CHAPTER XVII

(phone ringing)

“Hello,” Rosé answers.

“Is there anyone at home?” Jennie asks over the phone.

“I think Lisa is sleeping upstairs. Do you want me to wake her up?” Rosé asks as she starts to walk upstairs to go to Lisa’s bedroom.

“Yes please,” says Jennie.

(knock doors)

“Lisa-ah, Jennie unnie calls you,” says Rosé as she knocks on Lisa’s door several times. However, there are no respond. Rosé puts her mobile phone on her ears back. “Unnie, I’ll call you back,” Rosé tells Jennie.

“Oh- okay.”

Rosé ends the call and pull the door knob before entering Lisa’s room. As she enters, she sees Lisa rushing out from the bathroom with a wet hair and immediately picks all her things and camera and stuff it all in her bag.

“Lisa-ah, Jennie unnie-”

“I know! I know! Don’t mention her name. I’m already late!” Lisa cut Rosé’s word before she could finish her sentence.

“Oh- okay,” says Rosé, shrugging off her shoulder before went back downstairs to finish folding her clothes to bring for her trip to Australia tomorrow.

“I’ll leave first!” Lisa exclaimed as she runs out of the house at the speed of a lightning.

Rosé frowns and shook her head seeing Lisa. She will be missing this house a lot when she left later. She will miss the smell of Jennie’s cooking meal every morning, Lisa’s fussiness for being late to work and also Jisoo’s nagged every time they eat. Rosé looks around the house. She will really miss every inch of the house and every memories that lies in here.

*te-ne-net*

Rosé heard someone entered the house passcode. She smiles.

“Yah Lalisa, what else did you left behind?” Rosé nagged as she walks towards the door, smiling.

She was stunned to see the person standing in front of her right now. Her eyes widened. Her smiles faded away. “What are you doing here?” she asks.

The person in front of her did not utter any words. Rosé’s heart feels heavy. She is breathing fine but she felt like gasping for air. Silence broke between them when the person standing in front of her suddenly sobs.

“Pasta-ah.”

Rosé looks away.

“Leave now,” she said, firmly. “I don’t want to charge you as intruder. It’s better if you leave now before I called the police, Jungkook-shi,” Rosé continued.

“Pasta-ah, do you not remember me? Yah, I am Kookie,” Jungkook walks closer towards Rosé. Rosé steps behind. Not willing to stand close to Jungkook. She didn’t even turn to look at Jungkook. “Pasta-ah, I miss you so much,” said Jungkook softly.

Rosé smirked.

“Miss? Tsk.”

“I never forget about you. Not even once. Why did you not tell me you were my pasta back in high school? Not three years ago, not even now? Why are you being so secretive with me, Chaeyoung-ah? You know that I really love you when we were in high school right?” Jungkook’s tears rolled down to his cheeks.

Rosé turns facing him and glares at him. “If you never forget about me, how can you recognize Rosé as the pub girl Chaeyoung that you met three years ago but not the pasta girl you’re so called in love with when you’re in high school,” Rosé glared at him. “Pasta, Chaeyoung and Rosé are all the same person, but you keep on ‘Chaeyoung, Chaeyoung’ me all the time. Not even once you realized that I am Pasta, the plump, dark and ugly girl you dated and claim loved in high school back then!” Rosé loses her patience and slightly shouted at Jungkook.

Jungkook anxiously pulls Rosé’s arm and grasp her hand but Rosé pulls back her hand hard.

“Don’t touch me,” Rosé’s voice starts to trembled. Her tears started to swim inside her eyes waiting to fall like rains.

“Chaeyoung-ah, I-.”

“Why did you come here? To beg me to forgive you? To convince me that you’re guilty for what you have done in the past?” Rosé questions him. Her tears that she has been holding falls through her cheek. “No need. Just leave me and my freaking life alone!”

Rosé turns back to leave the living room but Jungkook grabs her arm and pulls her backwards for a back hug. She struggles herself to let go but Jungkook hugs her tighter.

“I love you,” he whispers in her ears.

“You don’t, Jungkook-shi. You only love how I look like now. You only love appearances. Don’t tell me you don’t because it took you almost two years to sleep with me when we were 18. But in the end, you didn’t even sleep me because of how I look. Oh- I might be wrong. You me. Why? Because of your lust right? Or you might be thinking because I am craving for you. Do I sound like a to you? Yes, I am. Because you make me one. ,” Rosé’s voice trembled.

