I could not believe her. After all we had been through, I thought I already got an advantage to her. I thought she felt the same as I did. How about all those efforts and concerns? What happened to those moments when she was there to take care of me? What about those times when we were together having so much fun? Did I read her actions wrong?

“Let’s not fall in love.”

That was her answer when I told her that I have fallen for her.

“I’m sorry. Can we just stay this way?”

And she left me when I needed her the most. She did not even turn her back or allowed me to tell more about how I felt. She was so cruel that I wanted to hate her. But how could I hate her when it was her that I love the most?

When I came back after a short grieving, Hongki said she already left. So that was it. I got rejected. I knew how stubborn she was. No for a no and yes for a yes. I should then stick to what she said and stay this way. But no, she could not stop me from loving her until she realized that I deserved her.

Shinhye, I’m sorry. Did I make you uncomfortable?

I messaged her that same night because I wanted to salvage whatever was left to us. Her rejecting my love did not mean me losing her. I could not lose her.

I’m fine. See you again some other time, chingu ya.

Friend. Yes. She had to emphasize and shove that to my face. I hate h