Sungmin POV

“Sungmin-ah” he calls me before he goes to his daily work.

“Ne, Kyu?” I reply and smile to him as usual with full of my love to him.

“I have something important to talk about.” His face looks very serious and his tone sounds so cold. I feel something not good in this circumstance. “I-I’m sorry..”

“For what?” I cut him and smile to him. I never feel he had something wrong to me.  I know every mistake he did are not  big deal for me, as usual I easily forgive him. Because I love him too much, I can’t live with hatred in my heart. I only have him on my mind. I just love him too much for these 2 years. I, Cho Sungmin, always love my husband, Cho Kyuhyun, for the rest of my life until God takes my soul apart from my body. I promise that I will always take good care of him and make him happy, I’ll do whatever he wants to make him happy.

We’ve been together since 2 years ago by engagement of our families. My parents met me with this lovely man of my life one day. Our parents agreed to make us as a couple and married us as soon as possible. I kind had a nervous feeling when I met him for the first time. He’s handsome, smart, and very cool, also have good manner. My parents liked him so much, so did his parents to me. One month later, we officially announced as married couple. I felt so happy, that the man I love finally became my husband. I’d do my best to make him happy, and I think he loved me too, that what I thought as newly couple. He never complaint anything, he always nice to me though he never showed me his feeling. Only see his smiling back at me, I feel the happiest person in this world.  I don’t need anything in this world, I just need him beside me, and I just need to love him for the rest of my life.

“What is it, Kyu...” I’m asking him again. He looks at the floor and silent for a moment. “Kyu...?”

“I-I cheat on you, Sungmin....”

What?

I feel like a thousand swords stabbing my heart. “Kyu...? It’s not true isn’t it? Tell me it’s not true...” I wanna cry.

I can’t believe it. NO. I can’t. He must be lying and then he will giggle and laugh out loud, saying that it was a joke. Yes, he will !

“No, Sungmin... it’s true... “ He whispers. “I’m sorry. I-I never love you, Sungmin. I’m sorry...”

“But I love you, Kyu... “ I can’t hold my tears anymore. He doesn’t look at me and close his eyes. “Kyuhyun, you know that I love you, right?” I touch his shoulder.

“I know.” He cut my word impatiently. “But I never love you back. 2 years is like... I cannot love you! I have someone I love. I feel like I’m alive when I with this person. And I want to live with the one I love...”

I can not say anything. My heart is hurt when he said he loves someone, when he never loved me back. It hurts so much, I’m dying inside. I cry and I cry, but he doesn’t soothe me a little.

“Sungmin....”

“....”

“Let’s separate...”

“Mwo..?”

“Let’s separate. Our relationship is not healthy. I don’t love you, Sungmin. You will hurt as time goes by.”

“No!” I cry harder. “P-please.... I don’t care if you don’t love me back. Please stay by my side. I love you...” I plead and down on my knees in front of him. I look up to his face, I hold his knee begging him to stay. “Please don’t leave me, I’ll do- I’ll do anything!” I cry as I tug his shirt like a child.

“Sungmin, don’t be like this, “ holds my side to lift me up. “No matter how hard you beg me. I still on my decision. I have to do this, Sungmin. Please get up.” He lifts me up and I hold his waist. I cry to his chest as I hug him tightly whishing that he will stay.

“Please don’t go....”

“I’m sorry...” he whispers. He says that last word to me this morning. “We talk again tonight.”

He makes me let go my hug and leave me alone. When he disappears behind the door, I feel like I’m alone in this world. I can’t hear the birds chirping outside, I can’t hear the traffic from distance. I’m dying, Kyuhyun... Do you know that...?

I walk to my office when my spirit seems sleeping inside my body. I don’t know how to face my husband, the one that I love, tonight. Will I see his smile again? Will he be nice and sweet as usual? I wish this day never come, I want to reset to yesterdays, when I’m happy with him. When I never think that we’re going to be separated.

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Tonight 7pm

“My decision is already final. I will handle our divorce. I have contact my lawyer today. We just have to wait your answer.”

“.....”

“Don’t worry about yourself. I will leave our place. This apartment include all inside will be belong to you. I just take my belongings. I still need my clothes and underwear, rite?” he laugh tries to chill the air.

I sigh and force myself to smile.

“Kyu...”

“Hmm?”

“Is it that I don’t have any chances?”

“I’m sorry, Sungmin.” He sighs.

“Kyu, I need time. Please give me time.” I beg him.

“How much you need, Sungmin?” he sighs. “No matter how long you ask, it’s only a waste!”

“No!” I cut him. “It-it’s not what you think. I promise I won’t hold you, Kyu. Please... I promise”

“For how long?”

“1 month” I answer. “Only 1 month, kyu. Please let me live for the last time with you for 1 month. I think it’s fair enough since you ask me to divorce suddenly.”

He sighs. “Okay, 1 month. No longer than 1 month.” He looks at me deeply.

“Kyu... and for the last.. I’m asking for your favor...” I say almost audible.

“What is it?”

“I... please carry me for 1 month every morning when I go to work. It’s only until the bus stop, Kyu. Please?”

“Why are you asking me?”

“I don’t want to leave a bad memory of you, Kyu...” I answer him full of my heart. My eyes almost drop a tear but I don’t want to cry anymore in front of him. “I just want to remember our happiness. Until we separate, I only remember how good you are, even you have someone new and never love me.” I hope he will understand and fulfill my wish.

He sighs and rubs his face with his palm. “And what else do you want?”

“That’s all...” I say to him. “Please, Kyu. This is the last request... I promise that I guarantee your wish to be separate.”

“Okay, I’ll do what you want. After 30 days and carry you every morning... Let’s separate.”

 “Let’s separate....” I say inaudible to hold my tears.

“And let’s not meet again.”

‘Let’s not meet again....’  I say it in my heart. My mouth can not say the last words. It hurts me a lot when he says that. Therefore, I just nod to him. After the talk, we separate to our room. Tonight, the first time I sleep alone without him. He takes another bedroom leaving me alone in used to call our bedroom. I lay to our king size bed which is seem become too wider for me since he’s not here. I curl into a ball inside the blanket and hug my bunny plushy tightly. I cry hard to my bunny. Wish it will understand my feeling and hold me back to soothe the pain inside my heart. I feel tired of crying all night and my eyes become heavier before I see nothing only black...

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I'm sorry that I put aside my early fanfic 3 Frog Princes. I write this because I have some idea when I heard Let's Not song.Besides my feeling seems in mellow rite now.. LOL. But don't worry I'm still on going to write the next chapter, it's just unfinish yet. 

Sorry for typos. I have headache rite now, but can't stop me from writting. XP

I think I need love. I have to find Sungmin ASAP and marry him!! Hahaha #lost my mind.

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