I just smiled at him as he continued cleaning my wounds. To be honest I don't know why I don't feel anything anymore. It doesn't hurt anymore, the wounds, when Jongin was applying the cream on it. I'm not sure if it's true or is it because I'm putting my attention on only Jongin, instead of the wounds. I didn't even realize this. "You're so great in doing this." I said this to him. He just smiled and continued. 

I was looking at him the whole time he was doing my wounds. I looked at his hair again and I could feel blood rushed to my cheeks as I remembered what happened earlier. As I was staring at him, just as he finished doing his job, he turned his direction to me and without my realization, we were caught in the moment. We locked each other's gaze and I couldn't look away. 

I could feel that our faces were getting closer and closer until there was only one inch of distance between us. I could literally felt his breath. I'm like staring at each of his features on his face. From his forehead to his beautiful pair of eyes which sparkles when I looked into them to his perfectly shaped nose to his ever so soft looking lips. I returned my gaze back to his eyes and I saw that he was staring at my lips and so I closed my eyes.

Before I even knew, I felt something pressed onto my lips. It felt warm and electrifying but exciting at the same time. I opened my eyes to see that it was Jongin's lips which were on mine. All of the sudden, Jongin placed both his hands on my face and continued kissing me again. I have to admit that I really enjoyed this feeling but it's wrong, so wrong. We weren't even a thing and how could I returned to the gesture? And so I pulled back first and "sorry" was all I breathed-whispered. I wished I could run out, to at least go somewhere alone to think what had happened to me, but I couldn't as my knees were terribly hurt.

Jongin was still looking at me with worry in his eyes, even after I apologized to him. I really don't know what had gotten into me. I was so scared at that time when I was returning him the gesture and not long after, I had this flashback on when i was having my first kiss with him. I didn't want to remember anything that had to do with him. 

When we both heard the door knob turn and made a sound, we both turned to the same direction and looked who is coming in. We both sighed in relief that it was Minah who came in. She looked shock to find us both in here, under the dark, that's because Jongin didn't turn on the light when he came in. "Opps, I'm sorry to interrupt you both. I'm just in here to get something and after that you both can continue on doing whatever you were doing. I'm really sorry." After she finished saying that, she was eyeing me and giving me a smirk before she left. I realize what she meant. She must have saw that both me and Jongin's faces were only one inch away. 

Then i looked back to Jongin when he let out a cough as to call for my attention. "Uhm then I'll just leave you here to rest first then I guess I'll see you later? In the bbq, that is if you're able to come." Jongin walked towards the bathroom carrying the first aid box. After he came out from the bathroom, he walked directly towards the door to exit the room, but before he left, he told me that he really hoped I could attend the party. I just nodded to him. 

How could I be this careless? I should have turned away. I should have not return him the gesture, at least. 

What is this feeling? I hit my chest twice. Why am I like this? Sure, me and Jongin are close friends, but is that really what I felt about him? Or was it something more? I'm sure Jongin was too caught up in the moment so that's why he kissed me right? But what about when he kissed me and placed both his hands on my face? 

Am I slowly falling for him? But this shouldn't have happened? I'm not feeling well, not physically but mentally. I'm not sure about what I'm feeling for him anymore. Is it friends or more than that. What about Jongin, is it really what Minah said? 

I decided not to think about this anymore and went to shower to calm myself down. 

After I finished showering, I put onto my outfit. I wore something simple. Just a white tee and a light washed shorts and paired with a slipper. I took a glanced on my wrist watch to note that it had already past 7.15 pm. I was already late. I quickly ran down the halls and towards the door to the bbq venue. When I reached there, i was looking for Minah because obviously she's the one who made me come here. 

"Araaaaa! You're finally here. I thought you fainted or something." I turned to look only to find it was Minah. I smiled at her and told her that Im sorry I was late. Then she let out a smirk at me. "Oh it's no problem as I see you were having fun back in our room ya? You should have done it more carefully Ara, you should have a room for just you two." I hit her strongly on her arm which she let out a loud "ouchhhhh that hurts a lot Ara."