Dear diary,

The night with Yunho actually has been perfect. As expected. Okay. I admit it. My heart almost jumped out of my chest while he cuddled me from behind. We were in bed too..so yeah guess what. Boom boom. Heart, we all know you are here, thanks. Well, it made Yunho laugh hard at least. His laughter is so ing cute! ing !! I mean, , for real now. Anyway. We were lying there for a VERY long time. God, no one can even imagine how heavenly that man smells like. I wish I could make a parfume out of that scent. I swear! I don't know when he fell asleep but I did quite soon, after he had stopped to kiss my neck, too. Seriously, my hair stood up all the time. Well, of course not the one on my head and the..eh, nevermind. You know. We all do. I love this and omg he's coming back now! Bye!
Joongie 


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"Jaejoong? What are you doing?" Yunho is leaning on the doorframe to my room and I spin around just to grin at him widely. I try to seem innocent. Well... Such a big fail huh? Because Yunho is just grinning as well and rising an eyebrow "Sure?"

"Writing diary" I admit and shrug. Well, it's fine right? Diaries are normal. I at least think so.

"Wow! You're writing a diary? Me too. I do that since I learned how to write" Oh god. I will die young I guess because that smile is just ....yeah. Get me a grave.

"Eh really? Wish I could read it"

"You can. It's not just one diary since I am 32 years old, you know?" That laughter. Angel, where have you been all my life long?

"Nevermind~ I would read them all. up the information you know?" My grin gets even wider and I am humming. Happiness, I finally know your name. It's Jung Yunho!

"Okay deal! But then I will read this one when it's done okay? Is it your first diary?"

"Yeah it is" I nod and hesitate but admit it in the end. There is no reason for me to hide it anyway "I started it when I met you... actually..yeah that."

Yunho keeps quiet for a while. He seems to not have expected that answer. Oh god..is he? He who is 32 ing years old, is embarrassed? Blushing? What is it???

"Yunho?.."

He clears his throat and smiles "Stop that"

"Stop what?" I look at him confused? What? What? What?!

"Stop ing my mind up like that. I mean come on! I saw you at the trainstation and ever since ...well, yeah let's say I am obsessed in a way. God, even my daughter asked what the hell is wrong with me"

I swallow hard. Daughter? Wait, wait. Is he married?!

"D-daughter?" I furrow my brows. I am obviously confused. Actually I am begging and praying to god at that moment.

"Yeah~ She's 14 and god, she's definitely..you know? Puberty?"

"A-are you married?"

He stops to talk. Oh . He looks like someone tried to rip his heart out of his chest. Mine aches too "No Jaejoong. I would never cheat. I hate that."

I immediately get up from the chair and walk over to him to press a gentle kiss onto his lips "I am sorry..I just..I have been cheated on. You know? It really hurts" I have to whisper because the imagination of Heechul makes me want to scream or cry. I dunno.

"That must have been the biggest idiot on earth" He reaches his hand out to my cheek. His hands are rough. Like he has been working a lot. But I know he is a lawyer. So why are they like that?

"Give me your diaries soon please.." I just can lean into the soft touch. That man really can calm a person! I swear.

"Jaejoong?"

"Yes?"

"How old are you? You didn't tell me after all"

I wide my eyes and stare at him before I laugh. Oops! He has to chuckle loudly too. Heaven ~

"Come on, old man! Let me cook for you" I hum as I disappear in the kitchen. His eyes are wide as he looks after me. Soon he is following me.

"Old man? Hey! Are you younger? How much. I don't care actually but I wanna know!" He whines and I could seriously squeak! ? But I have to protect my pokerface.

"Maybe~"

"Boo!"

"Huh? Boo?" Did he just call me baby? I stop right there only to look at him "Did you just say boo?"

He stares back at me and is speachless for a moment. He seems uncomfortable "Eh..Oops..sorry"

I roll my eyes "24. And boo is fine. I like it when you say it"

"Boojae"

"What?" 

"I will call you Boojae sometimes"

"Interesting~" Kitchen here I go again.

"Yunnie aren't you coming?" 

"Yes sir!"

Man, I really love my current life. 

++++to be continued++++