not to drop the glass bottle. I handed him the medicine without looking at his face.
“Here” I said softly, holding it out to him.
There was a moment of silence before I finally felt the bottle being taken by cold hands. I quickly pulled my hands away and poured out some water. This time I didn’t make a move to hand it to him, simply leaving it on the table.
I stood there for a few minutes trying to steady my breaths before slowly making my way back to the chair beside the bed.
I could literally feel the weight of Kyuhyun’s stare settle on me. I snuck a glance at him and I flinched slightly when I met his eyes. It was only a split second, but I still felt my heart sink a little. Kyuhyun’s eyes had returned to that guarded, unreadable state. It hurt because Kyuhyun obviously didn’t trust me anymore.
It was stupid, I told myself. That was what I had wanted. I wanted Kyuhyun to distance himself, I wanted him to pull away. Logically I knew I should have been pleased, but all I could feel was an uncomfortable pull in my chest.
I cleared my throat awkwardly, but couldn’t bring myself to say anything. Kyuhyun also didn’t make a move to speak and a heavy silence settled between us.
“I… I’ll get the doctor” I mumbled as I walked towards the door eyes on my feet.
“No.”
I froze and looked up at Kyuhyun in surprise. His eyes were still guarded, but his lips were set in a stubborn line. Not knowing what to do, I retreated back to the chair and resumed staring at my lap.
“D-does… does it h-hurt?”
“I got shot and almost died, what do you think?”
Normally I would have glared and shot him a sarcastic comment, but things weren’t really normal anymore. I bit my lip, wincing slightly as I tasted blood. I had chewed the out of my lip in the last few minutes.
“Kyuhyun…” I began, but I he interrupted me with a cold voice.
“It’s funny, I almost die and now all of the sudden you want to talk? That’s rich.”
I gritted my teeth, but stopped myself from lashing back.
“You made it quite clear that you wanted space, well I’m giving you what you want. Don’t worry, I’ll never bother you again, so feel free to skip back to your master like the ing you are.”
Now it my turn to clench my jaw tightly. He didn’t sound angry and he didn’t yell, but the words dripped with a detached maliciousness that ate away at me. I could have handled his anger and I could have taken his yelling, but I wasn’t equipped to deal with his condescending blows.
Pride was all I had left, and I would be damned if I let Kyuhyun look down on me so blatantly.
“I didn’t ask for your goddamn arrogance, you bastard!”
I finally met his eyes with an unrestrained glare. He stared back at me coldly, not giving an inch. The staring match continued and the tension between us grew so strong that I began to tremble under the pressure of it all.
“Are you going to say anything?!” I finally spat out.
He shrugged, wincing slightly as the movement jostled his shoulder.
“What do you want me to say Ryeowook? What do you ing want from me?!” he snapped angrilly.
I stared at him, more surprised than anything. Strangely part of me was relieved to get any emotion out of him, even if it was a negative one.
I continued to hold his gaze and I could literally see him shake with anger.
“Tell me! TELL ME WHAT YOU ING WANT RYEOWOOK!”
In the midst of his outburst he hissed quietly and his hand clenched at his chest.
“S-…” he panted, his face contorting in pain.
I hurried to his side without thinking.
“Calm down, your wounds will re-open” I warned, placing my hands on his chest and pushing him back until he was resting against the pillows.
Our eyes met and only then did I realize how intimate our position was. I flushed slightly and tried to pull my hands away, but Kyuhyun grabbed them and stopped me.
“Wha-“ I began, but I was cut off.
Kyuhyun’s lips were suddenly pressed against my own
Ah I'm late as ever, huh?
Well this time I actually have an excuse!
But since today is my baby Wook's birthday in Korea, I decided to procrastinate on my scholarship essay to bring you...
*cue dramatic music*
KYUWOOK KISS!!!!
If I can get my together, I'll try to update tomorrow to celebrate Wookie's birthday here in America. Besides, I know you're all curious to see how Wook deals with Kyu stealing his precious kiss.
Happy birthday my lovely Ryeowook, I love you to the moon and back!
*hugs and kisses Ryeowook poster awkwardly*
Music: "Breaking Free"- Ryeowook and Luna (bc the thought of Wookie as Troy Bolten pretty much fufills every teenage fanatsy I've ever had XD)
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