Please note that this fanfic contains self-harm,depression,bullying and such.To those who cannot handle angst or any of the warnings i put beforehand,please do not read.This is a first for me so i beg your pardon and be lenient towards my horrible writing skills.Thanks~✩
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N,Vixx's leader,who often pretends to not get hurt by the mere insults and passive attitudes shown by his fellow members.He, who often just play along with s just for their happiness and peace of mind while himself is slowly being torn apart bit by bit.

He could even feel himself becoming slightly insane and slowly falling into his deep dark abyss of depression.

Often trying to talk and cheer s up after a long day of work but nevertheless his effort was futile.

After all his effort in trying to mingle with s,he then excused himself to finally retire into his own personal room since everyone rejected the idea of sleeping or rooming with their 'annoying and clingy' leader.

Yes...the members considered him clingy but mostly annoying because of all his efforts in to trying to lift up their moods after a long day of work and stress by doing various aegyos and asking about various sorts of questions of their day.In which the members,oblivious and not understanding their leaders real intention,they shooed him away.

Don't get them wrong,they really do love and care about N especially leo,his life long friend but they,being stubborn kids,who refuse to openly show their leader some affection to which they instead throw profanities and insults towards N's way.

Aside from his own group members,their fans...Vixx's fans also seem to only care about his other members.Some