Jungkook loosen his hug. He looks down. Rosé escapes from him and turns facing him.

“I never think of sleeping with you at that time. I am more than thankful that you could accept me the way I am for goddamn two years. Because I realize that you're the only guy who sees me that way. The others were looking down on me. I thought you were sincere, but turns out I am just one of the victim to satisfy your lust! I should've realize that when everyone were back-talking me being with you despite of how I look. But I didn't. Because why? Because I really love you back then. And I thought you love me too. But, you totally proved me wrong. Do you know why you could stand with me for almost two years? You could stand people talking about you, a handsome boy but in a relationship with a hideous girl? Because you know, I’m a that time. You can play me anytime you want because I'm fresh. I feel sicked everytime I think about it, Jungkook. YOU FORCE ME EVEN WHEN I REFUSE, JEON JUNGKOOK!” Rosé push him further away from her.

Jungkook falls on his knees. He was crying so hard over what Rosé had to say towards him.

“I’ve had enough of you. Let’s stop here.”

“No! No, you can’t do this to me! I….I…” (stutters)

“I what? You know since the beginning right? I don’t really keep flowers that its sweetness has been out by bees? You should be grateful that I still favour you up till now.” (let out heavy breath)

“Please don’t do this to me! I beg you,” (cries heavily) (kneeling down)

“That’s enough!”

Things that happened several years ago came back to Jungkook’s mind at the moment.

“I beg you not to leave me when you were leaving, but did you listen to me? No! You didn’t care! You’re not even listening to me! You refuse to listen to what I’m going to tell you! If you had listen to me back then, if you had freaking listen that I am pregnant of your baby that time…” Rosé sighed. “Don’t even talked about three years ago, Jungkook,” she said silently.

Rosé walks towards the couch and took a sit.

“Do you know why I am so mad?” Rosé asks, wipes away her tears.

She turns to look at the kneeling Jungkook.

“I’m not mad when you force to sleep with me although it’s my first time, not even when you refused to listen to me and leave me dumbfounded. I’m not mad when my family throw me out because I was pregnant or when I went looking for you three years ago to tell you that I’ve changed a lot for you and I wanted to introduce you to our daughter but you recognized me as a pub girl and hook up with me. I’m not mad at all that at all,” says Rosé.

She looks away from Jungkook who are still not moving from kneeling on the floor.

“I’m mad that when I came back three years later with a new identity to avenge you, I realized that I still love you. All of my efforts and preparation to avenge your doings in the past went wasted.” Rosé’s voice slowed down.

Jungkook lift his head looking at Rosé sitting at the couch. He stood up and walks towards Rosé. He kneels again when he reach in front of Rosé. He grasp Rosé’s hand on her lap and look up to Rosé.

“I’m sorry for causing you a lot of heartbreak, Chaeyoung-ah. I’m sorry for not noticing you,” he cried.

“I tried so hard three years ago, you know? To hint you about me and Jiyeon’s existence. But you simply look away. You simply left again. I didn’t even manage to let you know that your daughter exist. OUR daughter exist,” Rosé silently said.

Jungkook buried his face onto Rosé’s lap, crying even harder.

“At times I feel that God is unfair to me. But He is actually not. He took you and my family away when I was at the bottom, but He gave me Jiyeon and my friends to light up my world,” Rosé slightly smile.

Rosé gently pushing away Jungkook from her lap and stood up. Jungkook stood up as well. She looks into Jungkook’s eyes.

“I am tired actually. Of you. Of being broken hearted. Of having to realize that I am just another women in your life that passes by,” Rosé sighed. “Just go. You’re not belong here. I’ve moved on with my life. I won’t be disturbing your life again,” Rosé said.

She turns to leave.

But Jungkook grab her arms.

A/N: Hi everyone! To those who already had the feeling that Jungkook is the father, congratulations! You're totally right! But I couldn't let you know right? It won't be a surprise then hehe ;p Comment below and let me know what you think of this chapter! There's still quite a few chapters coming soon. It won't ends with just Rosé's confession to Jungkook so please please please stay tuned to know what else will happen between them okay?! Have a good day everyone!